I Find It Weird How The Most Random Braindead Thoughts I End Up Spewing Get More Likes Than The Well-thought-out,

i know i talked about buying the tweed jacket in the end but i didn’t have enough money so i bought a puma hoodie instead lmao

broke academia things

curling up in the corner of a public library and pretending you live there 

taking pictures of the ruins of your local cathedral because you need those aesthetic pictures for your blog

staring longingly at the tweed jacket you’ll never afford in the shop window

wearing the same red turtleneck (the only one you happen to own) in every outfit you can in a hundred different ways

staring longingly at the tweed jacket in the shop window

impulsively buying the tweed jacket and putting yourself in financial debt for the sake of aesthetic (totally worth it) 

notes for future me (because 2022 is in three hours)

New Years Eve 2021 - 9pm

-confidence - work on speaking to people, noones going to hold your awkwardness over your head

(and anyone who does deserves to have all their movies spoiled and their favourite characters brutally murdered)

- study your ass off - this is your last year in secondary school. do well on your gcses and mocks. make it count, you want that scholarship you have to work for it. - you do you - let’s try to be ourselves and not care too much about other people and their irrelevant opinions this year and never cry over those who are undeserving Next year I want to sincerely better myself, please work on yourself too.  I’ll see you next year ~ Amimi

moving forward

00:05am - written immediately after previous post. my tumblrs been neglected due to my focus on other social media and shitty life stuff in general. planning to focus my spare time and attention solely on here and on this blog, i’ll probably move away from dark academia and shift towards my more recent interests and studyblr things but i’m unsure as to what exactly yet.  having champage problems and in dire need of sleep ~ Amimi

london livelihood (the sequel)

carrying on from my previous post after leicester square we finally got to the most exciting part of the trip, winter wonderland. surprisingly a lot of people were only there for the food, which i was very surprised by, i think the main event is the rides, no? first up was the Eurocoaster, i went with two friends who i'm gonna name Tall and Blue at the time it seemed very scary but it was nothinggggg compared to the other two rides we went on after. it twists and turns and went up and down at the most unexpected moments, i think Tall was also wary of the fact she was sitting inbetween two motion sick people but thank gosh nothing went wrong. all three of us screamed our lungs out and then Tall said the ride wasn't even scary?? i think she screamed the most lolol. next up was my choice, The Boomer, a big 360 swing that also rotates the carriage so you're spinning upside down. this was without a doubt the scariest ride i've ever been on. i mean, go big or go home right?? when we first got strapped in i heavily regretted all my life decisions and chose that specific moment to tell Blue about my fear of height. remembering it gives me goosebumps. after all the mayhem, the ride came to a stop at the top and for a solid 5 minutes we had the best view of not only winter wonderland but the whole of london. i think for a few minutes i loved the height more than anything. we took a small break to cool off because that ride is exhilarating before walking around so Blue could have her pick. That ended up being the Munich Looping. I'm quite sad that I didn't get to keep the mid-ride picture because i managed to keep a straight face the entire time but alas! there is no proof. We explored the rest of the park after that! Took photos and met up with friends where we tried churros and macarons (overrated imo) I slept the entire ride home. I think it's definitely something I'm going to remember for a long time afterwards. The image of london from the top of the Boomer and the chill from the cold is engrained in the forefront of my memory until next time! Amimi

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da inspired dates noone will do w/ me

- going to a theatre and watching a Shakespearean play - going to a planetarium or stargazing and sitting in a comfortable silence -  spending time huddled up in a library back to back or gazing at eachother through shelves - writing dates where you meet up and write something together or seperately and exchange writing pieces at the end - watch harry potter together while in a pillow or blanket fort til next time ~Amimi

Shut the hell up …

this is one of many, many, many notifs. first corn accs now bots oml tumblr give me a break pls

seventeen (no cigarette daydreams)

i'm gonna be 17 in less than three hours, i hope getting older means all the aching over things from years ago can go away, i feel like im just frozen at a point in time because no matter what i do there's so many things that don't seem to leave. i wish sixth form goes fast and that i can actually get out of this slump thats seemed to have lasted for the longest time now. i have so much work to do from the easter holiday, i had my chromebook confiscated from me but i got it back the other night so i'll need to last minute complete everything. i want to visit my primary school but i'm a bit scared of how different it's going to be, and if my old teachers will actually be happy to see me. my mum wants me to start driving lessons but i feel like with everything going on i won't be able to handle it.

i was supposed to make a birthday playlist post but honestly there's no point because i won't listen to it anyways i hope when school starts again things will be a bit less miserable. that's all for now Amimi

STOP WAITING FOR SOMETHING THAT WILL NEVER COME!

THERE WILL BE NO CALL TO ADVENTURE, YOU HAVE TO CHASE IT YOURSELF!!