Frjason - Idk Man

i feel like we keep zoning out (especially when talking to ourself!!!) and it's really annoying cause like... where'd all the time go, also why does this happen?

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it feels like im two people at once, i keep saying things that I wouldn't say + thoughts feel like thoughts I wouldn't think. GOING INSANE

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does anyone feel like they're still in control while switching alters? PLUS it's like you're slowly turning into another alter rather than like being pushed put of your body-switch?

Like the only noticeable difference that we have is, emotional amnesia (so we feel like different people) + personality and likes/dislikes change

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Don’t tickle FNAF Chica ever,,

we're a questioning system. but pretty much yeah, we have like mild aphantasia and we don't have a headspace since we very much cannot see it

We've also done research on this as well, and there have been multiple (confirmed) systems who say that they don't have a headspace due to having aphantasia as well

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Hi, I have a question about systems! If you or an alter has aphantasia, where you can't picture things in your mind, can you still see your headspace?

Thats actually a good question!! We wouldn't really know since none of us have aphantasia ^^"

hi other systems anyone with have experience with this?

projecting my trauma onto fictional characters /j

REAL... but i feel so scared to use tupperbox/pluralkit cause i dont wanna be fakeclaimed

Is it a headmate? Is it a fragment? Is it a facet? Is it a persona? Am I subconsciously masking? Am I subconsciously/involuntarily otherlinking/copinglinking? Is it a kinshift? Is it a ’flicker? Is it age regression? Is it a mood? Is it impulsivity? Is it an intrusive thought that I’m reacting to? Is it genderfluidity? Is it pronoun/namefluidity?

Who knows! Who cares! I don’t need to stress about this, it doesn’t matter! It’s a mode that the “I” is in, the way I feel in that moment! And I will make a pluralkit/tupperbox for it so I can express myself and decide the rest later! Or never! These labels are a construct! Personhood itself is a construct! I don’t need to box myselves! I can just live!

me at dionysus's parties:

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Why is it that, when we're intoxicated, we are much more comfortable being ourselves, as we are? This is liberating. We deserve this more often.

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lil vent

we're so scared of being fake, fakeclaiming ourselves on a daily basis. what if we're actually not a system? we switch way too often and get blurry+blended even more. Sharing memories, and not having drastic switches is making us go crazy. We have hardly any barriers between each other so it gets really hard to differentiate each other plus we have terrible memory, so it could just be that we genuinely don't remember something rather than have emotional amnesia

we can't even really remember our trauma completely either

i told my therapist about marble hornets and she cut the session short…

"damn that sounds awesome i wanna watch it now, get out"