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Having one of those days where I don’t get out of bed til 4pm bc I would have to look in the mirror to shower but I need to shower but I’d have to look in the mirror so I can’t shower which means I can’t move

Coming out to my boyfriend and friends went far better than expected and even if I’m not comfortable medically transitioning right now (Mainly due to financials/political environment/current career changes) it’s so nice to feel a little more comfortable at home.

- thinks I might be genderfluid in high school

- wears multiple sports bras at a time in an attempt to bind bc my chest bothers me so much

- gets laughed at when I tell my then boyfriend

- drops it for several years and becomes as girlie as possible

- comes out as enby at 23

- still experiencing awful gender dysphoria

- starts questioning if I’m trans

- spends hours every night explaining to myself why that can’t possibly be it and what would happen if I transitioned

- boyfriend makes jokes about how he knows I wish I had a p****

- is so incredibly dysphoric and stressed that others start to notice but there’s no one to talk to not really

Having awful gender dysphoria, like the worst you’ve ever felt, and not being able to tell your boyfriend because you’re pretty sure he’d leave if you ever decided to transition.

Sometimes I wanna be a fem guy in the way that a cis man can be a fem guy instead of being trans and just being seen as a girl. Is that too much to ask?

I just wanna be pretty and girly but in the way a boy can be

maybe THE honor moment of all time?

(Cosmere Inktober day #13 - Honor)

for those who wanted adolin and shallan to switch places

version 1

Taravangian really said "I want that twink obliterated" and then obliterated the twink

It’s funny to imagine being Nale in the final moments of WaT. Like here you are about to imprint your morals on this suicidal man who your work friend has been grooming since he was 9 to replace your other work friend who is dead, & all you have left to do is kill this dude Kaladin stormface, who is supposed to be this amazing fighter… and this motherfucker pulls out a magic flute, & starts serenading your ass with the worst rendition of a nursery song you’ve ever heard in your life

& the worst part ?

it fucking works.

Kaladin and Syl dancing! The amount of Joy I felt while drawing these two is actually amazing. I love them! ❤️

The old "Thought of you" animation was a huge inspiration.

At the end of the day I know I would be happier if I was born a man. I wouldn’t identify the way I do now. I’d be comfortable in my own skin. But I’ll never know what that feels like and everyday feels like a fight. I won’t do anything about it though, I’m not strong enough.

(vague spoilers for I Saw The TV Glow, I don't recommend you read it until after seeing the film.)

in a psychological sense? fucking terrifying. when I left the theater I was in a severe dissociative haze. my life had been shattered. and I still get nauseous about it sometimes. last night. last night I sat in the dark, on the verge of tears just thinking about the film. I've seen it twice. both times it fills me with emotion. it doesn't have jump-scares, or gore, or anything like that it isn't scary in that way. it's scary in the sense that it sees you. it grabs you by the neck and looks at you dead in the eyes. for two straight hours. like no one ever has, and no one ever will.

the film is dreadful. the film is beautiful because it demonstrates such a unique kind of fear. one that I know about. the pain of having to change, it hurts. and it's terrible. and it might kill you. but the pain of staying the same? that'll definitely kill you.

I feel like it's a permanent thing. always changing. identity. it's complex, and it's beautiful, but it's also terrifying. and sometimes it's easier to repress it. but this film communicates, that it will kill you. that you will be buried alive, just like isabel. and you'll be struggling to breathe desperately gasping at your inhaler.

thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

When your coworkers are talking about someone and they’re non-binary and one of your coworkers says “I just don’t get the then thing how is somebody two people” and laughs. Great reminder of why I’m not out in professional spaces.

Today I explained why I can't really travel to Florida right now to my dad & watching him get increasingly frustrated with the realization that Transphobia Exists was honestly something else.

him: "well if you're not allowed to use the men's bathroom, just go to the women's! that'll show them."

me: "yeah but I'm just as likely to have the cops called on me for 'using the wrong bathroom' in there. have you seen me lately?"

him: "but if one of the options is wrong and not allowed then the other one has to be the right option. what do they want you to do?"

my grandma, helpfully: "I think they want trans people to not go to Florida"

my dad: spluttering frustratedly

me: "I think the thing is that you are more logical and reasonable than Ron DeSantis."

the face of a semi-reformed(?) conservative when realizing with dawning horror that laws can be unfair on purpose is truly special tbh

Oh, cool. Cool cool cool.

So... we're heading for an era of extreme reactionary backlash.

The question is it going to be like 1980's style or 1930's style.

We shit on rainbow capitalism (as we should), but it is a good indicator of social acceptance of LGBTQ people. When brands are loud and proud about how much the support gay people('s money), it means the social conditions have moved in our favor and the potential backlash is weak.

Right now, the power is shifting back to the fascists. That's bad.

Overwatch Venture Nonbinary flag icons

they're done!! my dreams of stardew valley chicken socks have been fulfilled. what a time to be alive

Haley! I don’t play but my bsf loves her <3

anyways i am uhhh

thinking about venture overwatch

venture wears the corniest boxers. i'm talking white with red lipstick kisses. blue with bubbles and rubber duckies. pink with flamingoes.

they have ONE pair of boxers dubbed 'the fuckboxers.' they're just black. venture has not gotten laid in said boxers.

this is canon. you cannot disagree or you die.

Biker venture fan art‼️‼️ (design by @cholv0q )

possible upcoming thing