Having One Of Those Days Where I Don’t Get Out Of Bed Til 4pm Bc I Would Have To Look In The Mirror

anyways i am uhhh

thinking about venture overwatch

venture wears the corniest boxers. i'm talking white with red lipstick kisses. blue with bubbles and rubber duckies. pink with flamingoes.

they have ONE pair of boxers dubbed 'the fuckboxers.' they're just black. venture has not gotten laid in said boxers.

this is canon. you cannot disagree or you die.

they're done!! my dreams of stardew valley chicken socks have been fulfilled. what a time to be alive

When your coworkers are talking about someone and they’re non-binary and one of your coworkers says “I just don’t get the then thing how is somebody two people” and laughs. Great reminder of why I’m not out in professional spaces.

possible upcoming thing

maybe THE honor moment of all time?

(Cosmere Inktober day #13 - Honor)

Biker venture fan art‼️‼️ (design by @cholv0q )

Having awful gender dysphoria, like the worst you’ve ever felt, and not being able to tell your boyfriend because you’re pretty sure he’d leave if you ever decided to transition.

Overwatch Venture Nonbinary flag icons

(vague spoilers for I Saw The TV Glow, I don't recommend you read it until after seeing the film.)

in a psychological sense? fucking terrifying. when I left the theater I was in a severe dissociative haze. my life had been shattered. and I still get nauseous about it sometimes. last night. last night I sat in the dark, on the verge of tears just thinking about the film. I've seen it twice. both times it fills me with emotion. it doesn't have jump-scares, or gore, or anything like that it isn't scary in that way. it's scary in the sense that it sees you. it grabs you by the neck and looks at you dead in the eyes. for two straight hours. like no one ever has, and no one ever will.

the film is dreadful. the film is beautiful because it demonstrates such a unique kind of fear. one that I know about. the pain of having to change, it hurts. and it's terrible. and it might kill you. but the pain of staying the same? that'll definitely kill you.

I feel like it's a permanent thing. always changing. identity. it's complex, and it's beautiful, but it's also terrifying. and sometimes it's easier to repress it. but this film communicates, that it will kill you. that you will be buried alive, just like isabel. and you'll be struggling to breathe desperately gasping at your inhaler.

Coming out to my boyfriend and friends went far better than expected and even if I’m not comfortable medically transitioning right now (Mainly due to financials/political environment/current career changes) it’s so nice to feel a little more comfortable at home.