Brain: Don't Fall For Him

It was always you... Still is... And I'm scared it might always be... Just you.

- My Hearts Thoughts

“FUCK YOU!!” I scream and throw your teddy bear across the room, something falls, something breaks. I don’t care, I love you. I can’t even say I loved you, I probably always will. I just left someone because I’m still too broken over you. My love life is ruined because nobody is going to be you. And I hate it, I hate you for it.

My Hearts Thoughts

We could have been a year today, if you had done your part. Don’t tell me it was both of us. You didn’t make me feel loved. I loved you the way the ocean loves the sand, for it always returns to the sand, despite there being beauty far out where only the ocean can reach.

My Hearts Thoughts

"Oh you,

It's 2 am and all I can think about is how much I want you to kiss me with so much correspondence that my lungs forget to breathe.

I want to fall apart and let you understand. You could, I can see it in the compassion and life in your eyes.

At times, theres nothing in my mind but your eyes and your voice. I cannot think around you, I don't even want to, I just want to feel the way I do when you look at me, always.

It hurts, because she has you, and the way she loves you is not enough somehow. I wish she loved you more so I could let go in peace. I wish she loved you less so this story had a villain.

Yet there she stands, with you tethered to her on the crown of your love upon her head. I've never wanted to hold onto pain like this before.

Oh you, I like your nature."

My Heart's Thoughts

It’s been a while, but I still think of you. I remember the way you held me that last day. I slipped into your arms the way I always had & kissed you with the confidence you gave me, neither one of us knew it was our last kiss. You picked me up & held me tight, super tight against you, I felt as though I could never be separated from you. I still torture myself thinking about how we said goodbye, without knowing it was actually our goodbye. How foolish & wrong was I to think we could make it.

My Hearts Thoughts

Sometimes I think ‘when was the last time you kissed & felt alive' I always think of you. I haven’t felt alive since we kissed last, & it breaks me so much

My Hearts Thoughts

Can it please finally be the first day I don't think of you? I've been waiting forever to let you go.

- My Hearts Thoughts

"I need you so much...

I just want to curl my fingers in the hem of your shirt and bury myself in you...

But that's hers to do...

Not mine...

You'll never be mine...

To need...

Especially not the way I need you."

- My Heart's Thoughts

tbh you seem like you were crafted out of fate and neglect

rb to have a super gay 2023