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How did you learn to mix?

i just accept the possibility of being really bad at something and then proceed to do whatever i want

tumblr ocd advice is kind of astounding bc youll see posts like "OCD LIFE HACK!!!!! if you have [obsession] try [compulsion]" and people are passing it around like its genuine advice and not literally the worst possible thing you could do in that scenario

we need to kill the hostages

I don't think gender is something which is joyful, any more than I consider capitalism to be something which is joyful. I think, like with capitalism, there is joy to be found and had within these class systems -- joy in resistance, in autonomy, joy and beauty in the finding of love and community, and joy and pride in courage and conviction. I think these things certainly are true. but at the end of the day, to me, what gender is, at its core, is a class system of violence, an immense structure of centuries of brutal and vicious subjugation and cruelty, a machine which punishes resistance-in-the-form-of-deviance with systematic and merciless force. I am the person I am because I am true to myself and I take joy in that -- this is distinct from my "gender," or rather my "gendering," which is a process of violence, an act which is done to me, without my consent, and against my will. That which renders me woman is nothing intrinsic to myself or about my choices -- it is the violence of society which renders me woman, renders me faggot, constructs my place in gender-class, places me within a system of subjugation. I find joy in being a woman not because of gender, but in spite of gender. my pride as a transgender woman, as a faggot, is in opposition to the forces of gender which seek to brutalize me for the way that I am. gender is not something I would ever, ever seek to preserve, or sustain, something which I consider not to be a sacred institution worthy of respect, any more than capital or empire. I consider gender to be my enemy, my opponent, the iron fist within the velvet glove, the barrel of the gun pressed to the back of my skull. gender and I exist in opposition to each other, with gender hell-bent on forcing me to submit to its will, and myself hell-bent on bringing about its total and absolute obliteration. by my analysis, it is critical that any feminist, any act of resistance against gender, correctly understand who the enemy is. the enemy is gender, and it has always been gender. we as transgender women are in a unique position to understand this, by way of the profound violence we experience under the orders of gender, by the consciousness imparted to us by the unique and peculiar acts of punitive cruelty struck against us under the commands of gender. but, for us to be able to do this, for us to be able to liberate ourselves from the wretched shackles of gender, so must we understand that we cannot trap ourselves in a prison of our own making, that we cannot mistake the prison for a home, that we cannot allow ourselves to be tricked into defending that force which exists only to do us harm.

is the US government fa-- no i'm just kidding, it's my turn to ask you that next week. do you think that the occasional criticisms of tumblr as the "moral OCD website", or just generally viewing interactions online or irl through a lens of moral OCD as a social/communal phenomenon, are useful? i know it's not intended to be of any particular function other than winning arguments online but i still wonder about it.

I mean moral OCD is an ironic or joking way to describe it, this is really just ascetic guilt-based morality. This is what happens when people think responsibility and accountability are the end all be all of politics and have a hard dichotomy between purity/goodness and impurity/guilt so they always want to be the ones holding accountable and never the ones being held accountable. It’s an extreme version of what popular radical liberal morality used to be because as a website and subculture Tumblr operates like a sealed vivarium

I HATE MORAL OCD. well i shouldnt say hate thats a strong word. and i dont want to sound like i hate people WITH moral ocd because i dont of course. i just hate having it. but i shouldnt think that, i do like having morals, its just stressful to be thinking about them so constantly and scrutinizing every little thing i do or think. but really thats the least i could do so i should at least try, right? just because i suffer from— no, struggle with moral ocd doesn’t mean i should just stop thinking about things all together, thats not what im saying and i should make that clear, but i

No matter what pair of words you try to use to illustrate a difference in pronunciation, there is unfortunately some commonly spoken dialect of English which is specifically designed to defeat you. There are English dialects where "dog" and "cat" have the same vowel sound in the middle. You can't win.

the other day my girlfriend told me "I like being flesh" and I just stared at them like this

Pisses me off how good Shakespeare actually is. Like yeah he's actually that good. People hype him up like he's the best English writer ever, and yeah he's actually an S+ tier writer.

I do lowkey think everyone's a little autistic/adhd/ocd/etc. but in like a cool anti-psych non pathologizing way