Hiiiiiisunshine - Ily🫶🏻

there is just something about platonic love. i love my friend so much. i care about them. i want them to be doing well and i want them to vent to me when they aren’t. i’ll help them with boring tasks just to spend time with. i wanna sit around in silence for hours doing our own things. i feel such joy whenever i think about them. i love my friends so much.

i’m a lover. AND a biter

sometimes I don’t know how to express to my friends how much I love them and appreciate them and what they do!!!!! like!!!! when they say they love me, care about me, love hanging out with me, etc I want to believe them and I do!!! but my anxiety tells me they don’t actually mean it!!! it tells me they’re lying!!! and it kills me!!! so when I’m told and shown love from them I don’t know how to accept it and express my appreciation and love back!!!! like no, thank you so much for getting me to drink and eat something when I don’t want to care for myself at all!!! thank you for telling me to sleep and trying to help me sleep!!!! thank you for understanding that I’m a touch starved fool and being affectionate with me!!!!! thank you for just looking out for me and simply being my friend!!!!! I love you guys so freaking much!!!! I hope that one day I learn how to express this properly!!!!

Orion Nebula by NASA Hubble Space Telescope

good news, i love you anyway. all the little mess and fuss of you. all the freckles and the stray hairs and uneven smile. i love your laugh and your sigh and the way you sing along to the radio. it's all lovable. it feels so good to love you.

Friendships can have passion

You ever cry because you love your friends so much?

The love I have for my friends is passionate and platonic and I want to hold them close to me for rest of my life. 

the intimacy of sharing old memories with someone new. check out the places i visited before i met you. i wish you were with me. maybe we can visit them together and create new memories? look at the pictures of the sky i took before we met. now you share the same view with my past self. look at the photos of my childhood and let me look at yours. have your facial features changed? your smile stayed the same, and i love it. look at my right cheek, i have the same birthmark as my grandmother. this is the child in me that you are healing with your affection. i am glad we met. all these years i was without you but now you know about all those years and even help me to grow. your love took roots in my past pain, and reaches out to my future happiness. please don't stop smiling.