So, Something I Learnt The Other Day. So, You Know How Dinosaurs Supposedly Can't See You If You Stand

and therein lies the real horror of bullying, of abuse, of oppression: you stop being yourself. you begin to chip away at everything that makes you you in order to create what's least likely to get you hit. you begin to view life as a series of mitigating choices - how much can you take away before you just become a corpse?

First Post!

I deleted my old tumblr because... man idk why it was covid-times and the prefrontal cortex was not in the room with us!! Anyways, I was reminded by my lovely friend @repecca that tumblr exists, and that some of my work has been going around on here, so I decided to post some of my work up officially! Starting off with my most notable (?) work to date, here's my LOTR: The Middle Kingdom Project. Now, it's been over a year since I posted this, and at the time I was... really searchingfor myself artistically, and I decided to go all in on something that I'd been ruminating on for a long time.

So, hello, again. I'm Leia. I do visual development/BG design, and I'm also a writer of things. I love fantasy and transformative work. It's nice to meet you.

Today my professor picked up a garter snake, said “Ow!” five times as it bit him, set it back down, and said, “Okay. That’s one defense mechanism snakes have.”

An Ding, International

Back when I did the Airplane Extras analysis I commented on how Shang Qinghua was away from CQMS for months when the Shens switched because he was on a business trip.

I talked about how An Ding must - despite us all saying it would collapse in minutes without him - be such a well oiled machine that Shang Qinghua can just leave it to go on a sales trip for months at a time, and do that regularly.

I also talked about how fucking weird it is that the PEAK LORD is the one going on these trips and posited that it must be visiting the emperor himself because who the heck else is important enough for the peak lord to go in person?

And then it hit me: what if these sales trips are Airplane taking advantage of his modern and creator knowledge to absolutely curb stomp the silk road?

Of course he would have to go in person! He's the one who knows where Rome should be! He's the only one who knows how the world is actually shaped! He has to go on the first contact missions! Ancient maps of the world had some pretty silly ideas about how the world was shaped!

He's also the one who has some general grasp of what other ancient cultures were like! He's used to short hair from the modern world and wouldn't think Rome was full of disgraced villains! Etc.

Anyway, I just really like the idea that Shang Qinghua's "melon seed sales trip" was really him sailing and driving across a huge amount of the world, doing stuff that would terrify and amaze everyone back home but which doesn't register to Airplane as brave because it's just another fucking storm and big fucking whale, dudes, secure the sails and the goods and let's get this annoyance over with.

PSA:

Acetaminophen/paracetamol has a hard stop upper dose limit, above which it becomes extremely toxic.

That limit is 4g (8 “extra strength” (500mg) tablets) in 24 hours (about 2 tablets every 6 hours).

A single dose of 22 extra strength tablets can kill you.

Taking 12 or more tablets per day for more than a week can also kill you (this is about 3 tablets every 6 hours).

Symptoms of overdose take up to 24 hours to manifest, and are fairly difficult to distinguish from other problems. They include abdominal pain (especially right upper quadrant), nausea, malaise, and confusion.

The antidote (n-acetylcystine) must be given within 8hours of ingestion in order to be useful.

After 10 hours the only thing that will work is a liver transplant.

You might think “why would I ever accidentally take so much?”

Well, acetaminophen is in almost everything in the cold/flu/pain aisle. Migraine combos like Excedrin, cold and flu combos like NyQuil, basically anything that says “non-aspirin pain relief”, and anything that’s branded as a fever reducer. It’s all probably acetaminophen/paracetamol.

So the goal of this post is to get you to read the labels on your medications. Because taking taking Tylenol and NyQuil together for a week (like you might if you had the flu) could kill you.

Shen Yuan stared up at the man, disbelief clear on his face.

The man before him huffed a laugh, brown eyes becoming crescent shaped with amusement. He was a little taller than Shen Yuan, a little broader, with a sleeve tattoo covering his right arm to his wrist. His dark brown hair was softly curled, more wavy, and a little shaggy, falling to his shoulders. His face reminding Shen Yuan of Binghe. Not a lot, but just enough if he were to tilt his head and squint.

“You’re just a kid.” When the man finally spoke his voice was as smooth as velvet. “How old are you?”

“Nineteen.” Shen Yuan automatically responded as he gawked.

The man had round wire glasses, a piercing on the left side of his lower lip, both ears were pierced, and he had cheekbones that belonged on a magazine cover. He was a little older than Shen Yuan expected. Somewhere in his late-twenties compared to Shen Yuans late teens.

“Cucumber-Bro, come on, I’m not that different.” Airplane Shooting Towards the Sky offered a smile, showing off dimples underneath a days worth of scruff.

“How old are you?” Shen Yuan demanded, still blocking the doorway into the dorm.

“Thirty.”

What the fuck?

“What the fuck?” Shen Yuan asked aloud.

Seriously, this was the caffeine addicted crack-writer?!

When Shen Yuan had woken up back in his dorm room instead of in bed with his husband in the bamboo house, he immediately contacted Airplane—it was a gamble, but it paid off. The relief Shen Yuan felt when Airplane responded was like a weight lifted off his shoulders. He gave the other man his phone number and address, then waited an excruciating five days until the two could meet. (Because Shen Yuan lived in Beijing, but Airplane apparently lived in Chengdu, and last minute flights weren’t cheap.)

Shen Yuan knew that his friend would look different. Hell, Shen Yuan looked different! A little shorter, a little rounder, way younger. With pitch black eyes, short inky black hair, and an ear piercing. He was pretty rather than handsome, softer than Shen Qingqiu.

And it wasn’t that Shang Qinghua wasn’t handsome—he was! Like everyone else in PIDW. But Airplane?

“Can I come in?” Airplane asked while shoving his hands into his back pockets. He wasn’t dressed fashionably. His beat up backpack was slung carelessly over a shoulder, jeans were ripped due to wear and tear, his faded band shirt was due to too many washes, his sneakers were scuffed. And yet…

Shen Yuan dressed in the latest fashion. He tried his best to look good, he had standards for himself! He looked like a C-Pop star.

Airplane wasn’t even trying to be hot. (WHY WAS HE SO HOT?!)

It shook something inside of Shen Yuan. All of his past theories of Airplane being a troll flew out the window.

“Well?” Airplane looked like he wasn’t above shoving past his friend to get in.

Shen Yuan allowed his friend inside, still shook.

“Shang Qinghua.”

“What?”

“My name, bro.”

“Wait…you used your actual name for the character closest to Mobei!? Fucking Mary-Sue!”

“Ah, there we go, there’s the Peerless Cucumber I know. Although it’s weird to hear such vitriol from a face so cute.”

Shen Yuan felt the blood rush to his face and wished he had a fan in his hands to use as a weapon when Airplane chuckled.

“Come on, let’s try to figure out how to get back home,” Shang Qinghua said as he moseyed to the desk in the room.

Shen Yuan sighed as he closed and locked the door.

BONUS:

SY: I thought you said you were a broke university student who wrote to make sure food was on the table.

SQH: Yeah, dude. I’m working on my dissertation. Writing pays the bills.

SY: YOU’RE GETTING YOUR DOCTORATES?????

SQH: Yeah, in Topology.

SY: YOU’RE GETTING YOUR DOCTORATES IN MATHS?????

Replaying Cyberpunk 2077, I am increasingly enjoying the concept of Johnny Silverhand. More RPGs should feature an intangible NPC who accompanies you on your adventures, is a highly opinionated asshole, and provides no assistance whatsoever. What's Johnny going to do today? Is he going to spice up an otherwise boring quest with a private-eye monologue? Is he going to lie to me about his own life to make me lose a Johnny Silverhand trivia contest? Is he going to give me a poetic and beautiful speech about living on despite the odds? Is he going to launch into an unhinged political rant? Is he going to somehow inexplicably make this conversation about his dick? I don't know, I don't think he does either. V is trying to deal with The Horrors of Cyberpunk and also their own impending death and ALSO live the life of an unstoppable supermerc and they're stuck in a torment nexus Get Along Sweater with a dead terrorist rockerboy who sucks in every way imaginable and it's great.

More detailed questions for your character's psychology

- Is your character self aware? How self aware? How much do they think about the way they appear to other characters? Do they look at things from a third person perspective often? Or another character's perspective? Is your character hypocritical? Do they think about the way other characters may be self aware?

- Does your character reflect on themself alot? In what ways? Is there something that's greatly biasing that reflection? What would it take to break that bias? Do other characters reinforce that bias often? Are other characters aware of this bias? Is your character insecure or hard on themself? Does your character overthink their actions or words? (past or present)

- How good is your character at reading others? Can they spot traits or characteristics in others that they may not be aware of? Why? Do they think they're good at reading others, but actually aren't? Is this due to a bias or simple lapses in judgment? Where does their bias come from? Do they underestimate or overestimate other characters often? Based on what?

- Is your character knowledgeable on things outside their usual scope? How so? What would be considered common knowledge in your setting? How critical is your character about their sources? Do they do further research or get second opinions? Do they have a bias for what sources they consider more reliable?

- is your character emotionally intelligent? Are they able to figure out what/why someone is feeling something, and what might've caused it? Are they good at comforting others? Are they considerate, or notice things other characters might feel sensitive about? Are they good at interpreting other characters' feelings? Do they realize when they're acting in the heat of the moment, or blinded by emotion? Do they know how to self regulate their emotions, or self soothe?

- Does your character think about the implications of things they experience, or things that others say? Are they able to look at the bigger picture, or notice patterns in something? Do they notice little, seemingly insignificant details, and if so, what kind of details? Why? Does your character take the time to gather perspective on something they don't understand? How thoroughly do they think about things before doing something?

Study in Style Set…………🐻

Hello!! I haven’t been around for a few days, I hope everyone is doing well ♡ I can finally share the “study in style set” I’ve been working on for a long time. The set was made to be a nice addition to the new expansion pack and consists of 20 items including a new functional computer, mirror, and light. You can see the gif showing all the items and read more information below.

The set includes 20 items:

♡ Ruler&Pencil | 7 Swatches | 66 Polys

♡ Erasers | 10 Swatches | 300 Polys    

♡ Table Light | 13 Swatches | 2k Polys        

♡ Tablet PC | 10 Swatches | 3k Polys          

♡ Mini Calendar | 10 Swatches | 1.2k Polys

♡ Decor Tablet | 6 Swatches | 714 Polys    

♡ Trash Can | 13 Swatches | 726 Polys

♡ Used Trash Can | 13 Swatches | 1.7k Polys

♡ Sticky Notes | 12 Swatches | 146 Polys

♡ Books with a Pen | 10 Swatches | 558 Polys

♡ Notebooks | 14 Swatches | 258 Polys

♡ Paw-Shaped Markers | 6 Swatches | 1.6k Polys

♡ Stacked Books | 7 Swatches | 156 Polys

♡ Digital Clock | 14 Swatches | 206 Polys

♡ Mirror Box | 12 Swatches | 1.5k Polys

♡ Closed Box | 12 Swatches | 358 Polys

♡ Decorated Box | 8 Swatches | 476 Polys

♡ Planner Poster | 10 Swatches | 140 Polys

♡ 2 Piece Painting | 12 Swatches | 96 Polys

♡ Wooden Holder | 8 Swatches | 554 Polys                            

Additional Info:

BGC

Tagged swatches

Custom thumbnails

Custom specular maps

You can quickly access these items by searching “aira” in the game. If you run into any issues please let me know.   

I think the style of working long term and making big sets suits me better. I’m thinking of going this way from now on so my next cc may be after a certain time. Anyway, hope you enjoy these cuties and have fun with them!! 📔🤎

•˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ Download on Patreon(Early Access until October 20th)

Study in Style Set…………🐻

Hello!! I haven’t been around for a few days, I hope everyone is doing well ♡ I can finally share the “study in style set” I’ve been working on for a long time. The set was made to be a nice addition to the new expansion pack and consists of 20 items including a new functional computer, mirror, and light. You can see the gif showing all the items and read more information below.

The set includes 20 items:

♡ Ruler&Pencil | 7 Swatches | 66 Polys

♡ Erasers | 10 Swatches | 300 Polys    

♡ Table Light | 13 Swatches | 2k Polys        

♡ Tablet PC | 10 Swatches | 3k Polys          

♡ Mini Calendar | 10 Swatches | 1.2k Polys

♡ Decor Tablet | 6 Swatches | 714 Polys    

♡ Trash Can | 13 Swatches | 726 Polys

♡ Used Trash Can | 13 Swatches | 1.7k Polys

♡ Sticky Notes | 12 Swatches | 146 Polys

♡ Books with a Pen | 10 Swatches | 558 Polys

♡ Notebooks | 14 Swatches | 258 Polys

♡ Paw-Shaped Markers | 6 Swatches | 1.6k Polys

♡ Stacked Books | 7 Swatches | 156 Polys

♡ Digital Clock | 14 Swatches | 206 Polys

♡ Mirror Box | 12 Swatches | 1.5k Polys

♡ Closed Box | 12 Swatches | 358 Polys

♡ Decorated Box | 8 Swatches | 476 Polys

♡ Planner Poster | 10 Swatches | 140 Polys

♡ 2 Piece Painting | 12 Swatches | 96 Polys

♡ Wooden Holder | 8 Swatches | 554 Polys                            

Additional Info:

BGC

Tagged swatches

Custom thumbnails

Custom specular maps

You can quickly access these items by searching “aira” in the game. If you run into any issues please let me know.   

I think the style of working long term and making big sets suits me better. I’m thinking of going this way from now on so my next cc may be after a certain time. Anyway, hope you enjoy these cuties and have fun with them!! 📔🤎

•˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ Download on Patreon(Early Access until October 20th)