[01/05] Life Has Been So Peaceful Lately. (maybe Because I Have Been Neglecting The 7 Courses I Have

need a full body massage a margarita 400mg of ibuprofen a plate of brownies at least an hour in a jacuzzi and 20,000 dollars cash

gentle reminder you can rise up from everything. you can recreate yourself. nothing is permanent. you are not stuck. you have choices. you can think new thoughts. you can learn something new. you can create new habits. all that matters is that you decide today and never look back.

On today's todo list:

Draft and schedule emails

Review existing literature on my PI's current research direction

Review previous NSF GRFP applications

Look into other national fellowships (listed)

Brainstorm about personal statements + project proposals

I've unfortunately fallen off my daily journaling/work routines the last few months, and I'm working on getting myself back into good habits. Today, my main goal is to schedule all my emails to other PhD programs their declining offers of admission. I just finalized everything with my chosen program this week, and the April 15th decision deadline is looming. I feel terrible for dragging my feet on communications, but I want to make sure I send personalized emails to each professor I interviewed with. I know this is part of the process, but I still hate disappointing people.

On the upside, I've already set up my graduate school accounts, put together a preliminary schedule of my classes in the fall, and set up my new email. I'm eager to get back to work

Bright and Quiet - Deborah Quinn-Munson

American , b. 1950s

Oil on board , 48 x 31 in.

25/05/15

Could not, for the life of me, get the lighting to cooperate in the library. I did, however, get a metric shit ton of work done.

Francesca Bridgerton really info dumped about her special interest to John Stirling and he said, “I can’t think of anything witty to say in response but I can leave abruptly to give her a grand gesture relating to what she just told me.”

And Francesca really said, “I’m so grateful I literally cannot wait to perform this piece. I’m gonna leave abruptly even though both my suitors are in front of me.”

This is the kind of autistic x autistic relationship I dream about.

17.02.2025

physician professional behavior roleplay at class today. we collaborated with students from indonesian arts institute, who play as difficult patients. and man it was difficult. kudos to the arts students, they are so fucking good at this.

physical activity: biking to and from medschool, pilates 10 mins, resistence training 200 leg lifts, 200 arm lifts (WOAH! UNEXPECTEDLY FELT GOOD! definitely not as hard as when i started out)

tadarrus (at taubah 50 - 67)

📖 - the bloody chambers, angela carter

“The cost of not following your heart is spending the rest of your life wishing you had.”

— Unknown

i don't "date" and i don't "chill" and i don't "hang out." i make pacts. i swear oaths. i forge unbreakable bonds. this makes me a cool breezy person to take on road trips et cetera

4.12.2025

We are slumped :)) a little Saturday morning discrete math session

🎵: missionary feelings