10.20.18
10.20.18
Im tired, i want to brush my teeth. however i dont want to be home. this year has been crazy a lot of downs and a few ups. thank you to everyone who held me down this year. Melissa, Joel, Alexus, Elena, Roy, JC, Jaylen. Y’all deserve special shoutouts. You all have made my year worth it. As i get older im learning people make mistakes. People do things that aren’t always good but these things are done without reason. I have made a list of mistakes this year and i can admit to that. The funny thing is its very hard for people to forgive. Most issues happen because of communication and thats fair. It happens. I feel like people assume more then they communicate. Im not sure why. Pride? anyways it doesn’t matter. Its not about peoples actions its whats in peoples hearts that matter. That’ll show peoples true colors. Either way im ready to get out of Arizona. Im in a very ugly situation and the people around me has given me no relieve from stress. I found a bike yesterday. I hope i didn’t steal it, but it was definitely put in my path. Bike rides are actually therapeutic to me. I like feeling the wind and shit. Im not sure what i would do without the few friends that ive had this year. i know ive been acting and assuming that some people dont care about me and im sure they do but im getting older and i want to create my family. I need to know the people that are riding for me for forever. i hope i dont sound selfish. but i just need my foundation laid straight. im always down for friends. Next year will be my year. Much much love to Melissa. Not sure how i would breathe without youAlexus youre more than a lifesaver. Thanks for being my greatest friend out here, i hope i taught you some things. i really hope i can get my group in action again. we need each other i know it.
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niggas is going to war in one part of the world and bitches is posting ass pics on the tl in another part of the world.. this shit is crazy man
i draw energy from ascetics, word to God.
one of them days of overwhelming exhaustion. i promise i’m working everyday. it’s just hard to be 100% self sufficient i want help but not just any help. i want help from someone who is also self sufficient and i don’t have to constantly check in with to keep making things move forward. it’s not for me, it’s for us. my mind is just overloaded with shit i need to do and endless information. im damn near exploding 😂 but i’m so calm about it. i secretly can’t even think without my brain scrambling everywhere and then shutting down to temporary nothingness 😅
When you do what’s powerful or “good”, you’re going to be met with resistance because everything is connected to its opposite.
Push through 🙏🏾
today i saw two birds chase and hunt a tiny all white butterfly (or moth) until one of the birds caught and ate the butterfly. i was sad for a moment but then i just thought well i guess life goes. there are technically tons of these white butterflies; at least i see them a lot. and i did try to stop the birds slightly but it didn’t work.
i’m finally looking up symbolisms and meanings of what i witnessed and it seems like a symbolism for embracing change? but it was two birds and that seems to always symbolize love in some form and symbolize balance as a whole concept.
this seems to align with my current events and my journey of self. but i feel like there’s more to this if anyone has insight.
here’s one of my favorite beats that i made in December (2021)
