1.2.19
1.2.19
It is a new year, im not really sure how im feeling cause im kind of drunk right now, but im just chilling, waiting, i feel this year is going tp be very special, this year isn’t even about me ive come to realize and accept that i have to do everything in my power to make sure that my guys make it. they are my mission i dont care exactly what happens to me but i just want my team, my guys to do everything they want, everything they dreamed of. i feel like ive been trusted and they put their future in my hands and ill do everything in my power to make sure they can do what they want, they are too talented too good, they honestly are too good to have to settle for any of this shit, id hate myself if they didn’t achieve everything they dreamed of. i love them with all of my friends, they parents even trust and love me, at least to an extent so i have to make sure they win, i have too. thats my goal this year to make sure my team is winning and is content with their lives and what they want. i really loe them got damn theses niggas are talented like honestly. they gotta make it, even if its before i do. ill do whatever i can for these guys i just hope they trust me but ill prove myself i hope they see it. but anyways as for mw. this is the year i know it, i feel it, ive been waiting for this, nothing will come in between us or my mindset for this year, FGod has built me up and made me so strong, even mentally. i love these guys honestly. damn i cant stop thinking about them. i care for these dudes too much Jaylen you got this i believe in you the most out of everyone you know? you are the key to greatness. you will play a huge impact in all of our lives. remember when we were at theBig E and this random girl asked who you were? and she swore on everything you were famous? ill never forget that day bro, thats how i knew you were everything. you are me bro, just a mini version and i love you bro please never stop. we can do this together, separate, it doesn’t matter YOU can do it. YOU can really do it, youre mindset is beautiful you will be the greatest to ever do this shit no joke. Dayvi, i love you bro. you are the chosen one, Hod chose you bro, why you playing with your gifts? if i could just get you to take me serious bro, younger special why are you playing around with this music shit. i know you know how good you are soooo please bro just let me help you its all i care about. i want to protect you from all these distractions and fuck shit you got going on, but i cant. i know that. but im here for you through all this shit bro. just trust me please we can really do this shit, we just have to do it together. i need you on board you play such a huge part come on bro, help me out here. i love you tho. CURRENCY WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU BRO, WE NEED YOU TO BE GREAT THIS SHIT ISNT GOING TO HAPPEN WITHOUT YOU WE NEED YOUR IDEAS YOUR MIND YOUR GENIUS, COME BACK PLEASE. this is the year we follow God i need all of us to be on the same page. i want this year to be about us, we got this y’all just trust me. please. i cant beg enough. X i love you, youre on my mind everyday. i never met you, never knew you but its crazy how connected ive felt to you since you left us but i know you gave me your energy. i love you born love you, idk what you did to me or put in my spirit but i will carry on and live out your legacy. this year is our year i promise i know it. theres so much to reflect on and consider and think about. failure is not an option. what am i going to do if i cant everyone on the same page? this is our future, i see why God put me ahead shit is wild. but i accept this responsibility im not tripping about it anymore. i know a lot of lives are put into my hands but it depends on how i am personally. and im okay i swear i just need people to help keep me on track. where are my core supporters the people that actually love me and want to see me succeed. My success is your success. so please people help me. whoever is down for me? anybody? Brb.
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these sudden spike on covid reports gotta be fake news, they trying to make Joe look good like he cleaned this shit up by the time he’s in office smh nah no way
MOVING FORWARD IM ABOUT TO START SHARING MY LIFE MORE ON HERE. TO ANYONE PEEPING THANK YOU BUT YOUR SUPPORT WOULD BE MUCH MORE LOVED AND APPRECIATED. 🤎
Another R.I.P. Post.
M NOT WRITING THIS TO BE DEEP OR TOO INTROSPECTIVE. THERES NOT MUCH OF A STORY TO TELL FOR ME BUT IM IN FUCKING SHOCK BRO. WE PLAYED BASKETBALL ON THE SAME TEAM SINCE 6TH GRADE UNTIL HIGH SCHOOL. WE DEFINITELY WERE ON OPPOSITE SIDES OF THE SPECTRUM. I DONT THINK I EVER HAD YOUR RESPECT ON THE BASKETBALL COURT BUT YEARS LATER I COULD FEEL YOUR CURIOSITY, INTEREST AND A NEW LEVEL OF RECOGNITION FROM YOU. EVEN THEN I KNEW A LOT OF PEOPLE DOUBTED YOUR MUSIC. YOU HAD YOURE OWN CHALLENGES IN THAT AREA BUT I GAVE YOU MY RESPECT ODDLY ENOUGH (ASSUMING ID FEEL BITTER OR BE ON SOME HATER SHIT BUT NAH). I COULD TELL YOU TRIED TO FIT YOURSELF IN ANY WAY YOU COULD, JUST LIKE ME YEARS AGO ON THE BASKETBALL TEAM. ITS JUST SO TRIPPY BRO. I SEE ALL THESE RIP POSTS AND NOT A SOUL TAGGED YOUR MUSIC OR EVEN PLAYING IT IN ANY VIDEOS. I THINK JUST PETEY TBH. ANYWAYS BRO THIS IS JUST AWKWARD FOR ME, BUT I STILL HAVE MUCH LOVE FOR YOU. BELIEVE IT OR NOT YOU (AND THE REST OF THE BLUEJAYS) PLAYED A BIG PART IN MY SENSE OF SELF, BEING THE REASON I WAS SO FEARFUL, OVERCOMING THAT SAME FEAR AND SO MUCH MORE I COULD GO INTO. I NEVER TALK ABOUT THOSE DAYS THEY WERE THE HARDEST OF MY LIFE. BEING SO YOUNG AND ALONE. I DID LOOK UP TO YOU IN A SMALL WAY. YOU HAD EVERYTHING I TRUTHFULLY DIDNT AT LEAST ON THE SURFACE. THE FRIENDS AND FAMILY SUPPORTING YOU FROM SIDELINES, WATCHING YOU SAVE OUR TEAM FROM COUNTLESS LOSES. YOU WERE OUR HERO AT THE TIME. ITS SO CRAZY TO THINK ABOUT. NOT YOU OR ANYBODY ON THE TEAM UNDERSTANDS THAT I LITERALLY WATCHED IT ALL. MAYBE THATS WHY IM SO BLOWN AWAY. BUT THROUGH ALL THAT IVE COME TO REALIZE THAT YOU AND I WERENT SO DIFFERENT. AFTER ALL IF IT WASNT FOR YOU AND THE REST OF THE TEAM I ABSOLUTELY WOULD NOT BE WHO I AM TODAY WITHOUT A DOUBT. THANKS FOR GIVING ME A HARD TIME SERIOUSLY. LOL.
IM HAPPY WE SOMEWHAT RECONNECTED THANKS TO SONNY. I HAD FUN SHOOTING VIDEOS FOR YALL AND EVEN DOING THE PHOTOSHOOTS. I TRY TO TELL FIRETEAM WHATEVER YALL NEED IM DOWN IM NOT THE BEST SUITED OR TRAINED BUT I AM ALWAYS WILLING TO WORK ON SOMETHING AND IMPROVE FOR THE GREATER GOOD ESPECIALLY MUSIC RELATED THINGS. BUT ITS OKAY I SAW YOU AGAIN IN ACTION INA DIFFERENT LIGHT AND I THINK THATS ALL THAT MATTERS. AT LEAST IT DOESNT FEEL LIKE YOURE AGAINST ME ANYMORE. MUCH LOVE TO YOU AND YOUR FAMILY. MAYBE WE CAN MEET AGAIN ON COMPLETELY NEW LEVEL AND PLANE OF EXISTENCE.
SMOKE WEED, DRINK WATER
MAN IM LOOOKING FOR THE VIDEO WE DID TOGETHER AND I CANT EVEN FIND IT DAMN.
sneak peek to a beat i just made
