To all girls who think ana can solve your problems:
Please, don't do it
For the love of god please turn back now
This isn’t a quick fix to your weight problem
This won’t help the way you feel about yourself
It will literally only make it worse
This is dangerous as fuck
Like you can actually fucking die
And today I felt like I was dying
My heart was pounding, and I was shaking violently. I didn’t have enough energy to get out of bed and when I stood up I’d nearly pass out.
I was laying in bed fucking sobbing because I’d rather be dead than physically feel like this
This problem is easily fucking solvable if I just ate
But I couldn’t because I was going to have pizza tonight
And even though I didn’t eat yesterday, and had less than 200 calories the day before, I still couldn’t bare to eat anything today because I would be forced to eat pizza with my family
Fucking pizza, a food I used to love, gives me fucking anxiety if there’s even a chance I’ll have to eat it. A food i used to love ruined by this godawful disorder, because all I can think about is how many calories are in a slice (but I have to eat 2 to keep away suspicious) and how greasy it is makes me want to puke
This is not a quick fix
This will not help you “gain control”
This will not give you discipline
But
This will give you anxiety
This will make you lie to the ones you love
This will make you absolutely hate yourself
With every ounce of your being
And if you go far enough
This will fucking kill you
Who would've thought ?!?!? Exercising actually helps with my anxiety !!! As it has always done. I missed exercising so much
Now time to study once again
ur desperate for my attention, but can't even come up with an original insult without dragging food into it
Baby you're the one that has been sending me anons nonstop, if you want attention so badly, why don't you just get help and get better? Or your life's so sad you have to drag strangers with you to your own hell? Cause it seems like it. Ill tell you what, you're just a sad little girl that thinks everyone has to be as miserable as her to feel good.
But guess what nena, i'm good. As i say, this is a vent blog, i come and go everytime. But i'm good, recovery has been the best thing that happened to me, and i also learned that NOBODY treats me worse than i do, you can't hurt me. But you can keep hurting yourself and your sad little life every time you send me something. Besos en la cola !!
I wanna buy DVDs so bad
Ed meme + Mac = Meme heaven
“i haven’t had any breakfast today. i think i have an eating disorder.”
Since drunkies don't lie, I wish i was your girlfriend. I wish i wasn't condemned to be your side dish. Treating me like a main without the privileges of one...
Eepy
Me: I've done this before, of course I can exist without eating chametz !!
Me the second day of pesach, craving a cookie:
if my parents got money everytime they compare me with my brother, or everytime they minimize my problems, or everytime they made me feel less
they would be millionaire, but still wouldn´t buy things to their childs ´cause that´s not necessary 😍😍😍💕💕💕
That damn app Finch is the only way i get out of bed. I want my baby to have a pretty outfit.
fast forward, now on: antipsychotics and antidepressants. hi, i use this account as a personal diary, please don't take me seriously, nor try this at home. A D U L T !! super lesbian and in recovery. sincerely yours, Anne.
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