Who Would've Thought ?!?!? Exercising Actually Helps With My Anxiety !!! As It Has Always Done. I Missed

do you ever just wonder how far ahead you’d be in life if you didnt have a mental illness or if your family wasn’t dysfunctional or if that one tragic thing never happened and it just fucks you up??

self harming by trying to make your symptoms worse on purpose

A mellor parte dunha relación e tal cal... Non sou, de feito tenho moito desexo de durmir.

Estraño a miña parellaaaaaaaa. Jijiji estou aprendendo galego só por elaaaa. Estou moito enamoradaaaaaaaaa. Vou empezar a ter o delirio

I'm so sorry my love

Me: omG I LOST 3 POUNDS ;_;

My brain: great, next, die

My ed: hOLD A FUCKING SECOND, WHEN, WERE, HOW, WHO, WHAT¿ but you still fat gurl.

Me: -counting how much calories I ate last week and trying to anilize how I lost 3 pounds in a week after bingin' 2 times-

How come i wanna tear my hair out, my organs want to get out of my body, I'm gonna infect everybody with what it's going on inside of me I'M DONE WIHMTH BEING CRAZY I DLNT WANT THIS

That damn app Finch is the only way i get out of bed. I want my baby to have a pretty outfit.

i'm alive *sadly*

I start school again, today. It's 2am AND I'M NOT SLEEPING.

The president had a conference yesterday and he removed our mid-term break, every teen in my country is like:

we're sad, i'm sad.

Minecraft and cartoon network kept me alive.

I'm avoiding social contact since I fucked up my self-steem AGAIN.

And I started wondering what will happen if my girlfriend notices me acting weird, she did last time and:(. I don't want to have a mental breakdown and tell her I have an eating disorder. I don't want tu destroy everything again. I want to be okay but I can't even keep myself okay.

(Day 31??? of quarantine: april 14)

Big birb hug

Me: -Eats 53 calories more than 400-

My ed: bITCH WTF YOU'RE DOING, THAT IS GONNA AFFECT YOUR WEIGHT LATER, thAT'S WHY YOU STILL IN THAT WEIGHT

Me: