It's 2am, I'm Doing Exercise, Crying, And Looking To Meanspo;;

When you start S/H at a young age and so now you have a habit of looking at people's arms, legs, or thighs to see if they did/do it too<<<<<<

Ed meme + Mac = Meme heaven

“i haven’t had any breakfast today. i think i have an eating disorder.”

Ohgodno

SooO, I'm at the beach with my family, and that means I have to eat): But, my uncle have a pool in his house so:

I'm never gonna go outside of the pool, bye family

ED things

You know its bad when the first thing you notice about anyone is how thin their legs are and if they have noticeable collarbones or not. Then compare yourself to them all the time and fall down a deep pit of self-hate

I would take my heart out and give it to you if that proved that i am in love with you

some update of what I did yesterday

it was a good day♡

i ate

and i spent 3 hours painting Cavetown's sleepyhead album cover in acrylics.

(That's the actual cover i'm not gonna show my paint 'cause i'm insecure😎👌)

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My girlfriend was all the day doing homework so she wasn't answering all the time, it was perfect 'cause I didn't have to be anxious to reply early.

She said my paint was really cute:'). She's studying arts, so it feels really good.

The only thing that stills annoying me, it's that NOBODY in my house knows the netflix password. And my dad doesn't want to change the password IT DOESN'T HAVE FUCKING SENSE WHY WOULDN'T YOU WANT TO CHANGE IT WHEN THE LAST PASSWORD ISN'T WORKING AND YOU DON'T KNOW THE PASSWORD ¿?¿

I'm fat and angry af leT ME WATCH I'M NOT OKAY WITH THIS AGAIN AND OITNB OR I'LL CRY.

(Quarantine day 26, april 9)

It's currently 1:23am and i'm not so sleepy but i'll try to sleep. I did slept 6 hours yesterday.

My mom just said that one of the things I ate had 250 calories

I'm crying I swear TuT

Also, my mom said to me that I need to stop eating, thank you nutricionist.

Some time ago my mum gave me pills for calming me down at school after the breakdown I had. And it was oof, my head was moving but my body wasn't responding, I felt like shit but I wasn't able to feel anything.

I was looking at my classmates dancing like:

I'm sorry, hope y'all having a good night

(Day 41: April 24)

mutuals feel free to kick my ass