vulnerability is like handing someone a sword and hoping they give you a hug instead. It’s gross. It’s uncomfortable. It’s sticky and awkward and makes you want to crawl out of your own skin. deeply hate it but it can be good, i guess.
I think I can be very selfish with my space and I can be very hard to reach emotionally. thinking out loud…
I feel like research these days people want to do things that are “relevant” and they’ll gain traction. And yeah I get that research has to be relevant I guess. And tbh I feel myself falling into that hole too cause your ideas need to be remarkable to be accepted into a PhD program yk? But it’s like I don’t want to stick to one “genre” or field of research. I want to dig into things that interest me or pique my interest? But I also want my work to mean something that even if a random person who’s not into research picks it up they’ll throughly enjoy the research? Idk
Black Passion International Hair Magazine. Volume 26. 2001.
yum yum
ironically, the friend I did this with ghosted me lol. the rhubarb matcha was good as hell though.
just woke up and all I’m thinking about is research 😓
breakfast