I’m Really Scared That I’m Becoming An Unlikable Person As I Unmask. I’m More Blunt, I Talk More,

I’m really scared that I’m becoming an unlikable person as I unmask. I’m more blunt, I talk more, I advocate for myself more and I’m perceived as argumentative when I’m just trying to offer my thoughts/ explain myself. I make sure not to actively be an asshole, so it’s really more just my tone and the social norms that shouldn’t really matter.

I see people give me looks of annoyance when I speak. The exasperation when I finally work up the courage to actually ask a question.

It’s really freeing to not have to think so hard about my every breath or word in social settings but I still really want people to like me. I guess I need to accept that not everyone will, that’s just how it is, but it makes things hard because then those people will treat you shitty.

And then I wonder… is it just my fault? Maybe I should go back to masking. Maybe it’s not worth it to ‘be myself’ or whatever if it will bring ridicule. Even though there’s that crushing, continuous weight that comes from having to conceal parts of myself, maybe I need to just deal with that so I can get along with others.

But I’m also not sure that I COULD go back now.

intro: part 2

cracks knuckles. we're doing this again because the,,,1-2 years ago when i made my last one is very inaccurate now

GENERAL/BASIC INFO

My main name is Felix but Ruix or Robin work as well. My pronouns are he/it but I don't particularly mind they/them or she/her. He/him and it/its are just my preferred pair. I live in Canada, which, in terms of pop culture and [most] slang, is pretty much the same as the US.

INTERESTS

These change all the time, this is still the same. Please do not follow me for a singular fandom as it is unlikely that I'll continuously post for it. I get fixated on something for a little bit and then move on, though somewhat steady fandoms have been the Riordanverse [specifically the mythologies series' and spin-offs] and Genshin Impact. My own PJO inspired OCs are my main interests, however.

CONTENT

Mainly shitposts about my current interest(s), and if I feel confident enough, oneshots about a character or pairing that I enjoy. Reblogs of random things that I enjoy will be scattered throughout, but I generally try to keep those to my sideblogs [which are not yet properly set up but I'll get to them. Eventually]. I might do miscellaneous writing prompts and post them here. Quality is absolutely not guaranteed because most internet things I do are for fun and not serious at all.