Laaajlaaa - Unbetitelt

“People like me are meant to be alone, Because half the time I won’t even notice your name no longer lights up my phone. I’m a walking contradiction, 
An as*hole with a heart of gold.
I’ll show you what love should really look like,
 But make sure to leave before any of it can unfold I have a contradiction that will always
 Prevent me From loving you Because I have Sadly learned Early in life 
That people leave I will be clingy But never get closer 
Be demanding attention
While keeping at bay I have my fear Of commitment
 Solidly embedded In me But once you’re here
I will hold on Until you can no Longer support me I am a contradiction 
Of emotion and impulse 
Of lonely and together
Of holding on and letting go”

— nickglendenning, anonymous 219

“Unless you’ve crawled inside someone’s skin and felt the words that claw away at their throat and suffocate them during the night, you have no right to tell anyone to get over it or that they shouldn’t be upset.”

— Unknown  // I believe that more people should think like this.

A letter I’ll never send…

I love you. You are my best friend and I’ve never loved anyone like I love you. And each day I continue to fall more in love with you, the more I realize how you’re slowly pulling away. But it’s because you don’t love me the way I love you. Because I am not her. You don’t love me the way you loved her. You gave her the random “I love you” texts and the endless phone calls because you missed her voice. You posted her on Instagram and surprised her with flowers when you knew she was having a bad day. You weren’t hesitant to show your love and hold her when she needed it. I want that. You tell me you just never want to fall that hard for someone again because it was unhealthy, but I know it’s because I’m not her. I want the endless phone calls and random “I love you” texts. I want to be surprised with flowers and be held when I’m having a bad day. I want more than anything to be her. Because you are my him. You are the one I will never forget, you are the one that everyone else will be compared to. In my eyes, you are my everything. But in your eyes, I’m just temporary.

I found you, and then I lost you.