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ON TODAY FØØD EPISODE 🥀

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ Seminyak smoothie Bowl + 1 cheesy spicy sausages + 1/2 apples Snack~ 2 ice Americano + 1 green tea Dinner~ Chicken Marinara sandwich + 1 peach ice cream + 1/2 apple and grapes

Total:~ 1000

I feel miserable but at least I control on 1 thing in this life of mine hahahaaaaa I’m loosing my mind right now lmao

DAY 1

I know that this is pretty much the same as the other but it really motivated me in my journey to do this kind of challenge every day so here we go again lol

Stats: CW≈ 53 • H~ 150 • BM!≈ 23,6 • Wa!st~ 65 • Arms~ 26-27

Expectations: To reach my GW and løøse at least 3 before coming back home.. løøsing my p3r!of would be great too

Everything is m3@sur3d and cøunt3d in cm and kg but I’ll be extra careful cause i don’t want to be str!k3 again so I’m not using them a lot

ON TODAY FØØD EPISODE 🫥

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ mie godok Snack~ fried manioc + 2 ice Americano Dinner~ shirataki noodles with chicken broth + watermelon and melon in lowc@l lychee smoothie + 1 matcha ice cream

Total:~ 1200

I’ve been with friends all day so obviously we had lunch and snack but I’m getting really good at r3str!ct!ng without anyone noticing so I’m proud of this day 🐞

I feel bad about what I @te.. Not because I feel stuff or hate my bødy but just cause I @te

I feel light and comfortable but just the fact that I took the liberty of having slightly more than what I was supposed to does not feel good at all

Trying to convince my dumb brain right now that I did not eat more than usual, just not on the same time but it not willing to understand apparently

ON TODAY FØØD EPISODE 🦎

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ Salmon wrap Snack~ 1 ice tea + 1 ice Americano + 2 lowc@l lychee candy Dinner~ Japanese Soba salad and 2 pcs of tofu filled with meat + 1 serving of shirataki + 2 apples and 1 matcha ice cream

Total:~ 1200

Love the people around me, they gave those 2 pcs of tofu out of nowhere, it was delicious 🌺They are so nice <333

I almost fck up my day with a craving but I found apples and lowc@l ice cream so it’s okay I’m at my limit tho

TF YOU MEAN I’M COLD AT 25 C° ?? HOW AM I GONNA SURVIVE WHEN I COME BACK ?? -- It’s more around 20C° or less at home lol 💀--

DAY 30 youhouhou

For my stats I won’t have my real CW right now BUT

Wa!st~ 71-72–> 65

@rms~ 30–> 26-27

CW~ 56–> 53

My reality check is that maybe reaching 60 around my wa!st in 2 months was a little bit to much lmao (I still have two weeks but I don’t now if it’s humanly possible)

And my @rms always been the most difficult part so for now I am happy that’s it’s not going up (BUT PLEASE GO THE FCKING DØWN OMG)

I’ll update the CW on Sunday :)

Overall I’ll feel happy and miserable at the same time so it’s kinda weird lol

Oh and my cøll@rbøn3s are visible now and my h!p bøn3s just starting

It was supposed to be metabday yesterday but since I got my period last Tuesday and ate more than I was supposed to because feeling sick and energy empty I decided to skip it for this week

I’ll definitely do one next Sunday but right know I will just focus on not going over 1200

ON TODAY FØØD EPISODE 🤍

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ 1 ice Americano + fried chicken with mushrooms sauce + 1 omelette and veggies Snack~ 1 ice Americano Dinner~ Salmon salad + chicken broth

Total:~ 1000 🌼

I wanted to have a healthier version for lunch but they were out of stock 😭 still pretty height in protein tho so it’s okay

DAY 29

AHAHAHAH no

But I do a skin care everyday so it make me feel like I am

ON TODAY FØØD EPISODE ♟️

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~✖️ Snack~ 1 ice Americano + 1 peanuts salad with balsamic yogurt sauce + mini tempeh goreng Dinner~ Protein Kick salad with kimchi + chicken broth with shirataki noodles and tofu + 1 orange juice

Total:~ 1100

GUYYYYYS I’M SO HAPPY!!

I found a place (salad on the second picture) where they give the amount of c@l for each of their dish, it’s not expensive and doesn’t go above 500 !!? (This salad was 350) + It looks AND TASTES so GOOD <33 50 on the sc@l3 here I come !

Take my money lmao 😂

I wake up

No bloating

No sadness

And the light defining the h!ps bønes that’s start showing

What a great great day 🧚

Don’t get me wrong, I DESPISE having my p3r!od BUT the post m3nstruat!on effect on my bødy and mindset is just the best feeling ever

DAY 28

Right now I’m just restr!ct!ng and sometimes f@sting when I feel like it I didn’t change my sport routine since it was already settled and I like it as it is

But I used to do a little bit of everything.. I was stuck in the cycle of ⭐️ing, over exercising, b!ng!ng, purg!ng again and again and again until last year Or maybe it was 2 years ago?? I don’t remember, my notion of time is kinda messed up lol A little mix of b3d and m!@.. lovely

ON TODAY FØØD EPISODE 🏹

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ 1 spicy cheesy sausage + 1 apple + 1 corn ice cream + 1 ice Americano Snack~ 1 ice Americano Dinner~ 1 meat bread with kimchi + tofu and 1 egg with spicy sauce + grapes

Total:~800

My dream right now is to hit 50 by next week

WDYM I have more strength now ?? I mean I’m happy with it but the rationale part of my brain don’t understand right now

Still stuck at 53… at least my strength remains the same as when I started I guess FREE ME FROM THIS JAIIIIIL😫

DAY 27

I hope that I am but low self 3steem often makes you think the opposite

I know it’s normal to get bløated and a little bit bigger during your period which leads to a temporary w3!ght gain… BUT WDYM I FEEL LIKE A HIPPO HEYDWHEJDNKAN??🦛

And I have to step on a sc4le in 2 FCKING DAYS !!! Imagine.. just imagine.. if the cøll@rbønes I’m seeing RIGHT NOW are just an illusion due to my důmb, deficient, m3nt4lly ill emotional sponge that serves me as a brain??

I think I going crazy, this is irrational thinking but I can help freaking out aaaaaaah

ON TODAY FØØD EPISODE 🐰

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano + 1 fruity protein bowl Lunch~ 1 spicy sausage + 2 ice Americano + 1 unflavoured kombucha Snack~ 1 ice Americano + 1 apple Dinner~ 1 soto ayam and tofu + Greek yogurt with kimchi and 1 egg + Greek yogurt with tofu and grape

Total:~ 1100-1200

Lots of protein there lmao

My biggest flex right now is that I have a meat bread in my bag and I’m strong enough not to 3@t it

Make me feel in control weirdly

My final goal is to still remain the sociable, always smiling friend 🌼 Faking 3@ting like I don’t fear it and laughing with the people I love None of them will notice and I’m so fine with that I don’t want to stop caring for them, they deserve the entire world I will not become the mean b!ch or the ghost of the friend group I didn’t r3l@pse because of them so they don’t have to suffer from the sh!t I put myself into I accepted the love they gave me and started trusting them without questioning their sincerity Having them entering my life is the best thing that ever happened to me They are the reason I didn’t r3l@pse sooner, always showering me with endless affection I really thought I was healed for good but I just can’t handle myself alone more than 1 MONTH APPARENTLY The funniest part is that they don’t even know that they were my biggest support I only need their presence and voice to feel better 💐 I’ll achieve this and step out being the best version of myself For me and for them🧚

Faking the spark that is fading ⭐️

My period make me say my deepest feelings lmao

Please stay safe everyone, at least try to not lose yourself to the point of losing and hurting the people you love.. they don’t deserve it <3

DAY 26

I have body dysmorphia so I don’t really trust the mirror but

My collarbøn3s are finally showing

I got a little gap between my th!ghs

My w3!ght 

When I bend over I can see my spine

And maybe other things but it’s hard for me to notice them

The anaesthetic part doesn’t work anymore.. I feel a bit to much for my own good and it is insufferable Maybe if I ⭐️ a little bit more I can numb my emotions and be completely detached again

MY COLLARBØN3S ARE SHOWING MORE AND MORE!!! AAAAAAAAH What a great day

ON TODAY FØØD EPISODE 🐊

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano + 1 egg Lunch~ spicy cheesy sausage + 1 apple Snack~ 1 ice Americano Dinner~ homemade protein sandwiches (it looked prettier in my head lmao) + Greek yogurt and fruit (1/2 apple and some red grapes)

Total:~ 1200

I feel better than yesterday, I was able to r3str!ct myself a little bit more but finding the right balance with protein 🌼

Omg I have more than a 100 notes on 1 of my post !?? I feel kinda famous lmao💃💃

Thank you 🧚🌼🤍

Please take care, you are beautiful and you deserve the world 🐞

DAY 26

Art.. that include painting, installation, performance and writing

Biology and science, especially micro and macro world🧑‍🔬

Sport, I’m currently in the gym but that’s only because I can’t afford swimming class and horse riding hahahahaaaa (give me money lmao)

Politics

Doing to much sudoku for my own good

Making fake scenarios in my head and talking to myself

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 🌱

Breakfast~ 2 ice Americano + Greek yogurt with corn and 1 egg + soya milk Snack~ spicy cheesy sausage + Egg salad wraps Lunch~ scrambled eggs with mushrooms sauce on focaccia and 1 chicken sausage + 1 ice Americano Dinner~ 1 gado-gado with kerupuk

Total:~ 1500-1600