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You will only be happy when you start to focus on the simple daily experiences that make you happy. And that might mean letting go of other things.
WHEN A CHARACTER GETS WOUNDED AND THEY GO TO THEIR LOVE INTEREST FOR HELP AND WHILE THEYāRE GETTING THEIR INJURIES CLEANED AND PATCHED UP THEY FLINCH FROM THE STING OF THE ANTISEPTIC AND THEIR LOVE INTEREST SAYS āHOLD STILLā IN AN EXASPERATED BUT TOUCHINGLY CONCERNED TONE OF VOICE AND THEN THEY ACCIDENTALLY MAKE EYE CONTACT OR BRUSH HANDS AND JUST FREEZE IN THAT POSITION UNTIL THE TENSION IN THE ROOM IS NEARLY UNBERABLE BEFORE BOTH LOOKING AWAY AND PRETENDING THE UNSPOKEN THING THAT JUST PASSED BETWEEN THEM NEVER HAPPENED
āyoung adult dystopian novels are so unrealistic lmao like they always have some random teenage girl rising up to inspire the world to make change.ā
a hero emergesĀ
Adam drawing process
A big part of being an adult is buying your favourite produce then saving it for when you feel deserving of a delicious healthy snack and eventually throwing it away because it rotted waiting for you to feel worthy of it..
āIām tired, canāt think of anything and want only to lay my face in your lap, feel your hand on my head and remain like that through all eternity.ā
ā Franz Kafka, Letters to Milena (via goodreadss)
I wonder what itās like being 28 and waking up knowing youāre going to ask him to marry you tonight. I wonder what itās like being 30 and waking up to him gone for the week on a work trip and having the entire bed to yourself for the first time in ages so you starfish the fuck out of it, but somehow drift over to their side because you already miss them. I wonder what itās like being 42 and waking up for work content that the same pair of tired eyes as yesterday, and the day before that, and for the past 13 years, still look at you like you have the ability to reverse time and stop the sun from rising any higher, then you could both stay in bed. You blink, smile, and kiss his forehead softly as a reply, silently acknowledging your shared distaste for mornings, but not apologizing for wanting to wake up to those eyes again tomorrow.
I wonder what itās like being 49 and waking up beside someone who still makes you nervous when they look at you that close up in the morning, especially now that youāre nearing 50 and fully aware of the wrinkles you have and the ones on the way.
I wonder what itās like being 60 and waking up at 2pm because you were too sore and sickly to get out of bed that morning, but when you hear her key in the door after coming back from the store with some medicine, your favourite soup and a kiss, it still makes your heart beat fast enough to propel you off the bed and into her arms.
I wonder what itās like being 84 and waking up next to an undisturbed pillow and an unwrinkled half of a quilt because he died 2 years ago, peacefully in his sleep. It was just her time to go. I wonder what itās like to live life in that much love. And when you do, I wonder what itās like to lose it to something as trivial as your body passing through time. Itās heartbreaking that the body canāt last as long as the love between two people. But itās also kind of beautiful that love transcends physical nature. All we can do is experience it while itās here and while it lasts. I just hope that whoever decides to love me will love me in the healthiest way possible.....
Thatās what careless words do. They make people love you a little less.
Arundhati Roy, The God of Small Things (via goodreadss)