“I May Not Always Understand Your Ways, Your Thoughts, Your Actions Or Even Your Words. But Believe

I find it kinda therapeutic to find old photos of me that I like and crop the people out that have hurt me. It might sound petty, but I like that picture just not the person who turned out to be hurtful in it. Sorry not sorry 😊.

happy halloween

Di ako papasok bukas.

Masama pinaramdam mo.

And i pray that you would stay

You thought but this isn’t what you really want

I thought this was the life I wanted, but here I am, waking up to the same old walls, and phone calls from unknown numbers.

I thought this was the life I wanted, going to a city that seemed like home, but it’s hard to call these people a friend of my own. it’s hard to fall for those whose intentions brings shivers down my spine, and a trigger in my mind.

I thought this was the life I wanted, that freedom I once craved, to live wild and free without the fears of my childhood. I believed this was the place I was meant to be, but along the way, I blended in with the crowd and became who they wanted me to be. This isn’t the life I wanted. The life I wanted was you and me, hearing the sound of your laugh, and waking up to your head rested on my chest, with my fingers running through your hair. The life I wanted was to be with you, the only one who made this mess feel alright, whose heart beat became my home.

—- Topaz Pantoja

July 22nd, 2018

You thought but this isn’t what you really want

I thought this was the life I wanted, but here I am, waking up to the same old walls, and phone calls from unknown numbers.

I thought this was the life I wanted, going to a city that seemed like home, but it’s hard to call these people a friend of my own. it’s hard to fall for those whose intentions brings shivers down my spine, and a trigger in my mind.

I thought this was the life I wanted, that freedom I once craved, to live wild and free without the fears of my childhood. I believed this was the place I was meant to be, but along the way, I blended in with the crowd and became who they wanted me to be. This isn’t the life I wanted. The life I wanted was you and me, hearing the sound of your laugh, and waking up to your head rested on my chest, with my fingers running through your hair. The life I wanted was to be with you, the only one who made this mess feel alright, whose heart beat became my home.

—- Topaz Pantoja

July 22nd, 2018

positive vibes in❤

moon at 11:03pm of august 31 2018 dslr sony camera took lens to 1200mm

Disappointed but not surprised

Hi how are you