When You’ve Been In So Much Emotional And Mental Turmoil Recently That Going Back To Feeling Absolutely

I need a new distraction from being alive. It's really hard to find new interests when all you can think about is wanting someone to love you, or wanting to die

time is going too fast and I can’t keep up. the month seems to go by in a blink but the days are long. one day you wake up and realize a full month has passed, and you have nothing. you don’t have many memories, you don’t have the potential to do anything, and you don’t have many reasons to be here anymore.

We’re All Going to the World’s Fair (Jane Schoenbrun, 2021)

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poetry (in English)

lavender and blue

don’t you know

my body is frail

and I’m all alone

red and green

they stain my skin

I love you

and I love them

I don't know what to do anymore. I don't want to be here

perpetual fuck up

If someone changes their tone of voice during a conversation with me I feel like the whole worlds collapsed on my body.