Littlecigs - Out Of Body

Steffen Lipski

Elbaue

2023

Without my mental illness I wouldn't know who I am but, because of my mental illness I have no sense of self. Like the logic is super crazy.

I feel sick, you know

In my head, in my heart

My eyes are filled with little black stars

And my stomach churns

With a thousand words I'll never say

And lately I've been stuffing my dumb fucking face ruining so much progress

Wish I had thighs but if I gain more than 5lbs I want to kill myself 🙄

I dreamt of you last night

It was still Christmas

And I was a fairy

But that's not important

I went shopping with friends I don't have

And had fun

Then I ran into you

And got angry

We had a fight

But you kept following me

And I woke up

So viscerally uncomfortable

I had the urge to scream