Intimacy Is Not Just Physical. To Crave A Persons Presence And Energy Rather Than Just Their Body Is

If I ever kill myself just know I tried my fucking best and please forgive me

I feel like as a teen it is incredibly hard to change and better yourself especially when you live in a household that isn’t the healing type, as instead of healing the trauma sticks in each and every situation and because of their trauma they’ll feel the need to make you feel guilty because you expressed yourself by, for forbid, crying!

I HAVE to stop intentionally looking at triggering content and get my shit together, a family member I live with just called me of today for not eating like I’m supposed to and mentioned taking me to the doctor over it and it’s like they can’t do anything cause there’s nothing actually physically wrong with me it’s just what’s going on in my head and eating less has reduced my appetite. She’s the last person i want to take me to the doctor though so leaving my Lana del ray girl interrupted era that lasted about 2 days 😓

Kill the voice in your head that says you’ll be happier skinny

If it feels hard to compliment you own body, to say positive statements, then please appreciate your body for what it can do for you, and it can be something as simples as “it keeps me alive”. It’s hard to immediately stop saying negative things about ourselves, and it might feel strange saying very positive things to it. Try saying neutral things first, than maybe slowly you can find new positive things that don’t feel too outlandish because it feels “fake”. It’s something that takes time for us to assimilate and for us to finally become a little more comfortable with our bodies. They’re doing the best they can with the circumstances, they are trying to survive. And if that’s the only thing you can appreciate, that’s a start. Changing the way we speak to ourselves might be a slow thing to get used to, but it is worth for you to have some peace of mind, even if it feels odd to say it. The repetition will help too, and you’ll find it less and less strange with time. Please be patient with yourself.

Don't sabotage your future peace because familiar chaos is comfortable.

I’m just so tired. I feel like no one would notice if I just stopped talking. Maybe it would be for the best if I did.

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