Luxlila

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Shyness...

One of my goals this Winter is to become less shy and more comfortable speaking up for myself. I talked about this before but I wanted to dive deeper into myself and understand where this shyness comes from.

I am naturally more introverted. I am aware that being introverted does not equal shyness, but I do enjoy being alone and hanging around people drains me.

Guys make me shy. I don't know why but they do. I am not shy around girls the way I am around guys. I think it's because I think they are super judgmental even though thats just an assumption.

Group settings triggers my shyness as well. I can have a 1 on 1 conversation with a stranger and do fine but put that stranger and I in a group setting, now I don't know how to act.

My shyness has definitely improved but I have a long way to go. And if you're wondering why this is important to me, it is because I see myself living a very fun and amazing life, and being shy and not knowing how to have a simple conversation with people is going to close more doors than open, so its important to me to overcome this.

Thats all,

Things/Hobbies I want to get into before I die

-Tennis

-Piano

-Surfing

-Horseback Riding

-Shooting

-Ice Skating

-Coding

-Cooking

-Baking

-Makeup

-Knitting

-Crochet

-Painting

-Pottery

-Videogaming

-Cocktail/drink making

I actually loved tennis and piano lessons growing up. What's weird is that growing up my parents would put me and my sister in things, like gymnastics, ballet, and tennis lessons , but would NEVER keep us in there. When it was time to resign us back up, they would never do it. So now that I am older, I want to get back into the sports I use to love but couldn't fully commit to.

I also use to be huge on video games. Me and my younger sister had an xbox, and some of my funnest memories were staying up until 3 or 4 in the morning playing together. It also made me dream of having a video game collection. When our Xbox broke we never got a new one which was sad since me and my sister really bonded over playing together. Anyways eventually I would like to get a Xbox and Playstation and play some of my childhood games and create the video game collection I always dreamed of.