Staying Up Until 4am To Read Incredible Fanfiction Seems Like Such A Good Idea At The Time 😅

So I was watching last night’s episode and I am a dumbass.

Like when she said, “What do you want?”

I heard:

Doctor: What do you want?

Master: Neil. Neil, or they all die.

And I was like, “who tf is Neil???”

And then she gOT ON HER FUCKING KNEES AND I REALISED-

Oh.

I am a dumbass.

Then this morning I found out I wasn’t the only one who heard that so yay we’re all dumbasses together 😂.

(It also means I’ve grown up though ‘cause like two years ago my mind would’ve immediately gone the dirty route but now... the Master trying to find some rando named Neil is surprisingly??? Wholesome???)

Season 5 - Adora’s Sexuality Arc

So forgive me if other people have already done this to death (I’ve been meaning to write this for a couple of days but iron deficiency has left me exhausted), but I just wanted to talk about the way in which season 5 handled Adora’s sexuality.

The way in which it was handled was both so subtle and so explicit at the same time and I’ve never seen something handled in such a mature, natural fashion.

From just the small glimpse of their world we’re given, homophobia doesn’t appear to be a thing that exists. However this doesn’t mean that it’s all clear-sailing for any of them when it comes to sexuality.

In Adora’s case, she was raised in an environment in which she was expected to excel and lead, without any real regard for her own wants and desires.

Needless to say, it didn’t set her up with the best support system. Despite Shadow Weaver essentially being her mother, it doesn’t seem likely that even Adora could have gone to her about anything that might have been going on in her head.

Even upon leaving the Horde, Adora’s emotional needs still aren’t met. Despite building herself a good support system (or rather the support system built itself around her), she still struggles to act selfishly in any situation and no one around her can empathise fully with what she’s been through.

Even into season 5, Adora describes herself as a “punch your feelings out” kind of person.

Which indicates that she doesn’t really talk about her problems and instead chooses to get on with what she believes she needs to do.

To me, this gives the impression that Adora had never really thought about her sexuality before and had never been able to think about what, or who, she wants. (Even if some of the looks she gave girls throughout the series tell a story of their own!)

Central to the season was Adora’s inconsistency with her ability to become She-Ra. At first, it might have seemed that She-Ra would come to her when she really needed her, but quite quickly throughout the season this is put into uncertainty.

However, there is one variable that is usually present when she is able to transform into She-Ra; Catra.

Unsurprising? Yes.

The first time she was able to transform again, it was out of her need to protect Catra. And, in many ways, this was her first real selfish move. After all, many Etherians really wouldn’t be too bothered if Catra made it out alive, given what she’s done in the past.

Even Bow and Glimmer, who trust Adora, probably struggled to understand why she cares so much for Catra, despite everything she’s done to them. That is until they see her holding her.

I feel like this is when it began to click for both Bow and Glimmer. That Catra is Adora’s sense of stability, and that she holds an important place in her heart.

The entire season, Adora is constantly asked what she wants, and she’s never able to give a complete answer. It’s always “I need to do this.”, never “I want to do this.”.

For a while with Catra back in her life, her abilities as She-Ra return, but Shadow Weaver is constantly there to stick an unwanted spanner in the works.

Whatever progress Adora might have made in figuring out her feelings towards Catra begin sliding backwards as Shadow Weavers words sink in. Even if she doesn’t trust Shadow Weaver, her word is still something she grew up on, and for her mother figure to tell her she’s confused, it certainly adds to her feelings of self-doubt.

It is clear by this point that Catra already knows how she feels about Adora (even if she might not know how to process it) and so this separation in understanding further expands the rift between the two of them, which leads in turn to She-Ra drifting further and further away.

During her struggle, we see Mara tell Adora that she’s also deserving of love and that she shouldn’t self sacrifice so much.

But even that doesn’t truly reach her in the way it needs to.

It isn’t until Catra’s confession that we get to see Adora finally allow herself something.

The kiss between them wasn’t just magical because of the love behind it, but also because it displays the moment that Adora accepts her own wants and needs. And it’s through that level of love and self-understanding that She-Ra returns.

This scene shows a different kind of confidence than has previously been seen in earlier seasons. Whereas before her confidence as She-Ra seemed a lot to do with her physical strength, this confidence seems to come from within.

From self-content.

And for someone like Adora, who always seems to need to be doing something for a greater cause, her calmness at the end of the war is a perfect conclusion to her self-acceptance.

And then, at the end, she has Catra, and she’s not ashamed by people knowing. She finally allows herself to be selfish and in love.

(Sorry if this makes no sense, it’s really late and I should be asleep 😴 but I just thought that the series handled this really beautifully.)

December 21st

No one will see this but......

You have no idea how Yuri!!! On Ice has changed my life! Not only do we have a canon gay ship, but the last episode is airing on my birthday. For someone who was told four years ago that the world was meant to end on my birthday, I’m so happy that I now have something different to remember the day by.

Victuuri has changed my life for the better so today, for the last episode, I’m wearing a blue dress as if I was at their wedding XD!

You coming?

Ok so I was looking for historical slang terms for penis (gotta be era-accurate when writing vintage dick jokes) and I came across….something

some linguist compiled a literal timeline of genitalia slang–a cock compendium, if you will–that dates back all the way to the fucking 13th CENTURY. This motherfucker tracked the evolution of erection etymology through 800+ years, because if he doesn’t do it, who else will? Thank you for your service, Johnathon Green.

Some of my story

When I was 8 years old the seeds were planted for my mental issues. By the age of 10 they were truly making themselves known in behavioural difficulties. At 12 I was given counselling for communicational management. When I was 13 that turned into visits to an NHS psychiatrist and psychologist to sort out my depression, anxiety, disordered eating, body image issues and suicidal thoughts.

It took a while but I made it back to feeling good. My anxiety persisted somewhat, but the depression was pretty much gone.

But then, last month, with me being now 17, the anxiety came back in full force worse than it’s ever been before. My doctor even wanted to prescribe me medication. I lost half a stone (7 pounds) in 10 days, lost so much sleep and woke up in cold sweats every night, and I even had to have a blood test to confirm that nothing was wrong.

But the reason for this would have shocked 13 year old me.

It was because I developed a debilitating fear of death and dying. I realised how much I love being alive and how much I haven’t been able to do yet.

I may be afraid, and I may have been miserable for weeks at a time, wondering if I should just quicken up the process (since you can’t be afraid of something that’s already happened, especially not something like that), but it has also inspired me. 

I’ve taken up walking (WALKING), both alone and with friends. I even now have a couple of friends I’m going to go walking with every weekend. And, hopefully, soon I should be able to begin enjoying my ballet lessons again.

I’ve also made huge progress with my body image. This month has made me more comfortable with what I’ve been given. Soon, I’ll hopefully be happy again.

Times may be hard, but if you stay with yourself long enough to see the other side of it, you may just surprise yourself.

Recovery is hard, recovery can be slow, but recovery is worth it. It may not be the only time you have to recover but that’s just going to be another chapter.

And this post may be the most ramble-y mess I’ve ever written, but I feel like some people need to hear that they deserve to tell the world their entire story, not just a couple of chapters.

MY BENEFITS HAVE BEEN SUSPENDED AND I DESPERATELY NEED HELP!!

*URGENT: PLEASE READ/SIGNAL BOOST*

Saturday, March 7th: Hello everyone, I’m Gemma and sincerely apologize to be asking for help again but, things have unfortunately gone from bad to worse for me and I desperately need help.

As most of you are already aware, I have been struggling financially for quite some time due to my welfare benefits being revoked, under the UK’s controversial changes to how benefits are assessed and assigned. And due to my mental health and some unfortunate DWP mess-ups, my benefits have been on and off sanctions for over a year now.

And despite receiving the results of my medical assessment earlier last month, which stated that I have a limited capability for work due to my persistent low mood and extreme fatigue, my benefits have been suspended without warning or reason. I am currently trying to appeal the decision and make a new claim. However, that will take a few weeks to be processed, and I am also trying to apply for PIP/ESA, which is another long and complicated process.

I currently don’t have any finances to pay anything, and I’m quite literally on the verge of a breakdown, as I am drowning in red notices and final demands, as I used to only get £128 per month and that wasn’t enough to cover my rent and bills leaving me in heavy debt. And I recently had to have my broken electricity meter replaced, I will receive the bill for this sometime next week. *evidence can be provided*

And at the moment, I desperately need help to keep my utilities on, pay my electricity bill and my rent and I also have groceries to get and it would really mean a lot to me if I could get some help. My goal is £600 to help me get by until my benefits are reinstated, hopefully in April.

If anyone could spare any amount to help me, even if it’s just £1/$1/€1, it would literally save my life, and sharing definitely helps just as much as donations. Nobody is obligated in any way to donate if they can’t or don’t want to, I know we’re all struggling.

Thank you for your help 💖

£262/£600!!

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I NOTICED SOMETHING!

(I'm probably the last person to notice this)

I’m probably reading too far into this... But look at that scene! Not only was it so domestic that Victor was willing to share his drink with Yuuri (which would result in an indirect kiss!!!!), but Victor seemingly forgot for a moment that the competition was coming up!

He was so engrossed in their sightseeing that he momentarily forgot why they were there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Victor’s been competing for literally years and he still forgot. I know Victor is forgetful but this just shows how much he was enjoying their trip out together. 

You know what my favorite thing about the Pokemon TCG is? The attack names:

And my all-time favorite: