“Do More Things That Make You Forget To Check Your Phone.”

I’m tired of fighting. This battle has gone on too long and I have grown tired and weary. These nights I spend alone, not a friend in sight. I isolate & when I disassociate, I wake up in my own blood. I drown myself in alcohol so I don’t have to feel my feelings & when I feel nothing I drink to feel something. it’s a fucked up paradox, but here I am. I can feel the end. I’m scared. I reached out to professionals but they don’t believe me. My own best friend deserted me with no explanation when they promised they’d be here through thick and thin. I’m tired of being me. I’ve changed, I’ve done better, but at the end of the day I still feel so fucking empty and lost. I feel like I can’t go on, but I push through. I’ve never hated myself so much in my life, and I just want peace.

m a y b e w e w i l l u s e y o u r m e s s a g e .

“There are times when the kindness of strangers only makes things worse because one realizes how badly one is in need of kindness and that the only source is a stranger.”

— Nicole Krauss

“Do not act as if you were going to live ten thousand years. Death hangs over you. While you live, while it is in your power, be good.”

— Marcus Aurelius

“You know how every once in a while you do something and the little voice inside says ‘There. That’s it. That’s why you’re here’ … and you get a warm glow in your heart because you know it’s true? Do more of that.”

— Jacob Nordby

(that’s my quote)