Maniclysane - Good Luck

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Be selfish with your time. A lot of people don’t deserve it.

Vomiting after my first night shift 😭

So long ago, I don’t remember.

I’m tired of fighting. This battle has gone on too long and I have grown tired and weary. These nights I spend alone, not a friend in sight. I isolate & when I disassociate, I wake up in my own blood. I drown myself in alcohol so I don’t have to feel my feelings & when I feel nothing I drink to feel something. it’s a fucked up paradox, but here I am. I can feel the end. I’m scared. I reached out to professionals but they don’t believe me. My own best friend deserted me with no explanation when they promised they’d be here through thick and thin. I’m tired of being me. I’ve changed, I’ve done better, but at the end of the day I still feel so fucking empty and lost. I feel like I can’t go on, but I push through. I’ve never hated myself so much in my life, and I just want peace.

The Blue Room (2014)

“Go out and do something. It isn’t your room that’s a prison, it’s yourself.”

— Sylvia Plath

“Self-respect leads to self-discipline. When you have both firmly under your belt, that’s real power.”

— Clint Eastwood

“There are times when the kindness of strangers only makes things worse because one realizes how badly one is in need of kindness and that the only source is a stranger.”

— Nicole Krauss