Maychuhopes - Nahsaurjoy

recovery can be difficult and can take a lot longer than you expected. don’t be hard on yourself for getting burnt out. have compassion even when it feels like your not recovering “fast enough” or “correctly.” everyone is on their own path.

These days the only

Thing I want is to just stop

Ripping me apart

the sorrow you feel when missing someone you can no longer see or embrace hits quite differently.

i'm gradually allowing myself to discontinue oversharing. i came to realise that being overly open to others equates to allowing them to view beyond the surface of yourself, which can be used against you or against the people you value about the most.

nights come devoid of the expanse of your silhouette: only the gnawing

winds

that reproach my bones what good is hope before remorse: when you hacked

your tresses before

my lips

could reach your

nape: with our perse detritus scattered i keep you as a divine shrapnel buried

deep in my pith

inferno: oblivious to your momentum swirling with a taste of non-existence

of

reticence

and you said:

there's no reason to obsess over fiery delights as the remoteness of memory

creeps like

bougainville

somewhere the sky is burning with your chrysanthemums and somewhere

it falls

through

my bones without you: without the taste of your tongue: the first light

won't ever make it here

before your urgencies consume

me and

everything that i will ever

touch

i've had a lot of realizations during these past few days. i used to have big dreams. but now, i'm eagerly looking for contentment as i believe it equates to peace of mind and a lighter heart.

“Please don’t expect me to always be good and kind and loving. There are times when I will be cold and thoughtless and hard to understand.”

— Sylvia Plath

now i understand why our parents often told us not grow up too fast. because they are aware of how challenging adult life will be, whereas we were clueless that once we reached adulthood, we would have wished to go back to our childhood.

“Care about what other people think and you will always be their prisoner.”

— Lao Tzu