Shoutout To Every Neurodivergent Adult Who Has Never Been On A Date And Grew Up With Very Few Friends,

I have a lot of creative energy, yet I sit mindlessly scrolling through lobotomizing Instagram reels and TikToks. I've thought countless times about what to do about my restlessness, but I stay stagnant. I want to make something personal and honest with all of my favorite things. I worry if what I make will be enough for me, I doubt myself a lot but my contentment is getting harder to come by and I think I just need to do it

You've been diagnosed with jack of all trades disorder! Good luck finding a career you're supposed to hold for the rest of your life!

I had a professor in college who used to start solving every problem with the same dialogue.

Proff: What’s the first step to solving any problem? Class: Don’t panic. Proff: And why is that? Class: Because we know more than we think we do.

I think about that a lot tbh. It didn’t occur to me until much later that he meant for us to apply that dialogue outside of the classroom to any problem. Because we always know more than we think we do. We are all an amalgam of random information that ends up being relevant with surprising frequency.

Today, we were supposed to learn about clinical presentations of hematologic disorders. The teacher came in, looked at us and told us he was not going to teach that. We were really confused until he opened a slide labelled clinical reasoning. He then explained that as 4th year medical students 7th week into our internal medicine attachment, we were not ecxpected to know a lot.

"Just the principles," he said. He also told us the feeling of inadequecy and lack of knowledge we feel when our peers answered a question we were struggling to grasp or find the answers for was completely normal. "It's because they read a section you haven't read, there might be sections you read they haven't. Think of it that way."

The fact that he said that quelled my imposter syndome just a little. I felt as if I knew nothing when my classmates answered real head-scratcher questions on bedsides, rounds and classes. And that feeling had affected my study sessions because they made me feel it wouldn't bring any change in my knowledge and I wasn't smart enough for medical school. Maybe these things were also felt by them no matter how much I thought they were confident in their knowledge.

Anyways, he taught us how to take history, do a focused physical examination and form our diagnosis based on the pertinent information from that.

I only wish that we learned this at the start of the attachment because it would've been a great help back then.

Hey, it's okay to grieve for the person you were, the person you could be right now. It's okay to be angry for all the things that were taken away from you. The things that you're still healing from. It's okay.

How to figure out the lesson in situations:

1. Identity the pattern. Think about the situations and people who have made you feel this way or brought you a specific outcome.

Are these relationships leaving you feeling the same way (undervalued, overwhelmed, or hurt)?

What character traits are you seeing (unavailability, neediness, or dishonesty)? Are you choosing people because of specific character traits (they don’t have to feel inherently negative to you)?

2. Think about your reactions to all of those things. Do you tolerate bad behavior hoping it will change? Do you avoid confrontation or fail to set boundaries? Do you feel like a victim or powerless?

3. Figure out what you are avoiding. Typically the lessons come from the things we resist. Are you avoiding self respect by settling for less? Are you ignoring red flags for fear of being alone?

4. Think about how your choices or beliefs contribute to these outcomes.

For example:

Do you over-give to earn approval?

Do you ignore your intuition to avoid conflict?

5. Ask yourself:

What can this situation teach me about self worth, boundaries, or communication?

How can I grow emotionally, mentally, or spiritually?

6. Practice the lesson actively:

If the lesson is about self worth, say no to people who devalue you.

If it’s about boundaries, start expressing your needs clearly.

You’ll know you’ve learned the lesson when similar situations arise and you respond differently, breaking the cycle.

*There is always a lesson to be learned (aside from the fact that the other person is probably a horrible human being) 😚 Don’t be stubborn about it and think you’re a perfect person. It doesn’t make you less perfect, or dumb, or deserving of how people treated you. The point is for you to grow, evolve and make sure it never happens again.

Always take good care of yourself so you can take great care for others

living in the age of social media makes us crave instant results, gratification and stimulation. we’re constantly racing against the clock instead of letting things flow. this makes it difficult to stay motivated on long term goals or have the patience to see it through. but despite the distractions, continue to believe in yourself and persist in your goals. everything comes when it’s ready.