Bones and All (from page to screen) dir. Luca Guadagnino 2022
— Clarice Lispector, from “The Hour of the Star.”
LIFE HAS NOT FORGOTTEN YOU IT HOLDS YOU IN ITS HANDS LIFE HAS NOT FORGOTTEN YOU IT HOLDS YOU IN ITS HANDS LIFE HAS NOT FORGOTTEN YOU IT HOLDS YOU IN ITS HANDS LIFE HAS NOT FORGOTTEN YOU IT HOLDS YOU IN ITS HANDS LIFE HAS NOT FORGOTTEN YOU IT HOLDS YOU IN ITS HANDS LIFE HAS NOT FORGOTTEN YOU IT HOLDS YOU IN ITS HANDS LIFE HAS NOT FORGOTTEN YOU IT HOLDS YOU IN ITS HANDS LIFE HAS NOT FORGOTTEN YOU IT HOLDS YOU IN ITS HANDS
I made a baby blanket for a pregnant woman at work and I went back and forth about it like “is this weird? To like hand make something for someone when we’re like friendly acquaintances not like bffs. God why are you so fucking awkward.” Anyway I gave it to her and she said she loved it and in the back of my head I’m like yea she’s nice and probably just humoring the weirdo. Well she texted me a picture this weekend of a scrunchy faced newborn at the hospital wrapped in the blanket I made her. And I’m like. Wow. She loved it so much she took it with her! To the hospital! To give birth! She wrapped her newborn it! I am just so filled with love and joy right now.
People will love the things you make them. Because you thought of them and you cared.
offkuts all tied up in bows skirt ౨ৎ
2023: go to the limits of your longing, let everything happen to you: beauty and terror, just keep going, no feeling is final
The plot and the main characters are based on Derek Cianfrance’s unfinished docufiction film “Metalhead,” in which the drummer of a heavy metal duo blows his eardrums out and must learn to adapt to a world of silence. Cianfrance’s film was in post-production since 2009, and it stars Jucifer’s band members and real life couple Edgar Livengood and Gazelle Amber Valentine playing themselves. Darius Marder was one of the screenwriters of Derek Cianfrance’s The Place Beyond the Pines (2012). Marder was personally asked by Cianfrance to re-work “Metalhead” from the beginning as well as giving his blessing.
Sound of Metal (2019), dir. Darius Marder
— Cinematography by Daniël Bouquet
LOVE AS CONSUMPTION, ABSORPTION, REFLECTION
(aka bones and all made me insane)
1. A Primer for the Small Weird Loves - Richard Siken / 2. The Crane Wife - CJ Hauser / 3. Automat - Edward Hopper / 4. Red Doc> - Anne Carson / 5. Melancholy - Edvard Munch / 6. The Village (2004) / 7. So We Must Meet Apart - Gabrielle Bates and Jennifer S. Cheng
on winter and longing
Sarah Kay, Natalie Diaz, Craig Keenan, Clarice Lispector, Mahmoud Darwish, Brittany Cossette, Franz Kafka, Edvard Munch, Richard Siken, Haruki Murakami, Holly Warburton, Mahmoud Darwish
buy me a coffee
Gustavo Fring from Breaking Bad - Aluminum Foil Sculpture
Cellophane Creature by FKA twigs - Aluminum Foil Sculpture
The Sacrifice (1986) dir. Andrei Tarkovsky
Jean-Michel Basquiat photographed by Tseng Kwong Chi in his Great Jones Street studio, 1987.
Clementine Chalfant by Matias Alfonzo for Carnale Room October 2022
what are your twenties if not an endless string of the ghosts of who you thought you would become
I didn’t think you’d fall in love with me.
In the Mood for Love 花樣年華 (2000) dir. Wong Kar Wai
Aimee Bender, “On a Saturday Afternoon”
But what will we do when we’re sober?
x / Gustav Deutsch / Eileen Myles / @unsnarled / Audre Lorde / Mary Oliver x2 / W. S. Merwin / William Faulkner
FALLEN ANGELS ‘墮落天使’ dir. Wong Kar-wai
First Love: Hatsukoi 初恋 (2022) dir. Kanchiku Yuri
土城計畫
i want to be alone
Norður
Outono
Ain Sokhna, Egypt
Jean-Michel Basquiat photographed by Tseng Kwong Chi in his Great Jones Street studio, 1987.
Falling Star, 1884, by Witold Pruszkowski (1846-1896)