"I Just Want To Be Okay For A Day. I Want To Wake Up And Be Happy To Be Alive. I Want To Enjoy The Company

I can feel everyone getting sick of me, and to be honest I don’t blame them, I’m pretty sick of myself at this point.

i dont want to live another year.

“She is written in a foreign tongue.”

- Henry James, The Portrait of a Lady

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well explain me then, if starving is bad for me why it feels like i became a god

i’m burned out, i’m tired, i’m falling apart. every day is the same but simultaneously gets worse. 

people don’t understand how mentally draining having an eating disorder is. they assume you just skip a meal a day and then boom you lose like 30 pounds then recover. they don’t realize that you lose all your energy and can barely even function. you lose friends over it, get horrible grades, have to stop working, lose interest & energy in pursuing passions and hobbies. it fucking sucks and they make it so obvious they don’t give a shit about us.

“Having a soulmate is not always about love. You can find your soulmate in a friendship too.”

— Unknown

Happiness is not for me. I don't think I will ever deserve it, to be honest. I just wish for one day. I need a break. Just one day. Please

I want my life back