Cats + Nature

Could I say this is so me?

Life's been quite tiring, lately.

clutching to my wonder and love for the world despite the endless tasks

31.03.2023 I confessed I did something reckless to my health (mentally and physically), need to remind myself and you (my fellow reader who work so hard for themselves) to not let yourself be too exhausted doing your academic. :( I spend from 8 pm till 4 am managing individual paper and groupwork paper, and it wasn't healthy to do so. I skipped my suhoor and the morning, I felt so drained mentally that I wanted to cry but your girl had online presentation in the afternoon 2 pm. It wasn't rewarding feeling. Won't do it again.

After the class, I just laid down in bed and read. The reading calms me down a bit and yay, to slowly reaching my book goal.

(MAKE SURE YOU TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF, READER, OR ELSE I WOULD MAKE YOUR ICED COFFEE MELTS FASTER OR YOUR HOT DRINKS BECOME COLD FAST. Maybe worse, it spills) 💕

Somewhat my July reads, hopefully.

Life's update

Back again to being a student, specifically a Phd student.

Ah, world, what lessons you prepare for us, even in the leafless winter, even in the ashy city. I am thinking now of grief, and of getting past it;

I feel my boots trying to leave the ground, I feel my heart pumping hard. I want

to think again of dangerous and noble things. I want to be light and frolicsome. I want to be improbable beautiful and afraid of nothing, as though I had wings.

Mary Oliver, "Starlings in Winter"

"Evolve or repeat" + library's view.

Hardwork doesn't betray. It is getting tougher but I can manage.

Organizational behaviour test been a crazy obstacle and I could only say this to myself, "you can endure this". It is tough but it is definitely worth it.

On Restlessness and Emptiness

fernando pessoa, the book of disquiet // oh de laval, you live more for 5 minutes going fast on a bike than other people do in all of their life // mark ravenhill, beautiful thing // mine //  franz kafka, diaries 1910-1923 // simone de beauvoir, from diary of a philosophy student // kine andersen // ariel stess, i’m pretty fucked up // george condo, still life with skull and snowman // sylvia plath, the unabridged journals