because I need it right now. your worth is not your grades. an assignment is not worth sacrificing your mental health. your body, your mind, is the only one of its kind, and it shouldn't be given up for an A that'll get lost to time. because grades will be lost to time, but you won't be. you have so many years ahead of you—and if you look back on yourself now, you want to see someone happy.
yes, it's always nice to do well. yes, what you do now will affect your future.
but what you do now will affect your future. if this is your one chance, go: go live, and laugh, and eat foods that you enjoy, and make friends and fall in love with the world. grades are important, but happiness is more.
all I'm saying is that focus on yourself as much as you do your work. one day you'll look back and be grateful for it.
and most of all, I love you. don't forget that.
<3
Crying
when georges bataille wrote, “no greater desire exists than a wounded person’s need for another wound” & when gillian flynn wrote, “a child weaned on poison considers harm a comfort” & when ocean vuong wrote, “sometimes being offered tenderness feels like the very proof that you’ve been ruined” & when lisa m. basile wrote, “did you inherit a sickness? did you blame god? do you believe in god? do you believe in yourself? are you still on fire? did you ever put out the fire?” & when stephen a. guirgis wrote, “why didn't you make me good enough so that you could’ve loved me?”
Trying to finish a report during semester break. Feeling overwhelmed by the long list of deadlines and somewhat feeling stuck even if you've been productive? Thank you to bestie for accomopanying me even if we share different Masters course.
Northen Lights - Gottfrid Kallstenius , 1915.
Swedish, 1861-1943
Oil on canvas, 100 x 110 cm. 39.4 x 43.3 in.
𝙹𝚞𝚕𝚢 𝟿, 𝟷𝟿𝟷𝟸 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙳𝚒𝚊𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚜 𝙾𝚏 𝙵𝚛𝚊𝚗𝚣 𝙺𝚊𝚏𝚔𝚊, 𝟷𝟿𝟷𝟶-𝟷𝟿𝟷𝟹
[ID: July 9. many devils are within us. END ID]
No :c
I am actually panicking inside because my supervisor require me to publish a paper. And my impostor syndrome side decided to tell me I am a professional full-time fraud.