Magnolias Are So Ancient Plants That Almost Every Other Plant And Insect Who Came To Being Around The

17.03.2023 third cup of coffee + suzume's Radwimps ft Toaka. Found gaps in my research paper (literature review and results specifically) during editing and wanting to hit my head because the deadline is on 18.03 (tomorrow) at 10:59 pm.

31.03.2023 I confessed I did something reckless to my health (mentally and physically), need to remind myself and you (my fellow reader who work so hard for themselves) to not let yourself be too exhausted doing your academic. :( I spend from 8 pm till 4 am managing individual paper and groupwork paper, and it wasn't healthy to do so. I skipped my suhoor and the morning, I felt so drained mentally that I wanted to cry but your girl had online presentation in the afternoon 2 pm. It wasn't rewarding feeling. Won't do it again.

After the class, I just laid down in bed and read. The reading calms me down a bit and yay, to slowly reaching my book goal.

(MAKE SURE YOU TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF, READER, OR ELSE I WOULD MAKE YOUR ICED COFFEE MELTS FASTER OR YOUR HOT DRINKS BECOME COLD FAST. Maybe worse, it spills) 💕

Devin Kelly, Ordinary Plots substack

30.03.2023 Spend some time in the uni's library before afternoon class. 🤭 Did a bit of academic reading and leisure read, those two are different type of activities, okay? One gave me hard time and one made me relaxed.

Also the song genre I am into now is Japanese city pop, made me feel nostalgic for someone who wasn't even born in the late 70s or 80s. Current fav is Flyday Chinatown by Yasuha ❤️

“ᴡʜʏ ᴄᴀᴛs ᴘᴀɪɴᴛ: ᴀ ᴛʜᴇᴏʀʏ ᴏғ ғᴇʟɪɴᴇ ᴀᴇsᴛʜᴇᴛɪᴄs”, 1994. x

Crying

when georges bataille wrote, “no greater desire exists than a wounded person’s need for another wound” & when gillian flynn wrote, “a child weaned on poison considers harm a comfort” & when ocean vuong wrote, “sometimes being offered tenderness feels like the very proof that you’ve been ruined” & when lisa m. basile wrote, “did you inherit a sickness? did you blame god? do you believe in god? do you believe in yourself? are you still on fire? did you ever put out the fire?” & when stephen a. guirgis wrote, “why didn't you make me good enough so that you could’ve loved me?”

Crying

- A Psalm for the Wild-Built, Becky Chambers // kagonekoshiro

No :c

this is going to be difficult -> i am capable of doing difficult things -> i have done everything prior to this moment -> this difficulty will soon be proof of capability