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When I feel some kind of negative emotion, I like to occupy my mind with toxic psychological stories that I have already read before. For example, something like Non Zero Sum Game, Killing Stalking, and Unchanged Man.

The reason is that when I read these stories, when I see the disgusting things that happened to the MC and despite that feel nothing, because the initial shock and disgust are already gone and now tge disgust is bearable, I have the feeling that I regain my power and no matter what is happening in the real life, I am still strong enough to stand it and go through it alive. That's why I love dark psychological stories with romance in it.

The last Alien Stage video and the ignoring of Ivan's Adoption Day made me so angry, disappointed and sad that now I will occupy my mind with Non Zero Sum Game to feel better.

And it is already happening because look at these cool TikTok edits I found of them 😎

Haa, life is good when you are feeling happy.

I am so angry, frustrated and disappointed.

Today, 14th February, was Ivan's Adoption Day but almost nobody pay attention to this fact because everyone was too busy analyzing the Wiege-video.

Why the hell Alnst-team decided to realize this video TODAY of all days??? Why? Couldn't they post it the last Friday, the next Friday or more better - in January?! Couldn't they just do this instead of realizing this cursed video on Ivan's Adoption Day??

Hpm..the answer is simple. THEY COULD DO IT! ...BUT CONSCIOUSLY DECIDED TO NOT.

Why? Probably so that the pain from the events in this video as well as the pain from the sad official art they posted about Ivan's Adoption Day, would successfully matches the depressing and tragic team of the whole series [ after all, in this world, there is not such thing as happiness for the humans, right ] ...

Yes, it matched it perfectly 👌

But guess what - with this act, they literally made fun of Ivan, his honor, his Adoption's Day, his character, his everything!

Instead of posting content only related and focused on Ivan or not posting anything but just a single birthday-picture of him like they did with Mizi, Hyuna, Sua and Luka's birthday, they decided to realize the long awaited Wiege-video, knowing fully well that the fandom will burst in sadness and analytical hell literally in the first second after watching it, completely forgetting about anything else, including Ivan's Adoption...

How can I not be frustrated and disappointed from this fact?? HOW?!?

My favorite character, who literally sacrifice himself, so that his only savior, his god, his one and only love [ Till ] would continue live....The emotionally detached boy who tried desperately all his life to understand others and their emotions, so that he can fit in with them...The sad little boy who died, knowing that he had never felt or been loved by anyone [ including Till ]....The lonely boy who had never been understood by anyone around him... The boy who had never ever had even a birthday party because he DIDN'T KNOW THE EXACT DAY WHEN HE WAS BORN...

HE, of all people, was ignored, and because of that, also mocked on his only special kind of day in his whole life - his adoption's day!

Damn it, characters like Sangwoo and Haeyoung, for example, who do much worse things than what Ivan did in r6, receive a normal kind of special birthday treatment from their fanbase!

... So, how exactly can I not be angry, frustrated, and disappointed by the Alnst-team?? Like the pain from the story already wasn't enough? Or the pain from r6 and Ivan's unrequited love for Till? Or the pain from r7, when we found out that Till also died only a few hours after Ivan, without having time to proceed and realized WHY Ivan did what he did in r6 and also making Ivan's sacrifice completely meaningless??

Thank you, Alnst-team. You successfully made sure that the whole Alnst-fandom won't be interested in Ivan on his only kind of special day..🙂

There is no other explanation. I have a curse....because why else every single time when I dare to call some story ,,my favorite", it always ends up that she disappoints me. I mean, EVERY. SINGLE. TIME.

I loved Tokyo Ghoul - it disappointed me.

I loved Attack on Titan - the ending was beyond simple disappointment.

I loved Chainsaw man - my favorite character [ Aki ] died and now, in the second part I have no idea what the hell is happening and why?!

I loved Jinx but the way Jaekyung and his people treated Kim Dan in that spray saga, deeply disappointed me to the point where I almost dropped this series completely.

These past few months, I enjoyed a lot Alien Stage but, yet again, my favorite character died and now the plot is going in a direction I don't like.

That's why I am sure - I definitely have a curse.

Happy adoption's day to my sweet boy who will always live in my heart. I love you ❤️

If only he was able to tell everything.....

lt's so easy to forget that behind every bad person

stand a child who wasn't understood

on time....

Baby Yoseob is so cute ❤️

Am I the only one who sees the similarity ( only in their appearance ) 😳

No wonder that after Non Zero Sum, I had the desire to reread BJ Alex! 🤯

I had a moment of inspiration today and ended up creating this:

1. Oh! I think someone fell in love

2. but he never found a way to express it properly 😔

Non Zero Sum Game - 59 ch.

1. Go Taegyum likes Haewon. I mean, truly and sincerely....but this mf is in complete denial of it...Even if he hits his head in a sign where literally is written: "Go Taegyum, you like Yoon Haewon", he won't believe it. And the reason for this is simple: Go Taegyum's big ego, which refuses to accept the fact that he fell in love with the person he pityfied whole his life....It's literally that simple. And this is why I think Taegyum's actions in 58 ch. weren't a product just of his guilt [ about the fact that he was the reason which caused Haewon to went through this hell ] but also because he genuinely felt the need to help Haewon because he couldn't stand to see for first hand how Haewon's condition become worse and worse with every new day...

2. Haeyoung is scaring me. When I look at his face, I have the feeling that I am staring at the materialized version of literal madness. And this makes me feel very uncomfortable... This person is literally uncapable of feeling or at least understands what empathy is. That's why he is dangerous to outhers, especially Haewon, who Haeyoung views as his own possession, which nobody else [ Go Taegyum, Haewoon or anybody else ] should ever touch. He sees Haewon as an object, not a living being but just some soulless toy, which is only his own. That's so sad.

Compared to him, Go Taegyum, at least, still realize that Haewon has a soul and feelings, even if it is not in the normal way, we all wanna see. That's the major difference between Taegyum and others two, by the way. But, again, this doesn't justify his actions in the first season at all!!

3. I am scared of what will happen to Haewon in the next chapter. He will go through hell, again, by the hands of the very person with whom he is mend to end up at the end of this story..

Non Zero Sum Game - 58 ch.

I don't know what to think about Taegyum. One part of me starts to hate him for the way he treats Haewon, for the fact that he left Haewon alone with that bastard Hyunwoo in 56 ch. and of course for the fact that he started the whole torture....The other part, though, thinks that Taegyum actually likes Haewon in real romantic way but for some unknown [ at least for me ] reason he 1. is completely unaware of this fact and 2. has no idea what a normal relationship looks like... That's why he is so pissed off with Haewon every single time when Yoon rejects him, like, for example, in that scene in the restaurant in 58 ch.. For me, this unawareness of Taegyum is the only explanation for his strange behavior and outbursts of anger every time when Haewon silently  rejects  Taegyum's attempts to show some really vague sign of affection towards him.

But maybe all of this is just my own delusion with which I am trying to justify Taegyum's unforgivable actions towards Haewon.. Because there is also a third part inside of me who thinks that if Taegyum really has been feeling deep down in his heart some vague and a little broken kind of sincer romantic affection towards Haewon,  he won't want to share him with the other two bastards.  Though it's possible at that time in the villa, Taegyum  not to be aware at all about this desires which he has towards Haewon....but maybe I am wrong....I don't know...

This story is so complicated and so messed up that it's almost impossible for only manhwa readers to understand her real meaning...Unfortunately,  the original Korean novel is not translated in English yet....which is sad because I really wanna know what the heck is going on in these three fuckers' heads 😤

The only thing that makes me keep reading it is Haewon....I admire him so much because he is so strong. Yes, all the stuffs through which he goes are disgusting, traumatizing and unforgivable but the fact that even though these brutal events seriously messed up him physically and emotionally, he still finds will to fight and continue living his life...If I were in his position, hah babe, I would've been taken my life a looong time ago...

I both hate and like Taegyum because he's the only one of the three who still has some sanity left in him. That doesn't mean that I justify his actions or that I forgave him. No!! He is still a grapist who deserves to be in jail for all the trauma he caused to Haewon.

Haeyoung and Haewoo, on the other hand, are really crazy. These two lost any connections with the reality. Both of them deserve to be locked in madhouse!

This story truly is amazing! With every new chapter, she just becomes better and better😤🫠💘

I couldn't believe my eyes when I saw this. It felt like I was reading a Disney movie instead of Koogi's story

I've just finished reading the first few chapters from the new Koogi's work, and...oh my Universe, I wasn't prepared for that at all. In the beginning, I had the feeling that I was reading a normal slice of life drama story, but this is definitely a horror horror type of story and not a psychological horror story like Killing Stalking. I was soo scared at some parts... The dad didn't get on my nerves, though. I found his reactions and actions for logical. Yeah, sometimes it felt a little illogical, but after all, this is a horror story, so elements like these are required, right? I want to know more about dad's relationship with Sammy's mother? Btw, Sammy is so cute [ except of her hairstyle 🤣 ].

The plot seems interesting. It reminds me of Deadman Wonderland story and also of that webtoon called "One day, suddenly, Seoul is/ One day in Seoul" which I started reading but dropped because it was too gruesome for my level of horror tolerance... I have the feeling that these zombie looking creatures are some kind of experiment in which the scientists are using normal people like test subjects similar to the situation in the Deadman Wonderland....but we will found out the truth later...

Overall, I am not sure if I will be able to continue this story. Maybe I will dropped it in the end because it's a little too terrifying for my tastes....Idk

Killing Stalking - Spoilers

The saddest part about Killing Stalking is that until and even after the end of the story, nobody were able to understand exactly through what kind of pain and torture the both main characters [ Bum and Sangwoo] went when they were kids. Nobody from Killing Stalking universe was able to understand what type of torture Bum endured as a child [ except from Sangwoo who unfortunately was too damaged himself to be able to help Bum even just a little ]. Nobody from the Killing Stalking universe was able to found out that Sangwoo actually didn't kill his own parents and that he was also a victim [ which, of course, doesn't justify him in any way because a lot of people go through even worse kind of situations as childrens and still develop a kind type of personality, but is something important which we don't have to forget ].

If they were able to talk with someone about all of this, if someone was there to help them when they were too little and scared to do it themselves, if Sangwoo's parents didn't become a couple in the fisrt place when they weren't ready for it, if Sangwoo's mother just didn't become a mother at all, if Bum's parents were alive, if his uncle wasn't in his life at all, if just the world and society they lived in were kinder and more understandable,...then damn it, everything would be different. They both wouldn't end up the way they did....

I think the exact same thing can be said about the modern society we live in. Just think about how many times you, yourself, or someone else you know or just heard about became a victim of injustice, abuse, betray, bullying, and so on....

Until when the world we are part of will be like this? Until when the human society will work in this not beneficial for any individual way??

Sometimes, when the dark side gets the best of me, I feel like Sangwoo from this specific scene while I am talking about my favorite dark romance [ but not only ] stories 😳

If you happen to see me like this, I swear, it's unintentionally 🥹

Someone: How you found out Haunted Addeline? Me: Oh, I just watched a random TikTok video.

~

Someone: How you found out about Non Zero Sum? Me: Oh, I just watched a random TikTok video.

That random TikTok video.

P.S. that day changed my life forever 🥹

When you are feeling powerless, watch Sangwoo and imagine that one by one, he destroys all of your problems 🙂‍↕️

Another example of a man who wants to be the Top but ends up like a Bottom 🤣

If we could understand what the person in front of us went through....If we were able to find out what made him the person he is now....than everything would be different....than every word, action and behavior of the other person would make sense....if only..... 😔

To be an overthinker sometimes sucks, yknow.... Right now, my head hurts from so much overwhelming details analysis of something which is actually very simple, damn it 🤦‍♀️

I am not feeling it tonight, baby 😬

Wildly 💀

Koogi, the queen of horror, is back with a new story! ....OMG, I am not sure if I can stand it 😭

The normal romantic stories with healthy relationship dynamics are so boring.

Like, come on, the number of people in real life who actually are happy in their relationship with somebody ( man or woman, it doesn't matter ) is waay smaller than the number of people who aren't, so... Let's just stop pretending that these types of healthy romantic stories are realistic, okay?

I am a simple woman. When I am happy, I prefer to read dark psychological bl [ but not only ] stories with elements of abuse [ verbal, mental, physical, or all ] in them and dark romance stories [ basically the soft and romanticized version of a true psychological or/and horror story ]. And when I am sad, I like to read cute, full of kindness, compassion, understanding, and true love [ mostly romantic but not only ] stories from any genre. Did you see? I am a very simple woman......🥲

This picture ⬇️

and this song

will forever be connected in my mind. 🩶