Mmjina - Alas, Sorrow

arin ＊*•✩•*˚ the fifth season (ssfwl) stages

hi guys !! i’m ume (21+, pst!) and this is another one of kwak jidam’s unfortunate children !!! ( i’m kidding but rly not their whole family is a lit revolt and we LOVE it ) aka kwak jina, she’s the second to last child! there’s more info under the cut as well as plots but pls like and i’ll definitely jump into your dms for some quick one on one 🤪🤪🤪

again, kwak jina : mambo numba 5 kwak 5 canon for ref!

another one of kwak jidam’s kids ( probably among the ones who resent her the most)

don’t get her wrong she Loves her family ( but they can overwhelm her )

safe to say that her childhood wasn’t Great bc of her mom is an understatement

she lost a LOT of friends bc of her mom aka a lot of kids’ parents would tell their kids to not play with her which led to a lot of sad conversations of “sorry jina, we can’t play anymore bc my mom said your mom is a bad person” and as a kid you just think bad person = Evil aka jina slowly becoming to resent her mom more and more bc of her ‘Evil’ ways

she kind of has it twisted in her head that her mom is selfish and greedy but she also doesn’t quite Get her mother or her reasoning behind doing what she does ( nor does she really care at this point )

she never really grows out of that same resentment but it’s more like she just ignores her mom and goes out of her way to Disassociate herself from anything that has to do with kwak jidam

aka the reincarnation of kwak jina !!! aka straight O’s in all her exams ; definitely part of the top 5% of her class because what is kwak jina without her sparkling grade point average !! 

an over-achieving sob who’s a tad catty but y’know what if people are talking about her grades or the cute boy she’s dating or her pretty smile the less they’re talking about her Ruined family

her attitude isn’t all that great tbh she’s a bit blunt and not at all Grade A Friendly when it comes to first encounters but first impressions are always blown away by her smile !!!

but when a bish opens her mouth it’s like Lmfao, who you ???

she’s really self-conscious and it shows a good 66% of the time, she’s always making sure she’s not catching herself slipping bc girl always has to be Pretty, Perfect, Poised !! 

aka her trying her hardest to Not be like her mom

( but lbr she’s probably more like her mom than she realizes but like Hell will she ever admit or see to that reasoning )

personally she’s 0 to 100 on the hostility scale if you say her name and her mom’s name in the same sentence

she wishes she was the hbic but she’s so much of a try hard that she’s just a Bitch

but like an ogre, jina has layers and at her core i promise she’s as sweet as cotton candy

but lbr she probably reserves that spot for her siblings and like 2.5 others

HC: like the rest of her siblings she’s got divination down to a Pat but girlie hates her mom so she Purposely failed divination class once ( bc thats all her pride would allow her ) as a sign of protest

also some yosul info:

fourth year , cheong ryeong , kwak family legacy ( ew lmfao )

electives: dada, wizarding literature, care of magical creatures

PLOTS

old childhood friends who’ve since became estranged because of familial influence aka among the throng who slapped a “i’m sorry jina, my parents said your mom is icky so i can’t play with you anymore” and yeeted outta there

thick as thieves friends ( bc we all know jina doesn’t have a lot of them ) but pls give this Gross girl a friend who’ll stay w her through thick and thin she’s sick of ppl leaving her

ppl she can actually break down in front of bc she feels stress keeping up w everyone’s expectations of who she is and how her family is and she’s kind of SIck of pretending to be this Perfect Person but she keeps it up bc it’s better than hearing the nasty things about her

self-preservation at its finest

so someone who just breaks it down to her that she doesn’t need to be this person ( while she won’t listen,, u know Effort Counts )

exes? girl has trust issues that’s for sure and that has definitely leaked into her love life making most if not all her rls not work out bc she fears they’re going to leave her or find something about her that they suddenly don’t like so she’s really out here beating them to the punch

ok but an ex who she was so reluctant to break up with but she Did it anyways because she’s hard to please but she’s lowkey still in love with them but she’s too Stubborn to fuckin!! admit!! she !! was !! wrong !!

ok but pls give me someone jina punched bc she was angry and she misplaced her anger onto you by accident !1!! has she apologize d ??? oof we dunno 👀

ok but also someone who fucks around w jina bc they know this complex of hers and just has fun with playing w her heart ( yes Destroy Her !!! )

fwb !! cute fluffy rls ( for the 2.5 ppl who were able to peel her layers ) !! 

people she tutors bc jina w that sparkling gpa doesn’t mind doing God’s work and helping the unfortunate 

omg pls give me pureblood family turmoil aka if your pureblood family hates jina’s mom lMFAO RIP INTO JINA even tho jina would be like dude you don’t like my mom? Lmfao Same! but that would be funny

an extension to the last bullet = ppl who view jina as an extension of her mom and her reputation ( jina would grow to hate you but lbr we think you deserve it a little if you do this )

if you’re on the varisty quidditch team ,,, you’ve probably seen her with her brother junsu checking out the Talent 👀aka You, you’re the talent

insert: you said something and jina just RiPPED into you and to this day you’re like wtf? u crazy fsadjkasda*sfhdsjf

HER FAMILY PLS COME !!11! CONTROL JINA !!1! bitch needs to chill but she can’t find her fucks

tbh we’re down for anything and everything !!1! we’re just Hyped to be here !!!

shit this got long im Sorry fam

u alrdy kno we need all of the txts sis 💖

    ●   a morning text     ━━━   ・  

⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  06:43  ›   good morning 언니💕💕💕⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  06:43  ›   i hope you get some sleep⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  06:40  ›   i’m sorry me and junsu kept you up all night⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  06:55  ›   i made sure to leave you some food on the table to eat and some advil just in case⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  07:00  ›   have a good day 언니💕

    ●   a angry text     ━━━   ・  

⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  18:23  ›   @mmjunsu​ IS SUCH A FUCKING IDIOT 언니 🤬😡😤😠⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  18:23  ›   he just came and fucking blamed me for his pink uniform⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  18:23  ›   i’d never rat you out unnie so you’re safe⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  18:23  ›   BUT WHAT THE FUCK JUNSU IS SUCH AN ASSHOLE⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  18:23  ›  🤬🤬🤬⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  18:23  ›   he’s such a little bitch ⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  18:23  ›   I HATE HIM

    ●   a drunk text     ━━━   ・  

⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  00:01  ›   언니 언니 언니 언니 언니 언니⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  00:01  ›   itsj soooooooooooooooooooh muc h fun !!! drikknling⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  00:01  ›   I FEEEEEEEL SO FREKJIKY⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  00:01  ›   fuckk kwak ji daazm⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  00:01  ›   fuckk @mmjihye​⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  00:01  ›   1000000% fuckkkkfa em bijches⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  00:01  ›   ps dnon t blame @mmchoa​

   ●   a vague text     ━━━   ・  

⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  00:00  ›   why does nothing ever go right

    ●   a worried text     ━━━   ・

⁺  📞  ›  ( 28 ) OUTGOING CALL   ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  VOICEMAIL.

                                           ・    ・    ・

⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  05:05  ›   i know you’re working on a very important case but you didn’t come home last night⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  05:06  ›   PLEASE CALL ME 언니⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  05:06  ›   언니, please don’t be dead in a ditch somewhere, come home

    ●   a text not meant for you     ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  22:00  ›   @mmdaeil​ is such a loser⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  22:01  ›    I’M GOING TO MAKE HIM PAY FOR BREAKING UP WITH 언니⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  22:05  ›   how?⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  22:06  ›   well obviously i’m going to mass text his phone with death threats until he a ) leaves the country b ) changes his number c ) dies d ) makes a public apology because how dare he break up with THE kwak jungmi

    ●   a sassy text     ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  03:02  ›   언니, it’s 3 in the morning⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  03:03  ›   i know you don’t sleep at night⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  03:02  ›   but some of us need sleep to function as proper humans in this lifetime

    ●   a long-winded confession text    ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  00:49  ›   ever since jihye 언니​ left i always had a feeling you’d leave me too and i wouldn’t blame you⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  00:51  ›   i know it’s so hard to deal with me i fucking know⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  00:53  ›   you put up with so much and me and junsu don’t make it easier⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  00:54  ›   so thank you so much, 언니, for still being here⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  00:55  ›   i love you so much and i really don’t know what i’d do if you were to ever leave⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  00:55  ›   everything seems to fall apart when i do things but you always make it all better you do so much and all i do is create messes for you to clean up⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  00:57  ›   can you come to my room i don’t want to sleep alone tonight⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  00:59  ›   i can’t stop crying 언니 they won’t stop⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  00:59  ›   you’re my favorite person in the whole world 언니

    ●   a misguided advice text     ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  13:08  ›   i say kick him in the balls, not like he’ll be needing them in the future

    ●   a  desperate text     ━━━   ・

⁺  📞  ›  ( 10 ) OUTGOING CALL   ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  VOICEMAIL.

                                          ・    ・    ・

⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  09:59  ›   언니 !!! 언니 !!! 언니 !!!!!⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  10:00  ›   please tell me you’re still home⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  10:03  ›   help me, everyone said they weren’t going to vote for me for class rep⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  10:05  ›   i can’t lose this too 언니

    ●   a congratulatory text     ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  21:59  ›   congratulations 언니  🥳⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  22:01  ›   i know it’s no witch weekly spread⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  03:02  ›   but a playboy exert is nothing to be ashamed of

    ●   a  text that should have never been sent   ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  00:01  ›   everyone hates me, you hate me a little, too 헐

BUDDING PARALLELS

similar but not quite the same, virtually so; but frankly, not enough. see also: jina and @mmyuanlan before the peace treaty, the glo-up, and insert the manic one on one competition between the two smartest girls in their cohort. CIRCA 2017

𝐀𝐓 𝐒𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐄𝐍, you want to be better than the rest. 

you read books until they’re practically imprinted in your mind. you close your eyes and your mind still runs a mile a minute, keep up, keep up -- they taunt you. you’re to be the best, not ahead of the curve, you are the curve. self-awareness is second to self-egos; pampered and bruised. tossed to wolves and torn apart all for the sake of an outstanding academic reputation. the next day, it will begin again.

it’s a repetitive cycle, the slate is never clean, it’s darkened with blood and sweat and tears jina never cries because her eyes are bloodshot and her smile is strained. but she raises her hand high, shoulder brush, maybe a little too passive-aggressively against another’s. she doesn’t spare the slightest glance backwards as her name is spoken like a spell, like it’s obvious that she would be the first to come up with the answer. 

like it’s expected, because she was kwak jina. 

this was her reputation. untainted by her mother’s crimes, unhindered by the legacies her sisters unravel: no -- kwak jina is unlike her sisters before her. she is not serious, she is not fun personified; she’s not a breath of fresh air nor does she excel at escapism. 

she’s haughty, possessive, temperamental and withers at the lack of attention. above all, she is an egoist. she wants to be the best, second in line had never been her frame of work nor would she bow down to someone like -- she blinks, smile ripe against bright teeth -- someone like yuanlan. the name rolls off her tongue as she stares at the list of students, written off by examination scores and paired like cattle for their latest DADA practicum. unlike last time, perhaps the advantage had been lost.

because right next to yuanlan’s was her own -- she bites back a groan, heavily feeling her eyes roll to the back of her head as she turns to stare the other down, arms crossed before she makes up her mind and makes the first move. “it appears,” she breathes through her nose, trying to calm the flares of annoyance already prickling at the back of her neck. “the professor thought it was wise to pair us up for today’s practicum.” her tone is flat, a declaration of if you fuck this up -- i’ll fuck you up whispered between unwritten lines. 

ALL THE TEXTS (づ｡◕‿‿◕｡)づ

     ●   a morning text     ━━━   ・  

⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  06:45  ›   WHY DIDN’T YOU WAKE ME UP FOR PDX ASSHOLE⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  06:45  ›   ISTG IF I FIND OUT DONGPYO GOT ELIMINATED AND YOU DIDN’T TELL ME YOUR HEAD IS MINE 곽준수

     ●   a angry text     ━━━   ・  

⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  17:00  ›   야 !!!!! WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED TO MY MONSTA X ALBUM YOU HEADASS !!!1!⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  17:02  ›   you better fucking run 곽준수 when i find you YOUR HANDS ARE CUT OFF⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  17:02  ›   istg junsu you’re such  똥 손  🙄⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  17:02  ›   ㅗㅗ !!! ㅗㅗ !!! ㅗㅗ !!!

     ●   a drunk text     ━━━   ・  

⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  00:02  ›   i love my hair⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  00:03  ›   it’s so fkcn shiny⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  00:05  ›   pls lsafove my hair 2 junkso

      a vague text    

⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  00:01  ›   please don’t hate me too

     ●   a worried text     ━━━   ・

⁺  📞  ›  ( 3 ) OUTGOING CALL   ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  VOICEMAIL.

                                            ・    ・    ・

⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  17:00  ›   if you don’t answer the phone right now istg junsu⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  17:05  ›   i’m not worried⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  17:06  ›   i just don’t want to be blamed for the dead body that comes up from the pond near our place

     ●   a text not meant for you     ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  00:01  ›   i’m so fuckin sore, i’m never letting you do that to me ever again⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  00:10  ›   ….⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  00:11  ›   junsu⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  00:15  ›   it’s your fault you texted me right at this moment

     ●   a sassy text     ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  15:27  ›   i’d agree with you if that wasn’t just the dumbest thing you ever said

     ●   a long-winded confession text    ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  24:10  ›   you know sometimes i still think about when we were kids and you said you wished @mmjiyi​ was your sister instead of me⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  24:10  ›   it’s so stupid because you were so young and probably didn’t mean it⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  24:11  ›   but it fucking hurt so much junsu⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  24:12  ›   she left because she didn’t give a SHIT about me, junsu why can’t you understand that ⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  24:12  ›   and the fact that you said that afterwards, it just made me think you don’t care about me either⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  24:13  ›   it’s not true, it’s not true, it’s not true⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  24:13  ›   i know it isn’t⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  24:13  ›   but what if it is⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  24:18  ›   everyone hates me and i want to change i want to change so fucking much but i can’t i can’t do it⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  24:19  ›   it’s too late everyone hates me and they’ll continue hating me⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  24:30  ›   you hate me too, right?⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  24:50  ›   i’m fucking crying in my room don’t fucking come in here⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  24:51  ›   i don’t want to see you right now ok.

                                             ・    ・    ・

⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  06:30  ›   forget all the texts i sent last night⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  06:31  ›   it was stupid

     ●   a misguided advice text     ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  18:28  ›   when in doubt, say it with me: fuck you too

     ●   a  desperate text     ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  19:59  ›   야 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  20:00  ›   where the fuck are you !!!!⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  20:05  ›   kwak ji dam is coming home and i’m the only one here⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  20:06  ›   I AM NOT GOING TO BE ALONE WITH HER⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  20:08  ›   YOU BETTER COME THE FUCK HOME RIGHT NOW IF YOU STILL WANT TO LIVE YOU JERK

     ●   a congratulatory text     ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  12:05  ›   waterboy?

     ●   a  text that should have never been sent    ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  💩손IDIOT.  ›  15:56  ›   fuck off junsu, you didn’t have the fucking right

All texts for your new papa 👊

   ●   a morning text     ━━━   ・  

⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  06:12  ›   오빠 i know its early but do you know where i can get jabberknoll feathers?

   ●   a angry text     ━━━   ・  

⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  18:45  ›   야 !!!!! 오빠 !!!!⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  18:46  ›   THE LEECHES YOU GAVE ME WON’T COME OFF⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  18:46  ›   they fucking look like hickies !!!⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  18:50  ›   HOW AM I GOING TO EXPLAIN THIS TO 언니 ?!

   ●   a drunk text     ━━━   ・  

⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  00:01  ›   오빠 you’we lik e my Dad⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  00:01  ›   i shfold call you 아빠⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  00:02  ›   아빠 !! 아빠 !! 아빠 !!

    a vague text    

⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  23:59  ›   are you going to leave me too?

   ●   a worried text     ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  20:00  ›   오빠 i don’t know who else to turn to⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  20:07  ›   if you’re gone i don’t have anyone else⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  20:10  ›   please tell me what i did wrong

   ●   a text not meant for you     ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  00:01  ›   do you ever get the feeling of disappearing?

   ●   a sassy text     ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  15:27  ›   for fuck’s sakes, it’s either gucci or nothing else

   ●   a long-winded confession text    ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  24:10  ›   thanks for being here 오빠

   ●   a misguided advice text     ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  14:49  ›   i don’t know? you should just punch them to shut them up

   ●   a  desperate text     ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  13:02  ›   오빠 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  13:03  ›   PLEASE ANSWER IT’S URGENT⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  13:05  ›   DO YOU KNOW WHERE I CAN BUY THE NEW MIU MIU F/W2020 LINE

   ●   a congratulatory text     ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  12:05  ›   congratulations on being the only person on earth with a brain, 오빠⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  12:06  ›   everyone else are a bunch of headasses 🙄

   ●   a  text that should have never been sent  ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  01:39  ›   can you be my new 아빠?

all the texts pls dear 🦋

TW subtle depressive thoughts / escapism

 ●   a morning text     ━━━   ・  

⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  00:12  ›   you better be awake by 5

                                             ・    ・    ・

⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  07:45  ›   did i say 5? i meant 8 🤭🤷‍♀️

 ●   a angry text     ━━━   ・  

⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  14:23  ›   what the fuck kai⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  14:25  ›   DON’T FUCKING TALK TO ME⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  14:26  ›   you better be ready to have my fist meet your FUCKING FACE

 ●   a drunk text     ━━━   ・  

⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  00:01  ›   kai … kai …. 야 …….⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  00:01  ›   i lovu ⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  00:04  ›   iM kidnafing⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  00:05  ›   i HATE yunr GUTS

 ●   a vague text    

⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  23:59  ›   i just want to be left alone

 ●   a worried text     ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  20:00  ›   i don’t know who else to turn to⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  20:07  ›   if you’re gone i don’t have anyone else⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  20:10  ›   kai ………… please let me know you’re okay⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  20:10  ›   please tell me what i did wrong

 ●   a text not meant for you     ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  00:03  ›   do you ever want to disappear?

 ●   a sassy text     ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  06:30  ›   morons like you are truly a one of a kind 🙄

 ●   a long-winded confession text    ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  24:10  ›   thanks for being a constant presence in my life

                                            ・    ・    ・

⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  00:02  ›   thanks for tonight, kaikai

                                           ・    ・    ・

⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  03:09  ›   i can’t sleep⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  03:10  ›   i can’t stop thinking, kaikai

                                          ・    ・    ・

⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  06:30  ›   forget what i said last night, i’m fine now

                                         ・    ・    ・

⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  23:11  ›   i know i don’t say it often, kaikai but i’m really thankful you’re still here and haven’t left⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  23:11  ›   so many people leave⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  23:13  ›   and i know why they do⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  23:14  ›   and i can’t blame them even i want to⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  23:18  ›   if i were them, i’d leave me too⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  23:20  ›   i’m just so tired⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  23:21  ›   sometimes i feel like it’s not worth it⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  23:21  ›   i pretend like i’m worth it⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  23:21  ›   but it’s just pretending, right?⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  23:21  ›   because i’m not worth it, ykno⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  23:25  ›   sometimes i’m ready to just go away and not come back like jihye⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  23:26  ›   because then maybe everyone will be at peace⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  23:30  ›   i wish jihye took me with her

                                        ・    ・    ・

⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  01:00  ›   would you tell me not to leave?

                                       ・    ・    ・

⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  05:45  ›   please delete those texts, kai, they’re embarrassing

 ●   a misguided advice text     ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  14:49  ›   if you’re into her, why don’t you keep your dick slack for once and tell her with words

 ●   a  desperate text     ━━━   ・

⁺  📞  ›  ( 16 ) OUTGOING CALL   ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›   VOICEMAIL.

                                      ・    ・    ・

⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  13:02  ›   S.O.S.

 ●   a congratulatory text     ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  14:18  ›   must be nice having one brain cell⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  14:19  ›   omg you have two? Amazing

 ●   a  text that should have never been sent ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  琳凯HEADASS💢.  ›  01:01  ›   are you going to leave me like jiyi did?

* things said meme

things you said over the phone

things you said with the tv on mute 

things you said when you were proud

things you said under your breath

things you said with sorrow between your fists

things you said when you were lost

things you said when our world began to crumble

things you said with too many days between us

things you didn’t say at all

things you said that i wasn’t meant to hear

things you said you’ll never forget

things you said with clammy hands 

things you said when fear cut deep

things you said while a fever stole your mind

things you said with rage between your teeth

things you were afraid to say

things you said when no one else was around

things you said when the sun was shining

things you said with blooming bruises and stinging cuts

things you said when we were safe

things you said without thinking

things you said that kept me grounded

things you said you loved about me

things you said you hated about me

things you said when you lied

things you said with scraped knees 

things you said with tears in your eyes

things you said while holding my hand 

things you said in the car

things you said under the stars

things you said at my grave

things you said at the kitchen table

things you said on the porch at 3 am

things you said in a gas station parking lot 

things you said in a hotel room

things you said in the waiting room

things you said while you stroked my hair

things you said that made me feel loved

things you said when i was crying

things you said while i cried in your arms 

things you said when you thought i was asleep

things you said in your sleep

things you said when you kissed me goodnight

things you said after a nightmare

things you said before death snatched you

things you said that i wish you hadn’t

things you said when it ended

things you said when you met my friends

things you said when we first met

things you said when they took me away

⁺  EYES ON ME LIKE I’M A 𝐏𝐑𝐈𝐙𝐄, BUT YOU BETTER    RECOGNIZE, I’M NOT YOUR 𝐀𝐍𝐆𝐄𝐋     ⧆