Mmjina - Alas, Sorrow
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You are lashing out because you’re too sensitive. Yes, I was narrow-minded for a short while. Get over it.
LMFAO like an idiot ,, i made a mistake ... jina is already 19 and she should be turning 20 this year bc ... Guess who forgot the rp is in 2020 ,,,, but anyways i’ve gotten to all my msgs and i’ll be sending out messages to those who’ve liked this post !!
hi guys !! i’m ume (21+, pst!) and this is another one of kwak jidam’s unfortunate children !!! ( i’m kidding but rly not their whole family is a lit revolt and we LOVE it ) aka kwak jina, she’s the second to last child and she’s turning 19 in lit 3 days so we going for Legal Turn ups in a quick sec! there’s more info under the cut as well as plots but pls like and i’ll definitely jump into your dms for some quick one on one 🤪🤪🤪
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* things said meme
things you said over the phone
things you said with the tv on mute
things you said when you were proud
things you said under your breath
things you said with sorrow between your fists
things you said when you were lost
things you said when our world began to crumble
things you said with too many days between us
things you didn’t say at all
things you said that i wasn’t meant to hear
things you said you’ll never forget
things you said with clammy hands
things you said when fear cut deep
things you said while a fever stole your mind
things you said with rage between your teeth
things you were afraid to say
things you said when no one else was around
things you said when the sun was shining
things you said with blooming bruises and stinging cuts
things you said when we were safe
things you said without thinking
things you said that kept me grounded
things you said you loved about me
things you said you hated about me
things you said when you lied
things you said with scraped knees
things you said with tears in your eyes
things you said while holding my hand
things you said in the car
things you said under the stars
things you said at my grave
things you said at the kitchen table
things you said on the porch at 3 am
things you said in a gas station parking lot
things you said in a hotel room
things you said in the waiting room
things you said while you stroked my hair
things you said that made me feel loved
things you said when i was crying
things you said while i cried in your arms
things you said when you thought i was asleep
things you said in your sleep
things you said when you kissed me goodnight
things you said after a nightmare
things you said before death snatched you
things you said that i wish you hadn’t
things you said when it ended
things you said when you met my friends
things you said when we first met
things you said when they took me away
REPERCUSSIONS
an unintended consequence occurring after an event, especially an unwelcome one. see also: jina and @mmjunsu amidst one of jina’s blind rages.
𝐒𝐇𝐄’𝐒 𝐒𝐄𝐄𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐆. jina’s all but slamming doors: dressed in devastation, anger and all the things in between that make her see red; that cause shadows to carve out streaks into her cheek from the tears she had hastily brushed away. vulnerability was a skin she wore well, but hostility fit her like a glove.
wood braces against wood as she crosses each and every threshold they owned, with no sign of the person she was searching high and low for. whether he was hiding very well or he truly wasn’t here. it was like a game of hide and seek, pursuing the hidden in the depths of their condo was frustrating and the longer it took to find junsu, the angrier she grew.
jina was furious, and self-righteously so.
if her temperament could be akin to temperature, she was sure she’d be boiling over -- red in the face, steam comically filtered from her ears. but no, this wasn’t some comical fantasy land with happy endings and shallow life stories. no, this was real life and surely, at this moment, jina could only see the negatives in it.
starting with the fact that junsu -- oh, junsu -- had committed one of the most heinous crimes against her.
a crime he would pay for right now: the scene opens up, a door unlocked and fingers curling around the knob. her frame, while small in comparison, towers threatening in the doorway as she stares at him head-on. a glower, of the sorts, marked onto his profile; bared teeth and all, jina was pissed.
and if looks could kill, junsu would quite permanently be dead right now.
text me up real good pls n thx 😘
● a morning text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 06:10 › do you think you’ll need plastic surgery for last night?⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 06:13 › you know if your face wasn’t so close to my hand, it wouldn’t have hurt.⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 06:15 › i’m not apologizing, i’m just acknowledging i was wrong.
● a angry text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 16:43 › i’m not mad⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 16:45 › you’re just getting on my last nerve with all this pro-kwak ji dam bullshit
● a drunk text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 23:59 › 언니 …….⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 00:01 › arne’t yon scared of turniNg into kwak ji dam?
● a vague text
⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 23:59 › you make me sick
● a worried text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 20:00 › hey?⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 20:10 › no one has heard from you⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 20:11 › please, at least call jungmi 언니 or junsu !⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 20:13 › i don’t know what you’re so sad about we all know kwak ji dam is like this⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 20:14 › i get you love her but she’s an asshole⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 20:16 › where are you?⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 20:17 › we’re all worried, 언니
● a text not meant for you ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 21:03 › you should have heard the sound it made when i slapped her face! it literally stopped the whole party⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 21:04 › why would i regret it? it was absolutely AMAZING⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 21:06 › you should have seen the look on her face⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 21:07 › it was priceless⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 21:10 › …
・ ・ ・
⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 21:22 › … i’m still not apologizing.
● a sassy text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 17:48 › wow, thanks kwak ji dam 2.0, you say that as if i didn’t already know that!
● a long-winded confession text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 05:57 › you know when i was little i used to think that you were purposely trying to steal all of kwak ji dam’s attention and it wasn’t fair at all⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 05:57 › i hated you a lot for it⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 05:57 › i still think that but i don’t hate you⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 05:57 › well, not as much, anyways⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 05:57 › you’re still annoying af trying to be like her, you know that right?⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 05:57 › i love you but if you keep acting like this ….
・ ・ ・
⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 05:57 › are you really going to side with her for the rest of your life?
● a misguided advice text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 10:48 › why don’t you just crawl inside her ass? you’re already halfway in there!
● a desperate text ━━━ ・
⁺ 📞 › ( 15 ) OUTGOING CALL › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › VOICEMAIL.
・ ・ ・
⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 23:35 › PLEASE ANSWER THE PHONE JIEUN 언니⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 23:36 › i know we don’t see eye to eye but … you really scared me, 언니
● a congratulatory text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 22:09 › congrats, you’re one step closer to being kwak ji dam’s bitch
● a text that should have never been sent ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 곽지담 🍑키스 🚫. › 14:18 › what do you want? a reward for being kwak ji dam’s Perfect daughter?
some Angsty texts pls... n maybe a 2009 one :^)
● a angry text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 🚫JIYI쓰레기🚫. › 21:59 › YOU KNOW WHAT FUCK YOU WON JIYI⁺ 💬 › 🚫JIYI쓰레기🚫. › 22:00 › ALL YOU DO IS FUCKING TAKE AND NEVER LEAVE ANYTHING FOR THE REST OF US⁺ 💬 › 🚫JIYI쓰레기🚫. › 22:02 › i hope you choke on your princess reputation⁺ 💬 › 🚫JIYI쓰레기🚫. › 22:03 › it’s as fake as you, barbie doll
● a drunk text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 🚫JIYI쓰레기🚫. › 00:52 › do yon ever tnkink abou t huw we wer bxsts frienaas⁺ 💬 › 🚫JIYI쓰레기🚫. › 00:54 › i fucsnking dont you ‘ er a waste of time and Spaxce⁺ 💬 › 🚫JIYI쓰레기🚫. › 00:55 › 존못
a vague text
⁺ 💬 › 🚫JIYI쓰레기🚫. › 23:59 › did you even give a shit about me?
● a text not meant for you ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 🚫JIYI쓰레기🚫. › 00:01 › you mean so much to me⁺ 💬 › 🚫JIYI쓰레기🚫. › 00:01 › i love you
● a sassy text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 🚫JIYI쓰레기🚫. › 15:27 › wow can you be any more plastic?⁺ 💬 › 🚫JIYI쓰레기🚫. › 15:29 › mother nature just called, she wants you to know you’re fucking up the environment
● a long-winded confession text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 🚫JIYI쓰레기🚫. › 00:10 › how the fuck can you walk around like you didn’t just fucking throw me away like trash⁺ 💬 › 🚫JIYI쓰레기🚫. › 00:10 › i hate your fucking guts⁺ 💬 › 🚫JIYI쓰레기🚫. › 00:10 › it’s not fucking fair that you thought our friendship was expendable but everyone else was somehow above me?⁺ 💬 › 🚫JIYI쓰레기🚫. › 00:10 › the first person i thought was my best friend and she fucking does that shit⁺ 💬 › 🚫JIYI쓰레기🚫. › 00:10 › really fucks with a nine year old’s mind⁺ 💬 › 🚫JIYI쓰레기🚫. › 00:10 › that’s just who you are tho, right?⁺ 💬 › 🚫JIYI쓰레기🚫. › 00:10 › you fucking use people jiyi⁺ 💬 › 🚫JIYI쓰레기🚫. › 00:10 › you think i’m a fucking manipulative bitch?⁺ 💬 › 🚫JIYI쓰레기🚫. › 00:10 › well look in the fucking mirror princess, you’re not as shiny as you think
● a misguided advice text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 🚫JIYI쓰레기🚫. › 19:12 › why don’t you just go obliviate yourself?
● a desperate text ━━━ ・ CIRCA. 2009
⁺ 💬 › 💕💕지이. › 12:13 › hey jiyi, 어머니 said you can come over today!⁺ 💬 › 💕💕지이. › 12:15 › what time do you want to come over?⁺ 💬 › 💕💕지이. › 12:50 › jiyi?⁺ 💬 › 💕💕지이. › 13:01 › hellooooo ~ jiyi ~⁺ 💬 › 💕💕지이. › 13:30 › jiyi?
・ ・ ・
⁺ 💬 › 💕💕지이. › 16:01 › jiyi?
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⁺ 💬 › 💕💕지이. › 15:35 › jiyi please tell me what i did wrong⁺ 💬 › 💕💕지이. › 15:36 › i don’t understand⁺ 💬 › 💕💕지이. › 15:40 › please tell me so i can fix it⁺ 💬 › 💕💕지이. › 15:41 › we can still be friends please tell me what i can do⁺ 💬 › 💕💕지이. › 15:43 › i thought we were best friends!⁺ 💬 › 💕💕지이. › 15:45 › is my mom really that bad of a person?⁺ 💬 › 💕💕지이. › 15:46 › please talk to me⁺ 💬 › 💕💕지이. › 15:48 › you’re my best friend⁺ 💬 › 💕💕지이. › 15:53 › do you not care about me?⁺ 💬 › 💕💕지이. › 15:54 › is there something wrong with me?
・ ・ ・
⁺ 💬 › 💕💕지이. › 18:58 › do you not like me anymore?
● a congratulatory text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 🚫JIYI쓰레기🚫. › 02:15 › congratu-fucking-lations on being the shittiest person with no opinion whatsoever 10 years later
● a text that should have never been sent ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 🚫JIYI쓰레기🚫. › 23:04 › can’t you ever think for yourself, jiyi?
arin ＊*•✩•*˚ the fifth season (ssfwl) stages
⁺ EYES ON ME LIKE I’M A 𝐏𝐑𝐈𝐙𝐄, BUT YOU BETTER RECOGNIZE, I’M NOT YOUR 𝐀𝐍𝐆𝐄𝐋 ⧆
𝐒𝐇𝐄’𝐒 𝐑𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐋𝐄𝐒𝐒 𝐍𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓𝐒 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐕𝐘 𝐁𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐇𝐒. seoul nights grow hotter despite the chill of the running air conditioner and jina awakes with a fever start. it’s a gasp, a startle, star-dusted eyes and a mumbled curse that detaches her from the realm of sleep. her dreams fizzle to an end and her memory grows hazy. what had just happened never comes to and she finds herself disoriented as the darkness of the room fills her vision. seoul skylines do nothing to faze her, lights strung behind closed windows as jina looks around her room like she’s on display. feigned surprise at the stillness, the emptiness that decorated walls and pale pinks hold stare back at her and jina feels it deepen her reality. distracted eyes glance at looming red and the time fucks with her because she has an eight o’clock divination lecture tomorrow that she’s not looking forward to, at all, and she’s headed straight for raccoon eyes the size of mars. she’s parched, not looking forward to tomorrow and there’s a dull ache somewhere in her body that she wishes not to place. a sigh falls and she’s staring at the ceiling.
it’s bothersome, the itch in her throat grows; the ache in her body dulls and she mulls over her options before swinging dainty feet off her bed; silk following suit as she replaces sheets with the fluff of her dolce slippers. they take her away, of a hallway of closed doors and dim lights. of silence and buzzing static at a different side of the home. her destination: kitchen -- where the stars actually take her: jungmi. the other’s words are warmth personified, made to wrap her in the lushest fabrics, of a love she longs for but never fully attains. but it’s enough -- it has to be because wanting for nothing never amounts for any good: jina would know. she knows this too well. she doesn’t say much, and jina never needs to -- not with jungmi. because jungmi has good sense, she has jina’s best intentions at heart -- for jina, jungmi is her salvation and without her, she is lost. for jina, she can let all the walls and tiresome dilemmas crash to her feet and the burden of teenage adolescent angst surface. what she toils, she effortlessly drops for jungmi to pick up the pieces because for jina, jungmi was always there to fix her when everything was lost.
when there was no one left to put her back together again.
so she hugs her tight, when knees sink into scattered papers and her footsteps leave blind prints; falling into an embrace as she digs her head into the other’s neck and feels the tears turn in her eyes. “jihye’s back,” she whispers against flawless skin, like an omen breathed to life. she feels the words take her back to stricken voices, a slap against skin and heated tears on her cheeks; she feels them and bites back a sharp breath.
to a glance it’s utter chaos, the sprawl of books and technology, from folders, to notebooks, her recorder and work laptop. but there’s a precise measure to this chaos ( she had began at her desk across the room and slowly but surely, ran out of room ) then again, if you’re a kwak currently living within the posh kwak condo jidam shelled out for, the sight of jungmi dispersed across any surface of the apartment she feels like ( often being a broad portion of ground in any given room ) isn’t abnormal. surrounded by her proliferation of work materials, with her reading glasses that seem to come with an extra feature, as she had never put them on before without her face immediately scrunching into a serious frown. as if they were equipped with a spell to turn jungmi’s expression sour with focus. a pencil on hand for scribbling ( not a pen; she had learned that lesson, when her idly habit of chewing on the ends while thinking too hard, had burst one before ) and a tape recorder shoved into the small pocket in the front breast pocket of her t-shirt. there’s a manic kind of calm about her, a humming bird at rest, bursts of movement in between the serenity and soft hum of concentration.
whatever sound it is that originates from the door, she doesn’t even glance up. from her near yoga-like post, bent over at the waist as she scribbles down a messy scribble of heterogeneous thoughts, something to refine later, before it can escape her tired mind. “hmm?” she hums by way of a greeting, more of a question of why someone has come for her in the first place after she had shrieked across the house like a warning bell that she was going to start working hours earlier. she doesn’t even know which sibling it is, her gaze pinpointed intently at the hangul she scratches across the page in a mess, “unnie is working on something, sorry, gimme a sec,” she explains lightly as she finishes up her sentences and stretches, unwinds her spine out, throwing the pencil as she turns towards the door with an expectant ( admittedly soft, but drained and tight ) expression, “did you come to bug me?” she teases, twice as hard when it’s @mmjina she spots and everything sisterly and warm from within her sparks like a low light ( it had only gotten stronger since the disappearance and reappearance of jihye, her appreciation for jina doubling, and then strangely, tripling ) (( at least jina wouldn’t leave her )) her eyes crinkling at the corners with a smile ( no teeth because she’s just a little too exhausted, not just the time of night but the subject matter of her assignment exacting its due ) and she manages a scrunch of her nose.
ALL THE TEXTS (づ｡◕‿‿◕｡)づ
● a morning text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 06:45 › WHY DIDN’T YOU WAKE ME UP FOR PDX ASSHOLE⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 06:45 › ISTG IF I FIND OUT DONGPYO GOT ELIMINATED AND YOU DIDN’T TELL ME YOUR HEAD IS MINE 곽준수
● a angry text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 17:00 › 야 !!!!! WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED TO MY MONSTA X ALBUM YOU HEADASS !!!1!⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 17:02 › you better fucking run 곽준수 when i find you YOUR HANDS ARE CUT OFF⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 17:02 › istg junsu you’re such 똥 손 🙄⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 17:02 › ㅗㅗ !!! ㅗㅗ !!! ㅗㅗ !!!
● a drunk text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 00:02 › i love my hair⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 00:03 › it’s so fkcn shiny⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 00:05 › pls lsafove my hair 2 junkso
a vague text
⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 00:01 › please don’t hate me too
● a worried text ━━━ ・
⁺ 📞 › ( 3 ) OUTGOING CALL › 💩손IDIOT. › VOICEMAIL.
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⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 17:00 › if you don’t answer the phone right now istg junsu⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 17:05 › i’m not worried⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 17:06 › i just don’t want to be blamed for the dead body that comes up from the pond near our place
● a text not meant for you ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 00:01 › i’m so fuckin sore, i’m never letting you do that to me ever again⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 00:10 › ….⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 00:11 › junsu⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 00:15 › it’s your fault you texted me right at this moment
● a sassy text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 15:27 › i’d agree with you if that wasn’t just the dumbest thing you ever said
● a long-winded confession text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 24:10 › you know sometimes i still think about when we were kids and you said you wished @mmjiyi was your sister instead of me⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 24:10 › it’s so stupid because you were so young and probably didn’t mean it⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 24:11 › but it fucking hurt so much junsu⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 24:12 › she left because she didn’t give a SHIT about me, junsu why can’t you understand that ⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 24:12 › and the fact that you said that afterwards, it just made me think you don’t care about me either⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 24:13 › it’s not true, it’s not true, it’s not true⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 24:13 › i know it isn’t⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 24:13 › but what if it is⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 24:18 › everyone hates me and i want to change i want to change so fucking much but i can’t i can’t do it⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 24:19 › it’s too late everyone hates me and they’ll continue hating me⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 24:30 › you hate me too, right?⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 24:50 › i’m fucking crying in my room don’t fucking come in here⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 24:51 › i don’t want to see you right now ok.
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⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 06:30 › forget all the texts i sent last night⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 06:31 › it was stupid
● a misguided advice text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 18:28 › when in doubt, say it with me: fuck you too
● a desperate text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 19:59 › 야 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 20:00 › where the fuck are you !!!!⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 20:05 › kwak ji dam is coming home and i’m the only one here⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 20:06 › I AM NOT GOING TO BE ALONE WITH HER⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 20:08 › YOU BETTER COME THE FUCK HOME RIGHT NOW IF YOU STILL WANT TO LIVE YOU JERK
● a congratulatory text ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 12:05 › waterboy?
● a text that should have never been sent ━━━ ・
⁺ 💬 › 💩손IDIOT. › 15:56 › fuck off junsu, you didn’t have the fucking right
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