if the pain you caused me was something straight-forward and physical like a knife to my heart, how would i react?
in one universe i would look you dead in the eye as you twist and turn the knife inside of me instead of begging you to stop.
in another universe i would leave the knife in me until scar-tissue grows over it and it becomes part of me.
in the last universe i pull the knife out from where you put it in between my ribs and stab you with it as i bleed to death. then lick the blade and let the iron of us both be my last meal.
Green Path
dont take bird noises for granted
Jami Nakamura Lin, The Night Parade
it's not finished yet but it's quite cool so far.
Herman Bogman Jr., 1890-1975
Cat lying on green chair , ca.1950/65, watercolor, 47x32 cm
because why does it feel so freeing? no screens, no music, no distractions, just being and observing the world around you.
i mean, i wish it hadn't come this far. i wish i didn't have to "reclaim" something so natural. but at the same time it feels good to be reminded of how simple it can be to be more connected to yourself and the world around you again.
i'm such an easily overstimulated person. especially when i'm in public places i usually prefer to have headphone in and listen to music. but recently even that feels too overwhelming, so i just keep my headphones in but don't listen to music.
i know it's ironic that i'm not actually doing nothing right now as i'm typing this on tumblr but right now it's raining and it kind of feels like a treat to just sit and listen while typing.
i'm just happy that i'm starting to lean towards enjoying life in a less distracted way again. that's all.