Mr-froggio - Canon World ;

The happiness of your life depends upon the quality of your thoughts.

Marcus Aurelius

one of the biggest things I can advocate for (in academia, but also just in life) is to build credibility with yourself. It’s easy to fall into the habit of thinking of yourself as someone who does things last minute or who struggles to start tasks. people will tell you that you just need to build different habits, but I know for me at least the idea of ‘habit’ is sort of abstract and dehumanizing. Credibility is more like ‘I’ve done this before, so I know I can do it, and more importantly I trust myself to do it’. you set an assignment goal for the day and you meet it, and then you feel stronger setting one the next day. You establish a relationship with yourself that’s built on confidence and trust. That in turn starts to erode the barrier of insecurity and perfectionism and makes it easier to start and finish tasks. reframing the narrative as a process of building credibility makes it easier to celebrate each step and recognize how strong your relationship with yourself can become

john james has this simple neutral color of his art, but it look so heavenly

delulu girls favorite part of the day

i started crying with her like

The clouds looking so beautiful 😍

You will burn and you will burn out; you will be healed and come back again.

Fyodor Dostoyevsky

Today I spent a few hours in the library and made some notes for my thesis defense. They sent me an email this morning and told me to go do it on Monday, so I'm feeling kind of nervous. A friend has told me she wants to listen to me practice tomorrow and that she will try her best to ask mean questions to prepare me (my kind of friend).

I think I haven't said this before, but my thesis is on contemporary theatre, which is what I'm most interested in pursuing when I think about a career in academia.

On another note, I spent the whole morning listening to Chopin and I really like it :). I figured getting into classical music one musician at a time would be easier.

Tomorrow the application period for masters programs is also starting, which I'm not chill about at all. It will be tomorrow when I know if the program I'm interested in has any space for me to enroll. Anyway, I sort of manifested it too hard this past month for it to be any other way, right? ...right?

Marmota (Marmota monax) | John James Audubon (1785-1851) | rawpixel (The New York Public Library)

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