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Sirius, winking at Remus: Remus, dropping his books: Peter: "Moony, you good?" Remus: "no. i'm deceased. tell my story."

nonsexual wolfstarbucks headcanons! (because i’m tired of them always being oversexualized)

this accidentally got really long so everything’s below the cut!

Sirius is Always the middle spoon. he WILL NOT let anyone else be the middle spoon!!! the only exception is if Remus is flaring or James is really upset, aka if they Need it. if they just want it too bad

relatedly any of the 3 of them will whine and complain and be a bit grumpy if they wake up to one or both of their boyfriends out of bed. they all find it cute about each other lol

Sirius and James coddle the shit out of Remus when he’s flaring. at first he pushes back on it bc he doesn’t want to be infantilized or treated like he can’t take care of himself but he grows to realize they’re not doing it for those reasons but because they love him and why should he suffer if they can make it better? one of them is cuddling him At All Times unless he doesn’t want them. they bring him food in bed, they fix his pillows and blankets, they set the thermostat to whatever he needs to be comfortable.

Sirius and James like flustering Remus. it’s sooo so easy and they almost make a game/competition out of it, seeing how red they can make him before he gets away, how quickly they can fluster him by doing the littlest thing. strategies include: kissing all over his face, sitting on his lap, whispering Really sappy things in his ear, both of them kissing his cheeks at once, telling him how pretty he is, slapping his ass when he’s bent over doing laundry or something

honestly generally Remus gets pretty princess treatment. he’s their Baby he’s their princess he’s perfect he gets everythingggg he’s so pampered

James’ love language is..acts of service? and Sirius’ is words of affirmation, but Remus’ is quality time, so he struggles a lot with showing them he loves them in the way that feels most important to them. S & J adjust a lot quicker, they have a primary one for receiving but can slip into any for giving pretty naturally. but Rem struggles and has to consciously plan out ways to give them what they need. for a bit it’s a lot of really awkward “Sirius. you know, ummmm. i love you right?” at the randomest times, whispering really quietly into his ear that he missed him bc he’s too embarrassed to say it loud, etc. and a lot of awkward “do you need help with that?” to J and the strangest little acts of service like, hmm. R tidies up after him and sees that as an act of service; James obviously doesn’t. he offers to do what he thinks is a menial task once but doesn’t know J loooves doing it. he blurts out an offer to drive him to work once but J finds it more inconvenient because then he has to wait for a pickup. in canonverse he offers to chop his potions ingredients but then J is just standing around waiting for him to finish. makes the bed for them every morning but J doesn’t even care about a made bed? idk it’s just Really Awkward attempts but S & J find it really sweet and they don’t mind, they don’t feel like they Need it from him anyways. they’re happy with his love in any form. but they melt every time he tries even if it’s awkward and they can’t say it’s not really really nice once he figures it out.

when one of them is cooking the other 2 (or whoever’s home) are sitting on the counter watching and giving little forehead/cheek/nose kisses when they pass by and yapping and passing over utensils/ingredients.

they have 3 different toothpastes bc they all have Very Strong Opinions and cannot will not compromise. (S like standard colgate bc it’s sweeter/less strongly minty. R likes standard crest for the opposite reason. J likes…crest kids sparkle fun or something insane like that.)

Rem walks around the house in big shirt tiny boxers. S walks around shirtless & tiny boxers. J walks around shirtless & thick oversized sweatpants.

canonverse hc: over time their wands and magic all slowly meld and get used to each other til they can all cast comfortably with each other’s wands. it’s not the same as their own but extremely comfy + natural.

S & J love stealing R’s sweaters, R loves stealing S and J’s tees, socks and boxers are grab a random pair don’t know don’t care whose it is, S likes putting Rem in his clothes bc he looks so cuteeee. eventually they don’t even really have separate clothes tbh it’s just one giant shared collection.

S and J are pretty into PDA, nothing insane but like holding hands an arm around their waist cuddling up to each other a hand in a back pocket cheek kisses forehead kisses chaste mouth kisses, and R is very much Not. won’t even hold their hands sometimes. even their PDA makes him blush. so when they’re in public it often appears as if S and J are disgusting sappy boyfriends and R is the awkward uncomfortable third wheel. their friends think it’s hilarious

they have separate bedrooms! they don’t use them often, they spend 99% of their nights together huddled in one of their beds (all of them have a bed large enough for three) but they like having their own private space for times when they need it. R’s having an especially bad flare and being touched hurts, S is having a bad mental health day and needs to be alone for the reminder that he has his own private safe space now, J’s having a bad body image day and can’t handle being touched, etc. and not just for sleeping, sometimes they’ll hang out in their own room during the day if it’s that kind of day. sometimes they just want or need some space and it makes sense to have that option.

they also use it for one of them’s sick because they don’t wanna get each other sick, even though the other two insist they don’t mind and they’ll almost certainly get sick anyways. and then all three of them sleep in their separate beds bc the sick one will complain that it’s not fair the other two get to sleep together, even if it’s their own choice that all three of them aren’t sleeping together.

Happy Passover!

last line tag!

post the last line of whatever you’re working on right now. thanks @rae-lune for the tag! loved your last lines <3

This is from Love on the Fly ch 4!

Remus is just too worked up to think of anything to say.

np tagging: @brandileigh2003 @firesandfamily @madefortherain @goldenprophetwrites

snippet!

a bit late to this as always but tysm to @madefortherain for the tag! here’s a short snippet from chapter 3 of love on the fly :)

Regardless, it delights Remus to see Sirius get a bit flustered, a bit less put together. He likes knowing he caused that. Him. Sirius seems so put together, with his full suit and starched shirt and graceful movements, and Remus is making him flustered.

no-pressure tagging @brandileigh2003 and open tag to anyone who hasn’t been tagged and wants to join!

this is an interesting discussion to have tbh and i like getting to hear other chronically ill people’s thoughts on it! same thing applies for my rambles here, not saying this to invalidate your experiences or your perspective, just want to share my own thoughts on it since i didn’t rly add anything to it before haha

i think a lot of this honestly just depends on the person and the chronic illness. different illnesses obviously have different symptoms and different people experience things to different levels of severity. so i’m def not by any means saying no chronically ill person can or does have good grades, bc that would be factually false and ableist.

i’ve had almost perfect grades up until this point in my college degree, to the detriment of my own health like remus may have, but this academic year is honestly a lot harder on me for reasons im unsure of—i think some of it is a cumulative effect though, and im only doing a 4-year degree compared to the 7 years of Hogwarts. plus, this is not mentioning my high school career, in which i got Ds in most of my classes and missed so many days of school i nearly didn’t pass high school at all just based on attendance. we don’t even know if there’s an attendance requirement at hogwarts! but in a modern day college or high school au there might be.

there’s also the fact that hogwarts is huge, and has a ton of stairs with, canonically at least, no elevators or ramps, meaning he’d have to use more energy on a daily basis than a lot of us in the modern real world have to with ADA (this is not to say all campuses are accessible, but a lot are at least partially so). there’s the fact that some of the classes, like DADA, are a lot more physically involved than the classes many college students are taking in the real modern world. and going back to the attendance itself, we don’t know if hogwarts grades on attendance but a lot of modern day public schools require attendance and if you miss too many days you cannot move on regardless of grades. as for college, a lot of professors at smaller universities grade on attendance and hogwarts seems to have relatively small class sizes. so if professors aren’t willing to be flexible on that? his grades would be shit just from sheer number of absences.

then there’s the fact that remus may not be old but he has been ill for a very long time, having been bitten so young. if we think of lycanthropy as a progressive illness, which seems likely based on various canonical descriptions, it will have had a lot of time already despite his young age.

also what makes lycanthropy different from a lot of real illnesses is the routine nature of the flares. he will have at least one flare every single month. with a lot of real illnesses people can go months without flares when they’re on proper treatment. they’re unpredictable and randomized, you might have twelve one semester and two the next. lycanthropy guarantees he will be sick for at least a day every single month, but likely more (because i don’t think there’s a lot of detail on this in canon but i find it immensely hard to believe that the full moon would only affect him the night of).

and lastly for many chronically ill people success in academia depends quite strongly on how accommodating and flexible professors are. we don’t know much about the marauders era professors iirc, so we don’t know if they’re decent people who would allow him flexible deadlines when he’s ill or not. we don’t know if they’re prejudiced against werewolves and refuse to accommodate one. i might be forgetting some details bc i haven’t read the canon series in many years but even if we meet some of them i know for sure we don’t know them all. plus just because someone seems nice from a 2-minute flashback doesn’t mean they aren’t ableist etc. and depending on the illness, the severity, etc pushing through just is not always physically possible! yes there is a certain extent to which you can ignore your needs and overuse energy you don’t have but it’s not always possible. my brain fog has been really bad this semester. i can force myself to do all the readings for my classes, but i physically cannot force the information to stick in my brain, so going through the motions does shit for my grades. we don’t really know what kinds of symptoms he has but if remus is injured and physically cannot, say, go gather plants from the forest for herbology, or he gets dizzy/lightheaded and cannot brew a potion bc the steam/heat will actually make him pass out, or whatever else, it won’t really matter how hard he tries or wants to push through. to be completely candid about something i’ve not even said out loud yet, i’ve had to give up on my dreams of going to law school because i am physically unable to maintain the grades necessary to get into a decent school, or to do the amount of reading law school entails, despite my best desperate attempts at pushing through even when it’s destroying me mentally and physically.

anyways, as i said this isn’t to negate anything anyone else said, it’s just my own interpretation of things! ultimately we’re working off of very little canon information about this and i’m not here to tell anyone their experiences are wrong. i think it’s a really interesting conversation to have though.

people who think rjl would have really good grades have never been chronically ill and had to miss school consistently because of it. I'm sure he was smart! I'm sure he did really well on tests! but there has never been a character I'm more sure struggled to achieve the academic success that he was capable of.

Water - 364 words

This month’s @wolfstarmicrofic prompts are exercise themed and sooo many of them scream chronic illness to me so here is the first of several chronic illness microfics! This one featuring dysautonomia (: CW for implied internalized ableism.

All Remus can think is that he needs water. He’s overheated, sweat leaking from every pore. He’s dizzy, lightheaded, can barely think straight. All he can think is he needs to sit. He needs to cool off, needs to breathe, he can’t breathe.

But he and Sirius need food. He convinces himself he can handle paying for the groceries. Remus slumps forward, forearms resting heavily on the handlebar of the cart, head ducked, steps slowing to a snail’s pace.

He’s fine. He can do this.

The fog is already permeating his brain, replacing healthy gray matter with empty gray mist. It’s hot in here. He needs to pay. He can’t think.

Remus is clumsy in his scanning and bagging. He’s dizzy. He places the bags into the cart, ignoring the way his heart and lungs and shoulders scream, and heads straight for the door.

The chilly air hits Remus’s skin. It makes him sweat more. He hasn’t put his coat back on, carrying it instead.

When he reaches his car, he tosses the groceries inside carelessly. Despite how unsteady he feels he forces himself to walk to the cart corral and put his cart away.

Finally Remus folds himself into the driver’s seat, head falling against the steering wheel as he tries to breathe.

Five minutes pass, then ten; Remus only feels worse.

He hates himself for even considering it–hates himself more for doing it–but there aren’t many other options.

He reaches for his phone with shaky hands.

“Hey baby, what’s up? On the way home yet?” Sirius’s voice is energetic, excited, loving.

All Remus can manage is a little whimper.

Sirius’s tone changes instantly to worry, concern, still love. “Baby? Are you alright?”

“Feel sick,” mutters Remus.

“Should I come get you?”

Remus hasn’t even begun to consider answering when he hears the jingle of keys through the phone.

He sighs, then whimpers again. Sirius takes it as the yes it (reluctantly) is.

“Be there in ten, Moons. Deep breaths, okay? Remember, you have water in the glovebox.”

Remus manages some pathetic sound and the line goes quiet.

He pulls out the water he had forgotten about.

Sirius is coming.

He’ll be okay.

i dont accept any of this bullshit where remus is cold and harsh and cruel towards sirius in wolfstar fics bc he'd be head over heels, obsessed, pathetically in love !!! this is my pathetic loser lover boy remus lupin

Me looking through AO3: ughhh I need to find a fic to read

My 62 open AO3 tabs: 👁️👄👁️

hiii can i request remus in a skirt for the good enough exercise? the fandom ALWAYS needs more remus in a skirt!!

yeeesss yes agreed!! thank you for the prompt 🤎