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exactly except this is lowkey a problem also def 60% of why i’m so fcked up

Haruki Murakami

this is a secondary blog i’ve had stored in the fridge for a while and im maybe going to possibly start actually using it

hello there

this blog will be dedicated to academia. i’m planning to start posting tips or just overviews of my study routines, maybe both, not sure. i’ll also try to document my process in applying to graduate programs.

about me

name: katherine

work in progress: bs - biology

class: senior

loading… PhD

first generation college student & woman in STEM

i’ve always been exceptionally curious about things on the microscopic level. particularly, as a kid i was very intrigued by the question “are viruses alive”. subjects like the incurability of HIV/AIDS, H1N1, and other diseases garnered my attention.

id like to research disease or genetics or both in tandem after getting the necessary education. i’m currently involved in undergraduate research regarding the alkanes emitted by the gut microbiota of cattle.

feel free to join me on my journey. or just stop by every once in a while. either way, i’m glad you’re here.

masterlist

coming soon (hopefully)! come back by later to see what’s new.

fyi the term “mating embrace” is being employed bc frogs use external fertilization. the female lays unfertilized eggs and the male fertilizes them. so it’s a mating embrace bc she’s laying eggs and then he’s fertilizing them, rather than them ~performing coitus~.

Orange-eyed Leaf Frog aka Blue-sided Leaf Frog (Agalychnis annae), in a mating embrace (amplexus), family Hylidae, Costa Rica

photograph by Wildlife With Daniel CR

i have had to put great work into not trying to be bob the builder for a man that doesn’t even realize he’s the problem. it’s one thing for them to acknowledge they’re fucked up. after that they need to realize that they don’t have to be a reflection of the pain that was caused to them. i can deal with cold and standoffish, i can’t deal with lashing out at the slightest threat to their strong-face.

“I can fix him” I couldn’t fix him and I don’t want to. I think he grew prone to biting and scratching in order to get by in a harsh world, and to me his resilience is part of what makes him so beautifully himself. I could be kind to him, though. I could show him gentleness. I could, slowly but surely, in the same way one earns the trust of a skittish stray cat, convince him that my touch will never come accompanied by pain. That, around me, he can allow himself to be soft. To relax. I could be the one he associates with warmth and safety, the one he longs to be held by after a hard day. I could be his home.

Yeah you're right. It WOULD be pretty fucked up if you were a swan but you were raised by ducks and you grew up never seeing another swan or even knowing that such a thing as a swan even existed so you just thought you were a duck with something super wrong with it.

today's fashion doll is: Barbie Birthstone Beauties Collection Miss Emerald May (2007)

submitted by @apprenticegamemaster

the most important thing is to be snuggly in bed