If only there was a cute person to find bones and adventure with me ๐๐
THIS THIS THIS
It should be illegal to have a bus stop without a bench I am 1000% serious rn
catch me running to write and post several fics on ao3 knowing damn well so many of us are about to sit down and go so deep down our little niche fanfic rabbit holes without tiktok to waste time on
chronic illness life is going to see a new primary care doc and getting five referrals by the end of the appointment
friendly reminder RAMCOA is real and exists. there are plenty of systems out there who have suffered this abuse and live their lives with the consequences.
i just think people need to remember them sometimes because they deserve to be acknowledged and feel seen too.
got a job at the hospital
one of our friends works in the psych ward as a nurse (its like a fwbs situation and we may or may not be super into them cries)
finally admitted to having DID today after months of talking and her response wasnt exactly the greatest, she doesnt think its actually fully fledged seperate individual alters and instead just thinks its super intense derealization
so now i just feel gross and like i cant be open about my own personal experience and symptoms i deal with on a daily basis with her
like im not the same person i was earlier and i want to be respected in that and i want to feel comfortable in that and i want to be able to trust them
-wes
so thanks to some mental health stuffโข๏ธ i didnt get to finish my 31 batfam fics i was writing for october so like definitely going to get on that
but on that note (caus all i ever write is angst) why tf is there not more cass and duke centric angst fics
like guys theres such untapped potential here please
personally i just think it should be illegal to have more than 2 things going Bad with your body at a time. it's just excessive. i want to speak to a manager. the current hardware was not designed with the user in mind.
this year was just nto the year for love for us i dont think.
we started off by getting broken up with by our longterm (four year) partner
then ghosted by our other partner
then was pulled along by a friend who almost seemed to like us
and now weve been broken up with by our year long partner
im kind of just unfeeling about it now, like ive gone through so much outside the realm of love recently and this breakup is just sort of an addition to the growing pile of things i have to eventually deal with. it does help a bit that we have so many friends that we just didnt really talk to much anymore because we didnt see the need to. we saw our future in black and white. wed get through college, get married, move in together, and grow old. i didnt see the need to have any friends included in that outside of my partnerโs friends. but now im kind of realizing that that was just the black and white thinking of my autism, i still am human, i still need friends, and now that im losing several because its very likely they wont talk to me anymore now that our fiancรฉ broke it off, i need them more than ever. and so i messaged a few of my older ones, ones that i havent talked to in months, ones that before my fiancรฉ i thought of as my closest most reliable friends and it really cheered me up. hearing them call me bestie and go crazy as i told them whats happened, about me graduating, about me getting a job, about me going to college, and about me getting my diagnosises. and it really made me realize that if someone isnt willing to put in effort to help a relationship grow properly then i shouldnt be expected to either. i guess my fiancรฉ was right about that part, i did put a lot of effort into our relationship and they didnt. i wish they had so we couldve avoided this mess but truly im almost glad now because i would have missed out on realizing that so many people care about me and really would hate it if i just disappeared off the earth. like all these people would miss me so dearly and thats helping me really think through so many of my issues right not. a lot of my stress related to thinking i wasnt good enough or that i wasnt trying to be what they wanted me to be is just sort of gone because these people are my people and they know me for me. these people ive started talking to again have known me for almost as long as the system was known. and im glad to see that i dont have to hide certain parts of myself or pretend to be someone else around them. -sully
{disclaimer: if my ex sees this, this isnt meant as something negative towards you, you tried your hardest and well always love you for that, im sorry it came to this and we really would love to at elast still be friends. this post is just us having the realization that we arent alone and were allowed to have friends outside of you and your friends}
maybe some npd positivity or rescources on how someone with npd can recover?
hey! i hope you're well <3
here are some articles i found:
narcissism self help website
how to stop being a narcissist
14 tips on how to not be a narcissist
how to stop being a narcissist: 8 key steps
yes, narcissists can change (here's how)
what it's like to be a diagnosed narcissist
how to stop being a narcissist according to 11 experts
the arduous work of treating narcissism: a therapist's guide
self-help for narcissists
7 steps to changing your narcissistic responses
10 stages in the treatment of narcissistic disorders
how to treat narcissistic personality disorder
3 strategies for recovering narcissists
9 types of entitlement tendencies and how to overcome them
i do want to say that some of these articles have negative language. to be honest i don't know all that much about npd specifically, so i did a lot of research. i was so shocked at how little i could find, and how much is straight up vilifying or about victims of narcissistic abuse and not people with npd. im sure you know this already, but im still horrified. i will be making an effort to post more npd positivity, as recovering is possible and there should be a lot of it.
also, knowing that you are struggling with a personality disorder and wanting to improve is a great first step. im proud of you!
you are worthy of recovery, and you deserve it. i promise
love, emma <3
i actually completely agree with what you said. the original post i made was specifically about nondisordered plurals. my autism makes me struggle with the concept of it a lot and people consistently throwing around ableist when theyre actively trying to say its not disordered makes my struggle even worse
how is not believing in endos ableist? if you're not disordered how can you be disabled (in this specific way, def not saying you cant be at all)?
like how do you get away with calling the people that are actively disabled by this condition ableist????