Unconditional Love Isn't A Free Pass To Hurt Me.

Today: 1/13/2025

Slept too little. Mentally drained after work. Not achieved step goal. Not achieved physical goal. Not achieved housework goal. Complete all assignments for school yesterday and steps.

Reflection: I need sleep. I don't work right when not sleeping. Even caffeine doesn't help. Sad about missing all targets for the day. Angry about people being closed minded at work. Confused on if I'm being closed minded. Lingering effects of not enough sleep. Booooooooo. Did manage some reading for school. Not sure I absorbed any of it. Tomorrow will tell.

Next day goals: 4000 steps. One load of dishes cleaned and put away. One load of laundry cleaned and put away. Draft discussion board post. Do the work things. Connect to the kids.

“A look back to the 1964 Navajo Nation Fair ❤ The Navajo Nation Fair was initially started in 1937 as an opportunity for our Diné people to unite and gather for a couple of days to socialize, race horses, compare each other’s harvest, have something positive and enjoyable to do rather than just dealing with the Depression, stock reduction, unemployment and having their children hauled off to boarding school. Be proud to be Diné!”, Southern Navajo Nation Fair

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ᏍᎩᎦᏚᏏᏁ ᎠᏅᏱ - Sgigadusine Anvyi - March 15th

ᎫᏩᏯ/ᎧᏩᏯ - Kuwaya/Kawaya - blueberry, huckleberry. 🫐🫐🫐

ᏣᎳᎩ ᏔᎷᏣ - Tsalagi Taluj - Cherokee basket

Cherokee double wall basket purse, braided cotton cord strap, commercial shell flowers, bear stone button. Worked on and off on this for about a week.

I got the idea from the strawberry baskets I have seen various weavers make, I may try one of those next. The woven flower was difficult but I enjoyed it at the same time, stems are getting easier to sculpt. I don't really like challenges, I've had enough and I'd like my life to be easy so this is a nice way for me to work on that intolerance. Blueberry and Huckleberry are the same word in our language, you may find a dialect difference.

Today: 1/6/25

Back to work today. I love my job. It's not easy and people make it more difficult than it needs to be. But, we're making progress and the culture is changing.

I did manage to workout when I got home. It wasn't as much as I did on Friday. But, I'm building habits and something is better than nothing. I reached my step goal of 3000 steps. Fourth day in a row reaching that goal. Still 450lbs, this is not sustainable and my body is weak.

I didn't do as much as I wanted around the house. I did load of dishes, one load of laundry (wash and dry still need to put away), swept living room.

Reflections: I was worried I wouldn't work out after work. I hate the 1.25 hr commute. I didn't do as much around the house. First assignment of this term is due Thursday and I haven't even started. I do not like being a student. I love learning but the student thing is terrible. I miss my strong body. I miss doing 10 mile hikes. I miss being able to lift heavy things one handed.

Lessions learned: Keep the phone put down. Podcasts and music are better than TV and videos for me. Less distracting and helps focus. Every little bit counts.

Plan for 1/7/25: Walk at lunch break. Start marketing assignment. One load of dishes. One load of laundry wash, dry, and put away. Put away the load in dryer.

Today: 1/4/2025

For the first time in my life I rented a drained snake. Amateur plumbing. My body is tired. I've gotten way too fat and weak. The laundry room was backing up into the house. The kitchen sink was backing up into the house. I'm filthy and need a shower.

Reflection: Apart from money, I don't know why I put this off for 2 weeks. I feel accomplished. My body hurts and I feel weak. I feel relieved that this task is done. I feel encouraged to do something else. It might not be today but I have to do something else in the house. The list of things I have to do is way too long. And my body is so weak.

Lesson learned: Just do the things. Take 20 minutes everyday and do something for your body. 20 minutes everyday, something to make your body better.

Ok. Long time since I've posted.

I had some great weeks working out three times a week. Awesome!

Not so great with house work and even got behind in school work. But, I'm caught back up and trying to maintain again.

Let's see how this week goes.

ah, i’m so bad at posting here. acknowledging this Day of Mourning from the lands of Kiikaapoi, Peoria, Potawatomi, Myaamia & Ochethi Sakowin people, aka Chicago, derived from a native word for garlic (mmm…) which is really suitable for me because I live here now 🌱🧄✨

whose.land are you on? talk about it over dinner this weekend with your fam & what it means to give the #landback. considering everything, listening & learning from indigenous people is the least you can do.

Some friends from today in the #sepulvedabasinwildlifereserve in #losangeles. The caterpillars are Hyles lineata, aka white-lined sphinx moth (Google them, they’re pretty cool). All said we counted more than 12 in and amongst two California fuchsia. Can’t say for certain, but I’m thinking these hungry lil guys have chomped all the flowers and tipped the ends of the stems.

Today: 1/7/2025

Walked at lunch. It was cold. Step goal complete. One load of dishes complete and put away. One load of laundry complete and put away. Assignment started, discussion post complete. Still need to do responses to two other discussion posts.

Reflection:

House seeing benefit of three day consistency. Encouraged to try to add more tasks. More tasks are needed. Worried about barriers popping up and derailing routine before it's built habit. Worried about taking too many tasks on in a day and burning out. Getting really really cold. Worried I won't feel like working out tomorrow. Need to maintain trigger of coming home, changing clothes, going to the garage and doing something. Doesn't matter what it is as long as it's physically moving my body for 20 minutes. With this new term worried that school is going to derail other priorities. Three days in, have maintained consistency so far. I'm worried that I won't maintain it. I need to keep these small steps going until they're habit. Before adding additional habit steps. A little bit everyday.

Plan for tomorrow:

Won't have opportunity to walk at work. Going to be facilitating training session during lunch hour. Attempt to do A thousand steps before work tomorrow. Need to complete one additional paragraph tomorrow on assignment. Do one load of dishes and put away. Do one load of laundry and put away. 20 minutes of physical activity after work. Ask for help for additional cleaning tasks.

1. Is she a main character? YES.

2. Does this character fall in love with a white man? NO.

3. Does this character end up raped or killed at any point during the story? NO / NO.

Jax and Roki from Fancy Dance both pass The Ali Nahdee Test!