complicated relationships with your parents are like. you cut up fruit and bring it to my room without me asking. i can't remember the last time you told me that you were proud of me. you told me i wasn't good enough for you but i'm not even good enough for myself. your hugs feel like coming home. i can't tell you anything that happens in my life. i doubt myself every day because of something you said to me when i was eight. would you like to hear about my day? please don't ask me about my day. i miss you even though you're in the next room. i wish we didn't live together. i've never loved or resented anyone as much as i've loved and resented you. are you okay? are we okay? are we ever going to be okay?
mfs say “i’m fine” then detach themselves from everyone in their lives for weeks. that’s me, i’m mfs
1. Ocean Vuong | 2. love Slowly Kills by Adrian Borda | 3. Anne Carson, from “The Fall of Rome: A Traveller’s Guide.” | 4. Julia Ducournau & Agathe Rousselle Talk ‘Titane’ And Violent Women In Cinema | 5. Monster (1994-2001) Naoki Urasawa | 6. Thus Spoke Zarathustra - Friedrich Nietzsche | 7. Mary Shelley ― Frankenstein; or, The Modern Prometheus | 8. Henry Miller, from a letter to Anaïs Nin, featured in "A Literate Passion: Letters of Anaïs Nin & Henry Miller, 1932-1953″ | 9. William Shakespeare — Macbeth | 10. Henry Miller, from a letter to Anaïs Nin, featured in “A Literate Passion: Letters of Anaïs Nin & Henry Miller, 1932-1953″ | 11. "Vesuvius" Amber Spark | 12. “The Forbidden Wish" Jessica Khoury | 13. Faster, Pussycat! Kill! Kill! (Russ Meyer, 1965) | 14. "11/11" Devi Mccallion | 15. Mahtem Shiferraw, Fuschia | 16. Rick Yancey, The Curse of the Wendigo | 17. Kristin Cashore, Graceling | 18. killer, pheobe bridgers | 19. Marie Howe, “After the Movie” | 20. La Faim by Félix Labisse | 21. Alberto Moravia, The Woman of Rome | 22. martha gellhorn, selected letters | 23. raw (2016) | 24. David Foster Wallace, Infinite Jest | 25. Lily Chatterjee (attrib.) | 26. The Dark Knight (2008) dir. Christopher Nolan | 27. Joey Comeau, A Softer World (#642) | 28. Cormac McCarthy, All the Pretty Horses | 29. carmen maria machado, in the dream house | 30. nicole lyons | 31. wintersong, s. jae-jones | 32. nicole homer, “underbelly” | 33. Only Angels Have Wings, Nicole Dollangange | 34. Carol Ann Duffy, Medusa | 35. Khalil Gibran | 36. ocean vuong | 37. Ice Nine Kills, The Nature of the Beast | 38. Octavio Paz, tr. by Elizabeth Bishop, The Collected Poems, 1957-1987 | 39. Rabindranath Tagore (1861 - 1941) | 40.Adrienne Rich, from Diving into the Wreck; “The phenomenology of anger” | 41. Franz Wright, from his collection God’s Silence | 42. Euripides, Medea | 43. Journal of Katherine Mansfield - Katherine Mansfield. | 44. the archer by taylor swift | 45. Kingdom Animalia by Aracelis Girmay (2011) | 46. Toni Morrison, Sula | 47. "As Consciousness Is Harnessed to Flesh: Journals and Notebooks" by Susan Sontag | 48. Björk - Bachelorette
Dear diary,
Maybe i didn't give anything to my parents to be proud of.
Masterlist
Brother (tw: CSA)
Friday nights and clandestines
The anatomy of my heart is flawed
I just want to live in a big haunted Victorian house in walking distance of a bakery, a library, a bookshop, a forest, and a river and where I can befriend local ghosts and forest spirits. Not sure why that's asking so much.
Work Song by Hozier / Mahmoud Darwish
Men be like— "I can hurt you."
Like HONEY???? I'm the eldest daughter of a brown household, AND A WOMAN IN STEM.
A concept.
If you don't support the artists, content creators, and sex workers you claim you love so much with tips/purchases or reblogs/retweets, don't be surprised when they stop creating for the internet and their profiles disappear. I've seen it happen to many people over the years who were honestly really creative and cool as fuck, they were discouraged from putting in so much effort and not get enough support. It costs nothing to hit 🔄.
one thing i’ve realized is that it is extremely important to value platonic relationships over romantic relationships.
friendships and connections with your family members last longer and are more stable than someone you have been dating for 4 months. it almost makes me upset how society has conditioned us to believe that we need to ‘find love’ to be happy when we had it right in front of us this whole time. it shows how truly ungrateful some of us are, especially some of us who want to get into a romantic relationship for validation, out of insecurity, and the fear of being alone; or people who leave friendships as soon as they find the ‘the one’
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