The Fact That We Only Have “herculean Task” And “sisyphean Task” Feels So Limiting. So Here’s

well that can't be good

so the other day a castmate of mine was talking about having once been a little girl (at this point, i all but short-circuited because said castmate is a man in his mid-sixties and my brain had its little moment of “!!!!! trans person!!! and he’s OLD!!!!”) and being asked if there was a famous person he looked up to or wanted to look or be more like. and he said— again, as a little girl at this point— “santa claus!” and everyone thought he was weird for it.

and this story doesn’t read as well over text because you really have to see the guy. but he looks just like santa claus. he’s got the long white hair and the beard and the belly and everything. and i just. the amount of secondhand trans joy i experienced is truly insane. i’m gonna get old! i’m gonna get old the way i wanna get old! hey everybody you’re gonna get old; we’ve been doing it for years!

anyway shoutout to the santa claus of my cast and to every older trans person we love you so fucking much

My great-grandma is getting close to 100 and her memory is starting to go, and she can’t quite remember what my chosen name is, but she knows my birth name isn’t right. She puts my birth name in quotation marks to signify she knows it’s not correct, and I just. I love her. I love her so fucking much.

Sometimes love is quote marks around your deadname. Sometimes love is “I don’t remember everything about you, but I know you’ve grown and changed. My memory is fading, but I love you.”

“but what if i’m being annoying :(“ everyone’s annoying dipshit it came free with fucking being alive and existing. now go talk to your friends

merry the fellowship leaves rivendell day to all who celebrate it

Sometimes it can take some time to process...

Shipping fictional characters isn’t representative of your moral values. It’s representative of your particular psychic damage and the themes and motifs that haunt you. Hope this helps.