thinking about shauna listening to jackie talk about jeff like he never even mattered when shauna is pregnant with his baby because she just wanted something jackie had and wanted to be wanted by someone who wanted jackie and now jackie doesnt even care anymore and shauna is stuck with this forever. and then jackie dies and then the baby dies but not before shauna has to give birth to him in the wilderness in winter surrounded by people who eat the dead and now fucking jeff sadecki is the last thing she has of either of them and what the hell is she supposed to do with that? she's stuck with him forever.
thinking about shauna beating lottie almost all the way to death to get all of that rage out of her and then when that rage is out of her they give her a knife and tell her to slit natalie's throat, and then when natalie runs and shauna is let off the hook for one thing for once they give her the knife again and tell her to cut up javi, the closest thing to a baby, so they can eat him, and now she's stuck with this, too. and all that rage she burned off didn't go anywhere, really. it's still right there.
and then im thinking about shauna watching lottie and everybody else crown natalie the queen for virtue of not dying, which is the same thing everybody has been doing, except for jackie and the baby and javi who all took chunks of shauna with them and left her with nothing but a knife.
im thinking about shauna who watches everybody gossip and laugh through the springtime knowing that when winter comes she will be the person who will have to cut them all up one by one so the rest of them can live and its very easy to see why she isnt friends with any of them anymore by then. she looks at them and she sees cuts of meat and how is she supposed to look at anybody normally ever again after that?
and its cruel, of course it is, everything she does to coach ben. it's not his fault, it's not about him at all, really, except that he is exactly the problem. he's innocent. he judges them. he sees what they have had to do to survive and pretends he never profited from any of it. pretends to be above it, uninvolved. he judges them. he judges her.
and shauna needs complicity from these people. she needs somebody else to know what it feels like to hold the knife. she needs people to be stuck with those guilty votes forever. tai with the gun and melissa with the knife and natalie at the butcher's table so that she's not the only one. and so ben is the sacrifice.
i saw somebody say that shauna doesnt want natalie to have to feel the pain of butchering a person, thats why she puts the cloth over his face. but that's not true. she *needs* natalie to know the pain of it, the guilt of it, the weight. The cloth is a lie she told herself would make it easier but she knows that Natalie is about to know what the inside of this man's joints look like either way and that she's going to be stuck knowing that forever.
they are going to be rescued someday and everybody will say "we did what we had to do to survive" and shauna needs to not be the only one who really has to mean that when she says it. and i guess she has that now. or she's about to.
hehehe what if i have an identity crisis???? what if????
on identity
ojibwe / noah kahan / richard siken / unknown / unknown / oamisoa / cameron awkward-rich
fuck me or eat me, it's all the same in the end (4696 words) by Sapphic_terror Chapters: 1/2 Fandom: Yellowjackets (TV) Rating: Mature Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: Mari/Shauna Shipman, Jeff Sadecki/Shauna Shipman, Shauna Shipman/Jackie Taylor, Akilah/Mari (Yellowjackets), Melissa/Shauna Shipman Characters: Mari (Yellowjackets), Shauna Shipman, Jackie Taylor (Yellowjackets), Akilah (Yellowjackets), Yellowjackets (TV) Ensemble, Travis Martinez, Natalie Scatorccio, Misty Quigley Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Mari Ibarra Lives (Yellowjackets), Canon-Typical Violence, Cannibalism, Hate Sex, Mari and Shauna fuck at her wedding, Jackie Taylor Haunts the Narrative (Yellowjackets), Lesbian Shauna Shipman, Trauma, Grief/Mourning, Character Study, Mari needs a hug, Shauna Shipman Needs a Hug, They fuck instead, blink and you miss it implied poly, (they defintely got up to shit in the wilderness okay), Consensual But Not Safe Or Sane, Mari is a brat, Shauna just wants her to shut up, Ghost Jackie Taylor (Yellowjackets), Threesome - F/F/F, Kinda, Infidelity, on like 8 levels Series: Part 3 of bones and all Summary: The dress was biting into her skin and some random jock turned “entrepreneur” was staring at her tits. Mari was so over this. The music, the lights, even the champagne tasted like fizzy grape juice, not the strong, burning kind. It was all so perfectly boring - Shauna Shipman’s wedding. Shauna Sadecki now, ugh, Mari was about to throw up in her mouth, and nobody would even blame her. (Or, Shauna gets married to Jeff and - She and Mari fuck during the reception.)
the inescapable structure of tragedy, the lines of causality
matthew stover, star wars episode III: revenge of the sith novelization / prophetic perfect tense / louise glück, the triumph of achilles / hadestown, “road to hell” / sunnyscenegenerator / joanna newsom, “waltz of the 101st lightborne”
I’m going to get high and write lesbian hate sex with so much imagery and symbolism while at the beach, try and stop me
I think Harry Ron and Hermione should all just hold hands
Whoever said getting an iud was a good idea (me) was a fucking liar
KILL ME IF IT'S WORTH IT; ON FLESH.
silas denver melvin // ethel cain // george bataille // blythe baird // margaret atwood // nicole homer // emily palermo.
Yo, correct me if I am wrong please, but didn't Hitler rise to power because he promised to fix the German economy and people really liked that so they looked past everything else he was doing??? Like exactly what's happening in America right now???
So many people said they voted for Trump, put a truly evil person in power, because he said he'd fix the economy, and a little voice in my head is going, "Isn't that what happened with fucking Hitler??"
But I've seen no one point that out so maybe I'm miss remembering???????
Every time I read the news trump has broken yet another law, tried to murder a baby, did something horrifically stupid and unemotionally funny, or talked about doing something that’ll bring harm to everyone for literally no reason
Somebody sedate me for four years, please
One of my favorite parts of “Twisters” is the misdirect with Tyler Owens’ character. Because at the start of the movie, he’s introduced as a douchebag YouTuber whose videos are vlogs in which he and his crew get into dangerous situations. But then when our protagonist Kate gets to know him, we learn that Tyler is actually:
1) a really sweet, humble dude who is looking out for all his friends
2) the smartest dumb guy you’ll ever meet. He has a degree in meteorology, but he does dumb things like drive into a tornado.
3) jumps into danger because he “feels” it / he’s attracted to the danger / wants to see if he can handle the danger
So in a weird way, he’s introduced as Cowboy Logan Paul, only for it to be revealed he’s more like Cowboy Markiplier. And let me just say, as soon as I compared him to Mark in the theater, I couldn’t unsee it lol.
Sapphic_terror on ao3 queer and nonbinary (any pronouns)Yall I may be losing it a little but at least I’m writing a lot of fan fiction (that’s a slight lie but I’m trying I swear)
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