I love being hungry.
I feel so powerful with that warm feeling in my stomach. The occasional grumbling sounds are so euphoric.
Holding a hot bowl of green tea while I walk down the stairs to go drink it in my room, alone. Those are the best moments. The moments when I feel it working.
I feel so organized in these moments. I’m in control and I can take over the world. So focused and aligned it’s scary. I don’t know what I would do without you Ana.
My efforts are not in vain. I’ll prove it.
I almost just fainted while taking a shower. I deadass I fell on the floor. I don’t know if it’s because of my lack of iron or not eating for 10+hrs. I actually thought I was dying.
Holy shit.
I have to finish my shower though.
Back in I go.
I feel personally attacked wow
Say less
“And all I loved, I loved alone.”
— Edgar Allan Poe
i’m always feeling so much sadness these days.
my happy dreams are falling apart and taking me too.
seems as though even happiness needs company.
i don’t want to go yet.
i know one day i will not have a choice.
tbh I do not like soft drinks like coke but I might try this. It might help me with my sugar cravings and it’s 0 cal
People with eating disorders when they finally move out and do their own food shopping
(it’s called mouse workout because it’s quiet)
100 leg lifts (each leg)
75 squats
50 sit-ups
50 second plank
50 second wall sit