I’m Not Yet Done With The Entire Trailblaze Mission Of The Recent Update But M A N

sumeru will forever be my favourite region (even if the desert exploration was painful), but fontaine has been feeding us well in terms of life truths.

i really like how chevreuse acknowledged people’s opinions on what justice is and should be, then proceeded to put into perspective how justice isn’t always black and white as most people (myself included) thought it to be. this is exchange between veronique and her is probably one of my favourite dialogues in this game so far.

the characters selected in this event event still seemed random to me, but i don’t mind. i still enjoyed the story (and the ayato-chiori banter i didn’t see coming).

sleep escapes me still but it's 100% my fault for having little self control and drinking what was supposed to be my coffee for tomorrow (ू˃̣̣̣̣̣̣︿˂̣̣̣̣̣̣ ू)

i actually have a fanfic that i’ve been writing (and editing) where kaveh decides to explore teyvat after a massive change in his life happened. i just love the idea of kaveh getting to travel across teyvat so he can also see the various architecture styles and art practices that people outside of sumeru, and maybe learn a thing or two about himself along the way.

so here's a picture of kaveh looking towards sumeru city.

i finally got myself to clean this account so i can use it as intended - an art dump of sorts. i used to have an art dump on instagram (ig), but as much as i'd like to think that i'm self-assured about my skills, the algorithm and the porn bots my art ig have attracted were a few good reasons to delete it all together. plus the nsfw rules over there confuse me (not that i even have the skill or heart to make and post nsfw output, just to be clear ofc) - like what makes it nsfw and what makes it sfw exactly? what if it exhibits nudity, but not a sensual one?? the last thing i'd ever want is for one of my accounts to be shadowbanned. that, and i was pretty inactive there, too, so it wasn't really that hard to say goodbye to it. it had a good run. 😌

this summer, i do plan to get myself back into making art that's not really related to my work (i'm talking about sample artworks as visual aids), and hopefully, this blog will be more active than what i had bac on ig regardless of the notes it may get or not get.

almost panicked 100% when i couldn't login on my ao3 account, but all's well now thankfully ❀.(*´◡`*)❀

second part of my casual gamer diaries, and it shows that i'm either obsessed with hyv games or i am showing gambling behaviour (so aventurine of me amirite). while gacha isn't technically gambling (or considered as such in many countries), the tendency to develop gambling behaviour is there so...hehe? 🥹

(on a more serious note, the experience of gambling and the emotions it can evoke can make it addictive so i guess if one wants to try, it's best to approach it with caution and a lot of wisdom.)

at the time of the release of cyno's second story quest, i still had chiori's and arlecchino's story quest to finish, but because i love sumeru and the men of sumeru (actually i can say i'm ✨biased✨ towards sumeru characters and the nation itself), i went straight to cyno's quest ofc (*•̀ᴗ•́*)و ̑̑

one thing that i like and amuses me about cyno is how he talks as if he's always going to be in a legendary battle of sorts or as if he's a protagonist in a shounen anime about duels and friendships u make along the way ✨ i think sethos mentioned his manner of speaking in one of his voicelines? i agree 100% with sethos.

he's one of my favourite characters in the game -- reliable, responsible, intelligent, and i do enjoy his sense of humour because mine is just as broken as his.

i'd like to write more about my thoughts on his second story quest, but i'll save that for another entry, and when my head is not as convoluted as it is atm.

also alhaitham is such a mood here. his lines always resonate with me as an introvert. i think i had a lot of screenshots from his story quest simply because most of his lines there are truly quotable.

i did finish chiori's story quest the day after i finished cyno's!

let me begin by saying that hyv did improve gradually in writing female characters, and chiori becomes an instant favourite because of her no nonsense approach to a lot of things. this is also one of those story quests that focused a lot on the character, which really helped in making me appreciate and understand why chiori is the way she is. my girl really made her dreams a reality! (TvT )

i will say her story quest falls easily as one of my favourites, but it hasn't beaten yoimiya's second story quest which currently sits at the top spot.

anyway, i loved her story quest and i'm glad i won the 50/50 on her banner (•́⌄•́๑)૭✧

the most recent patch had me going back to playing tcg just so i can secure a ✨kaveh tcg card✨ that i'll use as much as i'm using him in game as my dps (which is everyday except when fighting ridiculously strong bosses).

first of all!! he is so cute, handsome, and pretty at the same time. just look at him all proud about his tcg deck, and i love him for it 😌

i lost the first round and won the rematch with my inazumen deck (ayato, thoma, kazuha), so i got to see both endings. it's cute how he's trying not to goad about his win, but something in me hurt when i won the game. how ridiculous amirite, but such is the life of an ✨average kaveh enjoyer✨

kaveh being 2D is a sin!! why am i not a playable character in teyvat too??

it's time to fight his demons (himself) today.

his idle thought about the interior design of this place is so in character (ofc), and yk what, i agree with kaveh each time i invite another character to play tcg with me.

anyway, i love kaveh that my friends who are aware of it are probably tired of me having to talk about him in the most random moments. speaking of kaveh, i should upload the photos i took of him in-game for the kaveh goes around teyvat photosets i started.

i still haven't started arlecchino's or clorinde's story quests, but i went ahead and did the archon quest on the day of its release to keep myself from being spoiled ( ｡ • ᴖ • ｡)

i actually got shocked when caribert first appeared on screen, but let me just say: caribert is one of the most good-looking NPCs we've had in genshin.

i haven't really read or watched other people's opinions about it, but i'm okay with it. i'm not mad about it, and i actually liked that we got to sit down and talk with the twin. it made me tear up (hoyo has been doing well making me cry since focalors' appearance) especially when caribert managed to sneak out a memento of the twin's reunion (｡Ó᎔ ก̀๑)

i was also cheering atossa on, but ( ｡ • ᴖ • ｡) caribert u hurt me as well.

i was supposed to include my hsr diaries here (since i've been playing it more frequently to catch up with a lot of the missions), but i'll just put it on a separate entry instead.

when i have a clearer mind and in a better headspace, i'd probably spare some time writing about my thoughts about the game. like a reflection paper of some sort?

if there’s one small event in genshin that i find myself “getting sweaty” it has to be the short photo event. here are some of my okay pictures, and i’m saying okay because i actually had a difficult time getting the photo i want, in the composition that my head has already formed (but my hands failed to execute). that said, i still like them enough to post the ones i really like here. and can i just say that wriothesley looked immaculate in all three frames in the weeping willow area. zhongli, too, but that’s nothing new.

the requirements needed for each photos limited my attempt to make this photo event an exclusive photo shoot for all of my favourite genshin husbands. and someday, i’ll have the energy to crop out genshin’s logo on the side of each photos, but for now it will stay.

and of course, here are some goofy shots that i took.

i hope u are doing alright, my dear son chongyun!

i’m sorry neuvillette for capturing you looking so undignified in your charged attack.

in my (f)unemployment season (so far), which is both by choice and not by choice because i chose to resign, but i also got rejected in all of the job applications i’ve applied for so far (so far, because we still be looking, and it’s only been two weeks since my last day at work) so unemployed not by choice, but by circumstance (?). anyway, this did allow me to catch up on some stuff (besides cleaning my room since i was 15 so that i can sleep soundly and not wake up with a bad case of allergies), and by stuff, i meant the regular rotation of the games i play:

here are updates no one asked for but i will update anyway!

rushed the month-long animal crossing new horizons’ museum event to celebrate the museum and galleries month. we also have our national cultural heritage month on may so that’s another reason to go back and visit my acnh museum since i wasn’t able to do so in real life ƈ ͡ (ुŏ̥̥̥̥ ‸ ŏ̥̥̥̥) ु not even blaming work since part of my last responsibility as a resignee is to finsih and submit all the necessary paperworks and other requirements for clearance (or i won’t get the last of my salary, and the Lord knows i need those funds to sustain me while i go looking for work), but i digress. anyway, usually i do drop by galleries and museums when i can during may since most museums and galleries do have their entrance fees revoked the entire month as a way to encourage more people to drop by so i’ll just do that next year irl.

i’ve been playing acnh since the year it was released, and if there’s one place in my island that i still love going around when i’m done with the intended tasks for the day, it’s the kemeroot museum (my island’s name is kemeroot, btw). ofc i took screenshots on my switch. here’s my character as she crams the stamp rally on the last day.

i remember how i used to play this religiously on the year of its release, that i was able to amass around 2k hours of running around kemeroot, terraforming, planting, landscaping, renovating, and decorating but i’m still not yet done with the ✨final form✨ of kemeroot. i’ve yet to check the number of hours i have alloted for this game now that i’ve been playing it again frequently.

june and july are months of hydrangeas in acnh, too, so i intend to do a lot of photoshoots and redecorating in my island because i love hydrangeas irl and in games.

another favourite in-game activity for me is visiting the cafe inside the museum, too. it’s only in-character for my acnh character to enjoy coffee the same amount as i do.

i totally forgot about the 10-photo limit tumblr imposes on mobile so there’ll be another entry that centers on unsolicited updates about genshin and star rail. and here i am thinking i could type them all down in one entry 😭

now that i’m back in my childhood home, i’d like to say that after living in an apartment for rent, i’ve grown to appreciate my room since my teenage years because as much as i love reconnecting and seeing my friends from time to time, it provides the one quiet space i need when i badly need to recharge (as an introvert, and as a type 5 used to navigating life by myself mostly). i hope to keep this for as long as i can until i move out again (if there’s a need to move out again) because having that ✨one safe haven✨ is an underrated privilege that not a lot of people have.

(i do wish that for those who don’t have a place in their house where they feel the safest, you’ll be able to look for a space that you can truly treasure and make a safe haven out of.)

Daily Gratitude

July 9, 2024

What are you grateful for today?

Welcome to my gratitude support group! All are welcome to be a part of the gratitude crew. Re-blog, write a note or send an ask as often as makes sense for you (just once, every day, twice a year, a few times a month— doesn’t matter!)

I tag parts of the crew almost every day. If you’d like to be on the tag list let me know.

All posts will be tagged ‘resiliencewithin’s daily gratitude group’.

Prompt (if you want): Name something in your home that you truly treasure. Why?

such a timely prompt because it’s been two weeks since i “moved in” our family home after living far from family due to work logistics. while i’m always grateful to have a place i can call home, i’m not always fond of going back home after a long day (or week) because there’ll be times when i’ll be welcomed with nagging instead 😅

that said, i’m grateful to be back home because this time, i’ll be able to save some money from whatever earnings i’ll get instead of it going straight to bills and rent. i don’t think i live luxuriously (it’s rare to live luxuriously here anyway), but with how low teachers’ salaries are in my country (and i guess other countries, too?), i wasn’t really able to save much even though i hardly squandered my funds to make sure i have enough for my emergency funds (T^T ) so it’s a relief to be able to go back home at a time like this.

(a little side note related to moving back, i’m also thankful that in our culture, it’s not really frowned upon for adults to leave their parents’ house since it’s mostly a personal choice to do so, and realistically, it’s hard to live independently in a developing country because the fees continues to rise while salaries hardly improved for so long, my salary can’t even sustain two people! usually the only time adults leave their parents’ homes is when they get married or they can really fund their own lifestyles.)

i’m also grateful to be near the people i often seek wisdom from now that i’m back. sure, texting goes a long way, but with the workload i had as a part-timer in my previous workplace, i’d rather just spend the rest of the evening resting to recharge for another long day. it’s so much easier talking to my mom and aunt now.

lastly, i’m also grateful that i have a space where i’m most comfortable too! it’s nice to sleep on my own bed and organize my room and things knowing it’ll stay where it is for as long as we stay here 🥹

Daily Gratitude

June 6, 2024

What are you grateful for today?

Welcome to my gratitude support group! All are welcome to be a part of the gratitude crew. Re-blog, write a note or send an ask as often as makes sense for you (just once, every day, twice a year, a few times a month— doesn’t matter!)

I tag parts of the crew almost every day. If you’d like to be on the tag list let me know.

All posts will be tagged ‘resiliencewithin’s daily gratitude group’.

Prompt (if you want): What makes you feel grateful for your home?