I Try To Be Grateful For Many Things, But The Most Grateful I’ll Always Be Is For My Hands. As An Artist,

once again i changed the tumblr names of my main tumblr and my sideblog, and i have come to accept that i may have username commitment issues.

second part of my casual gamer diaries, and it shows that i'm either obsessed with hyv games or i am showing gambling behaviour (so aventurine of me amirite). while gacha isn't technically gambling (or considered as such in many countries), the tendency to develop gambling behaviour is there so...hehe? 🥹

(on a more serious note, the experience of gambling and the emotions it can evoke can make it addictive so i guess if one wants to try, it's best to approach it with caution and a lot of wisdom.)

at the time of the release of cyno's second story quest, i still had chiori's and arlecchino's story quest to finish, but because i love sumeru and the men of sumeru (actually i can say i'm ✨biased✨ towards sumeru characters and the nation itself), i went straight to cyno's quest ofc (*•̀ᴗ•́*)و ̑̑

one thing that i like and amuses me about cyno is how he talks as if he's always going to be in a legendary battle of sorts or as if he's a protagonist in a shounen anime about duels and friendships u make along the way ✨ i think sethos mentioned his manner of speaking in one of his voicelines? i agree 100% with sethos.

he's one of my favourite characters in the game -- reliable, responsible, intelligent, and i do enjoy his sense of humour because mine is just as broken as his.

i'd like to write more about my thoughts on his second story quest, but i'll save that for another entry, and when my head is not as convoluted as it is atm.

also alhaitham is such a mood here. his lines always resonate with me as an introvert. i think i had a lot of screenshots from his story quest simply because most of his lines there are truly quotable.

i did finish chiori's story quest the day after i finished cyno's!

let me begin by saying that hyv did improve gradually in writing female characters, and chiori becomes an instant favourite because of her no nonsense approach to a lot of things. this is also one of those story quests that focused a lot on the character, which really helped in making me appreciate and understand why chiori is the way she is. my girl really made her dreams a reality! (TvT )

i will say her story quest falls easily as one of my favourites, but it hasn't beaten yoimiya's second story quest which currently sits at the top spot.

anyway, i loved her story quest and i'm glad i won the 50/50 on her banner (•́⌄•́๑)૭✧

the most recent patch had me going back to playing tcg just so i can secure a ✨kaveh tcg card✨ that i'll use as much as i'm using him in game as my dps (which is everyday except when fighting ridiculously strong bosses).

first of all!! he is so cute, handsome, and pretty at the same time. just look at him all proud about his tcg deck, and i love him for it 😌

i lost the first round and won the rematch with my inazumen deck (ayato, thoma, kazuha), so i got to see both endings. it's cute how he's trying not to goad about his win, but something in me hurt when i won the game. how ridiculous amirite, but such is the life of an ✨average kaveh enjoyer✨

kaveh being 2D is a sin!! why am i not a playable character in teyvat too??

it's time to fight his demons (himself) today.

his idle thought about the interior design of this place is so in character (ofc), and yk what, i agree with kaveh each time i invite another character to play tcg with me.

anyway, i love kaveh that my friends who are aware of it are probably tired of me having to talk about him in the most random moments. speaking of kaveh, i should upload the photos i took of him in-game for the kaveh goes around teyvat photosets i started.

i still haven't started arlecchino's or clorinde's story quests, but i went ahead and did the archon quest on the day of its release to keep myself from being spoiled ( ｡ • ᴖ • ｡)

i actually got shocked when caribert first appeared on screen, but let me just say: caribert is one of the most good-looking NPCs we've had in genshin.

i haven't really read or watched other people's opinions about it, but i'm okay with it. i'm not mad about it, and i actually liked that we got to sit down and talk with the twin. it made me tear up (hoyo has been doing well making me cry since focalors' appearance) especially when caribert managed to sneak out a memento of the twin's reunion (｡Ó᎔ ก̀๑)

i was also cheering atossa on, but ( ｡ • ᴖ • ｡) caribert u hurt me as well.

i was supposed to include my hsr diaries here (since i've been playing it more frequently to catch up with a lot of the missions), but i'll just put it on a separate entry instead.

when i have a clearer mind and in a better headspace, i'd probably spare some time writing about my thoughts about the game. like a reflection paper of some sort?

in two days, i’ll be officially a month in, in my new workplace, and though this was supposed to be the last resort of all the last resorts (since i told myself i’d like to take a break in teaching), i’m glad that it turned out this way.

i’m proud of how i’m holding up so far considering i still have unprocessed emotions and trauma from my previous workplace (counselling sessions were put on a halt because i ran out of funds to pay my counsellor, and i have to find a definite time i could talk to her once more because i’m back to working again). perhaps it’s the reasonable workload that allows me to actually have a brief moment of centering myself and reassuring that i’m not in the same workplace anymore, and that my bosses are not my previous bosses anymore when i feel a trigger start. i’m also proud that i haven’t really super embarrassed myself, and i hope not to in the coming days, of course. moreover, i’m really proud of my students this term because i can see them do their best to perform as expected, but are also aware and open to receiving feedback. if only we can show the works of our students, but data privacy, ofc.

i still don’t know how to describe my relationship with teaching since i was burnt out for the most part, but i’m approaching all of this with an open mind, and open heart, and an open spirit. anyway, among the recurring themes in my life is restoration, so let’s see how things will go from here. o (◡‿◡✿)

Daily Gratitude

August 26, 2024

What are you grateful for today?

Welcome to my gratitude support group! All are welcome to be a part of the gratitude crew. Re-blog, write a note or send an ask as often as makes sense for you (just once, every day, twice a year, a few times a month— doesn’t matter!)

I tag parts of the crew almost every day. If you’d like to be on the tag list let me know.

All posts will be tagged ‘resiliencewithin’s daily gratitude group’.

Prompt (if you want): Something you are proud of (big or small).

writing this under a cut because i might spoil it for those who haven’t finished the genshin summer event main story.

this whole limited story quest was a riot, and i find it so endearing (nerdy kind of endearing) that kaveh annotates when he reads even if it’s only for leisure (and i say i’m endeared because i do that sometimes, too, when something in the story or the page resonated with me greatly).

of course i like this quest a lot because once again, my best husband is the highlight of the story hihihi (ृ ´͈ ᵕ `͈ ृ )ु kaveh was my favourite in the quest, but my favourite scene in the entire side event is this:

i love chaotic tighnari a lot ¡¡¡( •̀ ᴗ •́ )و!!! just look at that smug smile.

in my (f)unemployment season (so far), which is both by choice and not by choice because i chose to resign, but i also got rejected in all of the job applications i’ve applied for so far (so far, because we still be looking, and it’s only been two weeks since my last day at work) so unemployed not by choice, but by circumstance (?). anyway, this did allow me to catch up on some stuff (besides cleaning my room since i was 15 so that i can sleep soundly and not wake up with a bad case of allergies), and by stuff, i meant the regular rotation of the games i play:

here are updates no one asked for but i will update anyway!

rushed the month-long animal crossing new horizons’ museum event to celebrate the museum and galleries month. we also have our national cultural heritage month on may so that’s another reason to go back and visit my acnh museum since i wasn’t able to do so in real life ƈ ͡ (ुŏ̥̥̥̥ ‸ ŏ̥̥̥̥) ु not even blaming work since part of my last responsibility as a resignee is to finsih and submit all the necessary paperworks and other requirements for clearance (or i won’t get the last of my salary, and the Lord knows i need those funds to sustain me while i go looking for work), but i digress. anyway, usually i do drop by galleries and museums when i can during may since most museums and galleries do have their entrance fees revoked the entire month as a way to encourage more people to drop by so i’ll just do that next year irl.

i’ve been playing acnh since the year it was released, and if there’s one place in my island that i still love going around when i’m done with the intended tasks for the day, it’s the kemeroot museum (my island’s name is kemeroot, btw). ofc i took screenshots on my switch. here’s my character as she crams the stamp rally on the last day.

i remember how i used to play this religiously on the year of its release, that i was able to amass around 2k hours of running around kemeroot, terraforming, planting, landscaping, renovating, and decorating but i’m still not yet done with the ✨final form✨ of kemeroot. i’ve yet to check the number of hours i have alloted for this game now that i’ve been playing it again frequently.

june and july are months of hydrangeas in acnh, too, so i intend to do a lot of photoshoots and redecorating in my island because i love hydrangeas irl and in games.

another favourite in-game activity for me is visiting the cafe inside the museum, too. it’s only in-character for my acnh character to enjoy coffee the same amount as i do.

i totally forgot about the 10-photo limit tumblr imposes on mobile so there’ll be another entry that centers on unsolicited updates about genshin and star rail. and here i am thinking i could type them all down in one entry 😭

sometimes being a rareshipper can be pretty lonely, but also motivational just so u can scratch that rarepair itch for yourself and in the hopes of finding a fellow rarepair shipper.

anyway, here's a wip of said rareship with the photo reference of the pose. i realized while i may have been drawing for so long now, i need a lot of practice when it comes to drawing people interacting with each other.

changed kemeroot’s island flag from usagyun pixel art to kaveh’s friendship namecard earlier, and i realized i wanted to make more of these when time permits me (i’m already thinking about making one of thoma’s and wriothesley’s because next best husbands also deserve slots in my custom designs!). anyway, i’m happy with the way it turned out.

maybe i’ll change my island tune, too, when i’m feeling a little hardworking with the changes in kemeroot. something sumeru music related or klee’s character demo song, whatever i’m in the mood for.

it hasn't been long since i've come around and started appreciating what i'm surrounded with in the moment but the thing i'm struggling with the most is believing that hoping and keeping in faith are still worth my time -- it takes a lot of me to really be present and mindful so i can take time to appreciate whatever small or big event i find myself in.

that said, i will say, since i have to be deliberate in recognizing the glimmers around me, it teaches me to stay in the present and practice the grounding techniques that my counsellor has taught me since, and because it gets me to develop an attitude of mindfulness and gratitude, it makes me grateful to have days ahead for me to exercise that attitude ٩(๑❛ᴗ❛๑)۶

(this is one of my favourite prompts so far as it reminded me that i can still look forward to seeing everything i've invested myself in (not money, though) come to fruition.)

Daily Gratitude

July 14, 2024

What are you grateful for today?

Welcome to my gratitude support group! All are welcome to be a part of the gratitude crew. Re-blog, write a note or send an ask as often as makes sense for you (just once, every day, twice a year, a few times a month— doesn’t matter!)

I tag parts of the crew almost every day. If you’d like to be on the tag list let me know.

All posts will be tagged ‘resiliencewithin’s daily gratitude group’.

Prompt (if you want): Think about something you are struggling with. What about that struggle could you be grateful for? If not now, possibly in the future?

i also have no idea what's going on there, but yes my top three genshin husbands.

it's also been a struggle overcoming my art block so drawing tiny doodles help me get back into making art gradually (•ؔʶ̷ ˡ̲̮ ؔʶ̷)✧

another wip on top of many other wips. hoping i can finish this in time for the ✨best husband✨'s birthday because yes