Devastating to have more evidence that done IS better than perfect
Me as a fanfic writer
"came back wrong" what about Came Back Afraid. You used to be brave. Too brave maybe, defying the odds at every turn, a fighter, cocky, playing with fire, first to throw yourself at the enemy. Until one day it all caught up to you. You came back, somehow, but now you know all too intimately how it feels to lose, to die, to be destroyed. Now you flinch and freeze and cower at the slightest provocation. Who even are you now if you can't be brave? The grave may have let you go, but the mortal fear still grips you tighter than ever.
There's going to be a one-day delay on the next chapter upload because of AO3's maintenance downtime today, so it should be up tomorrow (and on the bright side, this gives me more time to polish it a bit)!
Chapter 16!!!! - The Bloodbath
Here I go getting into a writing frenzy for the exciting climatic boss fight chapter - and AO3 starts lagging just as I go to post it!
Teaches me for thinking I could get a chapter out so early and have everything go smoothly, I suppose. Ah well, I hope everyone enjoys it at least - when they get the chance to read it, that is!
And we’re off! Next story is up on AO3, and updates should come at least once every ten days as with previous (I just realised I’m working off a tenday-based schedule, this was not intentional), and I will try to post here in case of a delay.
Okay, there's going to be another delay for the next chapter. The problem with having a plan is I keep seeing the nice short summery paragraph I've written in advance, and I'm like, "oh that's nothing, that won't take any time at all." and then guess what. That paragraph had no detail in it on purpose. The detail takes time to write.
Also, I've been trying to get to bed at a reasonable time each night to maintain healthy sleeping habits, when I used to stay up late and let myself go feral over a word document, so that's slowing me down as well.
Ultimately, I'm giving myself time limits to ensure that it is finished eventually, because I want to prove to myself that I can finish something if I try - I just need to rework my writing habits into something more sustainable and stop expecting myself to be able to write so much in one day like I used to.
So, to get the point, I'm giving myself another 5 day extension on this one (aiming for the 14th) so I actually have time to finish it up properly. I'm considering maybe extending all the gaps between chapters to 15 days in future, but I'll leave it at 10 for now and we'll see how I do.
As always, thanks to anyone who just reads my stuff at all, with a bonus thanks to anyone who leaves kudos, or especially comments. Every time someone reaches back from across the void it makes it a lot easier to remember why I'm still doing this, why I shouldn't just give up, even when I frustrate myself with delays and procrastination (and do feel free to send me asks about anything to do with the story and characters, I love that shit).
I'm going to continue trying my best, but I'm going to try being a little gentler to myself along the way from now on - and I might wander away from More Graves and into something a little different a few times, as I try to re-embrace the fun that can come from being creative, and remind myself of the excitement of inspiration that helped me come up with this story in the first place.
i write for myself not for comments but dear god getting comments does so remind me of the joy of writing and sharing something
Too many beds
Accidentally kidnapping a mafia boss
Really nice guy who hates only you
Academic rivals except it’s two teachers who compete to have the best class
Divorce of convenience
Too much communication
True hate’s kiss (only kissing your enemy can break a curse)
Dating your enemy’s sibling
Lovers to enemies
Hate at first sight
Love triangle where the two love interests get together instead
Fake amnesia
Soulmates who are fated to kill each other
Strangers to enemies
Instead of fake dating, everyone is convinced that you aren’t actually dating
Too hot to cuddle
Love interest CEO is a himbo/bimbo who runs their company into the ground
Nursing home au
Love love love characters that present themselves as emotionally open social butterflies but the more you see of them the more obvious it is that they’re the most closed off fuckers in the story. Sure, they want to help you with your personal problems and messy emotions, but if you turn that shit back on them, they’ll shut down or deflect every time. Why are you sticking your nose in their business anyway? It’s not like it matters. They’re not a person, they’re just a role being played. They’re the guy who fixes things and saves people. Please ignore the man behind the mask, he’s fine. Everything’s fine.
Sometimes when I'm planning I'll abbreviate names to a varying extent, leading to this sentence that was quite funny to reread.
I mean, we've gotta make sure we have enough T for the workers, Binge! Think about how cranky you get without yours!
I write BG3 fanfic about having a bad time and learning to carry on anyway! It's good fun! And also devastating!
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